its taken me way too long
to sit down and re write the lyrics to my song
why is it everywhere i go
im struggeling to belong
knowing that im loved
but never ever feeling good enough to show the ones i love.. LOVE
instead of helping anything or anyone
i get TRAPPED
wondering if i will ever get out
how when my minds filled with self destructive thoughts
which then fills my entire soul with doubt
it crawls up my spine
creeps into my mind
sinking its teeth into my kneck
hitting me down from behind
gotta get back up
try find my way out
but all i can think about is ending up in the ground
who knows what if its me that comes next
im so sick of feeling like a slave trying to survive and understand something so crazily complex