Wow
you did it
you moved on
really quick
nine months to be exact
change is inevitable
I need to be where you are in life
I'll catch up
Don't wait for me
I'm a kernel waiting for my moment
to
POP

It's early and late all in one
My mind wanders back to you
The dew on the ground is perfect today
The hours I get of sleep are few
Your image in my head gives me this feeling
It's like excitement and sadness in one
It makes me want to hit the ceiling
You're so handsome
Almost so that it's on the brink of danger
I love it, but
It scares me
You haven't left, even though I've pretty much shown my past
I don't mean to, you seem to comforting
So much so, I want to tell you everything
I dont want to scare you off though
I'll lay here while my mind wanders
Wanders to the endless possibilities of you
Wanders to the possibility of
Us

I'm happy
I'm finally happy
I'm rid of the negative people in my life
I'm planning big things for myself
I'm finally grasping what life is
I want to share everything with you
I want you to be able to tell me to wait
I would wait for you if you'd ask
I'd do what I need to while I wait for you
I don't want anyone but you
I dont need anyone but you
All I need you to do is ask
I have my life figured out for the most part
All I need to complete it, is
You

I thought you were a no show
I'm sorry
I took to my best friend
I'm sorry
I got drunk
I'm so sorry
I spilled everything on you
I think I blew it
You're my favorite person
I'm so sorry
I'm really going to miss you
I'm sorry I blew it
I'm sorry I'm emotional
I'm sorry I told you everything
I hope someday it'll all be okay
All I have to say is I'm sorry
I'm so sorry

You dropped me off
I'm crying
I can't stand the thought of not being able to have you
You're leaving in less than 48 hours
Your kiss
Your smile
Your voice
Your warm embrace
Your kindness
It's all coming together
It's just as well you have to leave
I'd move to be with you
But that can't be
I like you too much
It's scary to say I might even.
No, I can't.
I can't but that won't stop me from thinking it
I
Love
You
It's there
You feel it too I hope
Maybe you don't
I'll make our last day count
Even though there is no doubt you're leaving
I can't take the feeling
I'm sorry for loving you
It's like a taboo
Me loving you
Because I'm not even sure if I have you

I'm overwhelmed getting ready
I'm thinking my makeup is a little heavy
You think I'm pretty no matter what
So I'm thinking my liner should cut
My stomach's tied in knots
I can't get rid of all these thoughts
You're here
I'm scared all over again
A trip to Durango is what you said
We laughed and talked the whole way
You listened
Like actually listened
We went to feed fish
You held me so gently
You kissed me so softly
You're eyes were so fixated on me it was uncanny
Someone feels this way for me?
The walk we took was one to remember
I can't believe he's still holding me
He's heard my crazy problems
(sort of)
Yet he wants to keep continuing this date
I've never had anything handed to me
Here you are buying food for me left and right
You gave me your jacket
Oh my God, why does every thing feel so right?
You bought me hot cocoa
We walked downtown hand in hand
My heart skipped a beat every time I looked your way
I wanted to cry because I didn't know I could feel this way
More talking and driving
You never pulled from conversation
A stop to the movies
I couldn't stop touching your chest
Is this a test?
Oh,no
Oh, please no
He leaves in two days
I can't
I won't
Please heart and brain dont feel this way
We went bowling
Then dancing
(the first place was so boring)
You took me back
And that was that
One last time tomorrow
Then my heart is heavy with sorrow

Messages come though
I send them back
I'm at work though
I'm sorry about that
You still seem to want me
I'm not sure what it may be
I just hope I'm not some piece of ***
Although I do some things that may seem crass
You like me
You like me alot
I like you too
But I really don't know what to do
You leave after I see you
All this is way too good to be true
I can't take the suspense
I'll take an early out of work because I'm so tense
12 hours till we meet again
11
10
9 hours go by in 5 minutes
Until we meet again

I'm scared
Finally meeting you
I hope you don't run away
I'm not much, but you seem to want to stay
You couldn't find me because I was being vague
Crap, I gave myself away
I see you in the corner of my eye
Looking hella cute
Almost as sweet as pie
You hugged me
Let's just wait and see
What kind of person could you be?
A kiss?
For me?
Well hot ****
I wasn't expecting this type of attention from a man
I might be catching feelings
Oh, no
Should I let this happen again?
Why are you so nice?
Can I trust you?
I don't know
Maybe its possible, I think I can.

A laugh
A smile
A gesture
A "Hi"
Sometimes, that's all you need
Someone who is actually there
Someone who cares
Someone who doesn't care how messed up you are
Where did you come from?
Why now?
I'm scared
You know?
They all leave one way or another
You cute, but how can I know to trust you.