I’ve lived this life blind to the world
In a haze shut off
Ignorant naive and bold
Not sure of what to make of the road
Loss of control fatal crisis mistakes
Tuned off to the tone the rhythm that carried
My bones through the cold
Sacrifice brought upon by decisions of old
Contradictive habits Atributes acting manic
Self seeking trust issues beaten down led to panic
Chasing pain for the passion
Love and slide for the art
Cruise control making love to the tune in the dark
Sight of love touch of hands long distant thundered crash
Saviors of the night rock bottom of the past
So unreal surreal
Change of habits left a deal
Of crisis change of cast
Differential change of tasks

She’s so far away
Must still be my muse
The error to mistakes
The conqueror to my tunes
The one that got away
Afraid to grab her hand that day
Or should I say that night
I swept her away
Took her for a cruise down a one way street
Tired heart felt abuse gave her all back she needs
The difference is she thinks she won
It was defeat
I just couldn’t walk away with all she was
And hit the streets

I need someone to love me
March to the beat of my song
Our song the twine of madness
All is right nothing wrong
The madness in my brain
Brings me down to my knees
I’m afraid
All I need is someone out there to wander by and come find me

The sound of rain upon the rooftop as we lie there awake
Natures melody
The bend of Sun-rays
Orchestrated beauty natures beast of further days
Out in the future that’s where I cast my brain away

Now that I’m left here all alone to these days I belong for moments time
Catastrophe the sea to save
My body from destruction
Self sabotage in every way
A savior with the wind that strips by a brighter day

I’m depressed and down
No where left to go
Turn over to the past
The casket of the house
Alter to the mind the state that you hide
The truth of falousys that never seems to unwind

The reason on why I do what I do
Dance with my word mind in a cope
Clarity intuition declares rerectafy the lost tears of distant ears
Or set a peace mind of friends
Heart of sorrow let it mend
Crippled casket of a man put to restless mend

I need
I need that food to feed the empty vacancy
Unknown to my soul is the touch that I know
The rhythm provoked by the mind way to cope
Humbleness humility shame that I hold
A way to get out be comfortable as I flow
Through societies eyes the groove to my home
Stature arrest the way I walk through life with no hold
On realities hands
I need to hold on to what I care about
Find a way to go back
To my passion stimulation flow rhythm nation
Patience lost of hope while I’m waiting

My mind is unleashed the rhythm that seems
to carry me home back to the place where I’m pleased
state of mind set to peace
carry on pull through you got all that you need
empty afraid it’s a current disbelief
how I got this low and I’m still fighting to breathe
breath by breath a casket of cringing greed galaxies between sanctum of lost falousies
dead between marksman with his aim off beat
misdirected send clarity to my seems
of sacrificial right between the lines empty beast
beauty in the silence you get what I mean

Everyday I'm losing faith
What is what was begins to ache
The emptiness from past mistakes
Afraid to own myself these days
I lost it all it's you I crave
That taste that smell
Your loving traits
Your hug of warmth distance away
Your touch of love release restraint
If touched my world begins to cave
In within it's not to late
To make a life worth living straight

The passion that beats deep within this kids being
The need for a love he's never physically pleased with
Searching for a purpose an outlet to release
The insecurities that thread the seems of his existence
The lack of confidence that speaks on his body language of resistance

I thought I had all the answers
I thought I knew the way
Thought I was something special
Lost in a blinded haze
Now I'm waking up
Not sure what to do
My poetic passion I pursued
Is drowning with no love or a muse
A boy lost from the truth  misdirected construed frustrated abused
By his tormenting brain of a ruin
A battlefield has uprooted
Tossing and turning in his sleep
He hasn't seen her in his dreams
Feels like his purpose has no means

Old souls are wise
They've made tons of mistakes
Time after time
The same ones
On and On
Around and Around
Dont learn too quick
Still young
Possibly a
High school for
Souls and Spirits
To learn Gain wisdom
Move up  Carry On
Sliding by
This rides the one and only
Finish line pay off debt
Balance karma
Give more then you take