The sickness that plagues your thoughts at night
Blinds your rational thinking
Battling between what is reality and fiction
It holds you captive in that black hole

Your chest compressed unable to move
Wide eyed you lay paralysed
You will the beast to leave at dawn
Only to return when the curtains are drawn

Sat alone with my hand on the gun
Reminiscing about our memories under the summer sun
The guilt and fear has control of me, can't you see
That death is the only one that can save me

Why didn't you just let me love you
Instead you looked beyond and straight through
I'm left there standing, anticipating
You shouldn't have kept me waiting

You've only got yourself to blame for what I have become
I used to be a husband, a father , a son
I deliberate the choices I've made and whether
The pain will fade or last forever

Everything I crave now I'm unable to grasp
But things are starting to make sense at last
As my head and heart constantly collide
Now it's time for you to decide

Would you rather be a mountain or a drop in the sea
Would you rather stay caged or run free
Be a pretty little flower or a sturdy tree
Would you rather take that bullet or leave it for me...?

Beauty is an infatuation
A hunger to feed
Starvation of emotion
An envious greed
Hatred and jealousy
You plant the seed
Your innocence is all but consumed
And you will never be freed

As you lay floating in the depths of the ocean
Is it entrapment of the unknown that freezes you still
Or the bewildering sense of absolute freedom?

The calm of this cruel tempting mistress
Clouds all your judgements
Am i lost or free?

Searching for answers to inexplicable plights
Plagues your desires
To break the surface

The sunset reflects against the open abyss
As the day draws in
The light in the distance summons you

As the light fades
The darkness creeps closer
Bestowed deep
Your fear it reeks

Shadows consume
All that is left exposed
Your vulnerable position
Remains compromised

Questioning your weakness
Will inhibit your growth
But your desire for greatness
Will seek out the truth