My **** is mostly brown
Liver screams enough
My bowel motion
Is loose

I pour more of my death
It's my only friend
My premature end
Pancreatic dead

My glass is full
My addiction rules
My bed is wet
My heads a mess


It's what it is
The drink
My thrill
The end is upon
Me
My innards
Distilled

It's a dream seemingly
Am a fad unclean
She's air in my tar filled lungs
I spew bile
Cleans my teeth

Rancid sweat
Smells so sweet
***** smells just
The same

My sky is always grey
Her hair is as expected
The drain overflowed
With excrement

She looks at me with
Eyes dripping of love
I look back
And  just know

My skin is crawling with insects
My mind is begging
My legs are swollen
Am full of loathing
Shop is calling
My saviour
My ill

I open my first
The endless
Ritual my thirst
The insects
Now gone
Habitual
Quenched
Lust

Wake up
Full of dred
Head to the sink
Which is then fed

Bile mostly
Tap runs
*****
Dispersed
Last nights
***


I
Reach
To my saviour
The
One i know
Best ,
My 9%
Godsend
I love him
The best


An hour passes
I start
Feeling
Ill
The cramps in my stomach
The fever is real

No money
To fix this
My head
Full of dred
The perfume
I bought her
Is drunk
With intent

I just took a ****
It had a stench
Of scarred
Liver.
I opened
Another
Turned
The
Mirror...

I
Slipped
And clawed
My
*****
Is
Brown.
My fecall
Matter
Matters
Not
Now...

The
Yellow
Of skin
Is
Oh
So
Clear.
Ive
Gone
To
Far
Now
My
Wish
Is
Here .

Its hard
Indulged
Abused
Used
Self
Pity
Broken
Dreams
Overdose
Addiction
Wars
****
Stained
Jeans
Razor
Blades
Open
Vain
What
Have
I become

I cut the cut again
The blood ,i bled
Noise in my head .
Gasping for air
My cutting chair
Iron scented liquid
Encroaching the floor
My life was mine
I ask for no more