I wonder if this life of mine
Is worth the pain it brings,
The pain that I've caused others
And the pain that lies within.

I wonder if I would be missed
If I were here no more,
If anyone would grieve for me
Or continue as before.

If you're depressed within your life
And thinking along these lines,
You would do best to seek some help
While there is still time.

For these feelings friend if let build
Will promote your Suicide,
Depressions grip will take it's toll
No matter where you hide.

I can not say the things I'd like
Or tell you how I feel,
My heart is cold void of pain
My head is beginning to real.

I'm hurting deep within my heart
My life you have destroyed,
Yet I love you more and more
A confusion I can not avoid.

I do not know just what went wrong
Still I blame it all on me,
I can not hope to get you back
Now I know you don't love me.

Please my love for the sake of the kids
Let us still be friends,
Just put the past behind us
And let the bitterness end.

I give to you this day
My love forever true,
The eternal love within my soul
My untold love for you.

So with this golden band
I'll open up my heart,
To show to all my love for you
Is a love that will always last.

And when this life is over
And I'm buried beneath the ground,
My love will still reach to to you
To comfort you when you're down.

This vow does not come lightly
But with conviction and from the heart,
And it comes to you upon this day
When our life as one we start.

The grief is still destroying me
From somewhere deep within,
It risers oh so slowly
And causes me to cringe.

I sometimes can not cope with it
As it tears my soul apart,
And I wonder if living is worth the pain
That lies within my heat.

But life is still worth living
So I'll push that pain aside,
And live life to it's fullest
With friends and family by my side.

For there's still so much for me to learn
So much still left to do,
So many things I've yet to see
That I'd love to share with you.

I loved you when you were born
I love you still in death,
I will love you until this earth
Crumbles to a dusty breath.

I miss you deep within my heart
And pray that when I die,
I will forever be with you
For as long as there's stars in the sky.

But for now I will forever be
In an agony that blinds,
until we are together
You are forever on my mind.

When something hurts within your heart
Think of what I'd say,
Just take things slow don't think to much
Just take life day by day.

I know the reason you are down
But now I can not help,
I can not hold you in my arms
Or comfort you to help.

And so I'll write this poem for you
And hope that I am right,
I hope it helps you just a bit
When your alone at night.

Now Micheal was both our son
And beautiful was he,
But the Lord decided years ago
To take him for some need.

I can not understand it
Or believe that it is right,
To take so small a child
To heaven out of sight.

Maybe it was for a purpose
That the Lord took him away,
I know that he's happy in heaven
And can never be led astray.

But it hurts and the pain is a deep pain
That rises and consumes me whole,
And the hurt that I feel sends me crazy
Keeps me confused so my mind can't take hold.

But I know that life must go on still
So I push the grief aside,
And try to live the best I can
With the hurt that is still left inside.

The locks are gone
Tears are falling,
The walls are building
I have no more keys.

My mind is blank
All emotion gone,
I'm lost in a place
Where I don't belong.

My heart is broken
Forever lost,
You destroyed "us"
But at what cost.

Will I ever love again
Now that the trust is gone,
Or will I just continue on
Without an emotional bond.