Cracking back of leaves with every
Step.
Wet from brooding puddles

The sun is high but your mood is low.
You feel just off twelve.
Not knowing how to adjust
Or should you just accept?

You sent her chrysanthemums
But now you're not sure.
She mentioned them once in passing.
The receipt feels heavy in your pocket.

Have you misread the glances?
A dog barks in the distance.
Maybe she always laughs like that.

But oh, how she laughs.
The deep raspyiness, not beautiful
But enjoyable.
A jogger huffs by.
Maybe tulips would have been safer?

You'll find out soon.
You spent so long ensuring every digit Was correct for her.
Is a purple flower a weird choice?

The phone buzzes. You desperately Throttle through the maze of receipts And cinema stubs.
Glowing in triumph, it emerges.

"Hi Dave. I just wanted to say..."
You fumble over the dog leash that Blitzes through.
A crack, the screen splits, resting on a Bed of crooked leaves.
Just next to a row of chrysanthemums.

God only knows
He's thinking of her.
When lying
Wrapped up in another.
God only knows he doesn't love her.

God only knows
Her last thought
While lying on the glassy road
Was his morning hello,
Morphing into her fold.

God only knows
How cold he is,
Stooped in the snow and mist.
God only knows
How his life drifts.

God only knows
She will never leave his side.
He burnt her spirit, he stole her light.
God only knows
How she fears the night.

God only knows
He can't pay them back.
He takes in her smile, his final night.
God only knows
The gun on his back.

God only knows
Today he met her.
God only knows
The weight of their words when their shadows blurred.
God only knows
Their shared today's and tomorrow's,
Their future joys and sorrows.
God only knows
The future laughter they will share.
God only knows
The kisses they will bare,
God only knows
The child they will care.
God only knows
She will be there to hear his last goodbye.
God only knows
How with every laugh, she gave him life.
God only knows

You said you weren't coming home with me.
And my heart dropped.
You weren't there to catch it.

Your sleepless nights became my tearful eyes.
But I didn't let you see,
I put on a disguise.

I felt so vulnerable,
So alone.
Your arms no longer a home.

I shared my secrets with you,
The **** I've been through,
But you said you barely know me.

You lied to my face when I saw no bag.
You let me be happy, thinking you saved me from the sad.
Your bad.

You robbed me of a smile when I needed it most.
You stole the host.
You drank the wine, then said it's not fine.

You think I'm strong but I'm not.
I cried after you left.
Tears and fears creeped and seeped.
The hug didn't help.

You got lost in my reflection, not looking beneath the surface.
So goodbye, farewell, because I know I'm worth it.