Vision is watery, eyes completely flushed
Viewing the solid ground, shoe kicking the dust
Limiting correspondence with those who I struggle to trust
Head Hotter than the Earth's crust, I bond with the flames for fun
Rejection is rough, especially when your reflection stares at you because you're the only one

Fiddle with this pen as if I'm going to be famous someday
Extend each vocal to fully grasp what consist of my pain
Some angel's say I'll breeze through the thunder and rain
This is what I gain from rearranging my life around, to be vomiting a crucial weight
If I express the motive for freshness, God might notice my patience
While I'm waiting for a key to see the other side of the gate
My entire soul I give, but sick of my current suffering, feeding off the negative trait
Obtaining a family ticket to a new world
Probably the only place I'll ever meet a girl
Sometimes my mental state is on the north pole
But soon I'll propose to a heavenly ghost
A spot for Edward to go forward
Metaphorically a cell that consistently grows

Laudatory remarks for a young fella who was ahead of his time
Influential because he share his ideas as you read each detailed line
Noted predictions about the generations as he changed my mind
Kindred spirit and gave my family motivation before he died

Memory as he spoke to fake OG's(Original Gangster)
Through his writings, the future he could see
Everything about a clan he desired to lead
Especially his destiny to write poetry
But being there for others gave him no time to breath

A young heart with an old soul
Spoon filled with his will, cleared the bowl
Formed with credence, but how did he know?
Almost like he reached the stars as well as the ground below
Some couldn't understand him, but his presence will forever show
That life is a privilege, now you watch my words glow
Not focused on flow but meaning that is hiding in a pile of gold

The only person who had a life that was worse
Those who didn't believe him when he said he was cursed
Didn't just want to change the world, but soon meet a girl
Never happened but noticed his Heaven's referral

People changed how they act, but of course, some do still act black
Girls no longer attract guys that fail to give them a pat on the back
Maybe our existence is tragic, but stand laughing
Because some elements have to be sad

Every dawn I yawn quiet, florescence I inhibit softly
A clear image I peep, nature settles calmly
Her intentions are infectious like a blossomed flower
Reminds me of a family member who meet God at the calling hours
Kindred spirit fully defined the character she was
I inherited the genetics, only reason I still search for love

But moments I'm impatient because there is not much time
Predicting a future analysis, for a young guy it's surprising
Maybe it's my fatal dreams that scream to me
I hope I at least find a woman I adore passionately
When I'm shook with hesitation, I feel the wind grabbing me
Pulling me with motivation to hopefully find my destiny

Dear Heavenly Father, I give you my props
Even though I walked without confidence and stumbled a lot
I will forever praise you as you raised me
Continue striving and even after my heartbeat suddenly stops
Showing my appreciation because you're the only one who truly cared for me
You did make me suffer, but for a good cause
To make me stronger and improve my many flaws
Failed connections I made because I misunderstood how I came across

The surface we stand on is never expected to be perfect
Please heal those who once made me feel worthless

I rest in your closed arms, a home I truly belong
My illness happened for a reason, you were the answer all along

Socially unorganized, I place critics down a size
Standing with preferred confidence gave me insight
Partially adapted from the root of fear
I sometimes hear my inner voice remarking that my time is near

Position to overcome challenging courses
By altering our contained nature to make stronger choices
Often at the mill I witness the loud of noises
I either adjust or continue breathing in the poison and drown in my salty ocean


Maybe tears can be manufactured through happy times
Is it weird I fake my laughter through your own surprises

Some may question my ability to think and process
I reveal the sources to my brightened conscience

Assemble the many gears we set in stone
Ever wonder what's it's like to be thrown?

My past creates a memory lane for me to see
I rather improve my empathy willing to still believe

In love with a spirit because I glance swiftly while there is no in sight
Passport to find true family as I hunch over my seat, in hopes to discover actual happiness during a safe flight

Zenith from a telescope
Chose this device at times to view the slightest hope
Fractured elements of my past seem to have their grip
For a brief time to reflect on struggle as rain starts to drip

Having faith that a single memory would significantly improve you
Captivating true affection for somebody special because I don't want to lose you
Proving that my worthiness is not minuscule, I approach with warm intentions
In the same field I'm fading desperately in need for attention
Not to mention I have Dysthymia, a ligament to severe depression

Regardless of my atmosphere, I remain strong
So when I finally meet a girl, she can say I was the right one all along
Usually I'm up before dawn thinking of her future presence
Been riding solo for 20 years, digging myself out of the hole I fell in

I made negative choices that brought me near a closed door
All the pain I go through speaks to the ones already in storage
Collected notes and journals locked away when my tears start to pour
Difficult for me to accept the fact I'm distant from the girl I adore

Broken artificially due to the chemicals that consumed me during birth
Thanks to Mom I'm cursed with lack of blood flow when I'm trying to learn
Aggravation reached it's ****** while I roast and burn
At work their explanations are never clear and firm
Only answer is God until I eternally yearn

From 1998, I was born while my existence was pronounced a fluke
Evil twin, though an age gap, I sat myself flat after physical abuse
I salute to the man who fouled my head off a saw slitter
Mad man with a given temper only persuaded my blood flow thinner

Excessive ******* to where I pull the trigger
On Christmas, his fellow friends prolonged the demon’s dinner
Couple of high school kids much bigger than what I have figured
He now remains in the same place with revenge waiting to be delivered

A young 5th grade minor feeling the wrath of a swinging guitar
I was unaware at the time that his conscience was dark
Pull blown sparks being targeted towards his front yard
Retaliation wasn’t needed until your intentions were meant to harm

Actions were not taken vital, I resume to the ride the waves
I don’t have the time to waste my patience for a guy not willing to change
I don’t care if he was my cousin or a tall male with long range
Performing mature decisions became my open door to walk away

Peculiarities are seen Hence their life is angelic
Gifts and presents are always bound for credit

She taught me, it's the thought that counts
I always stay loyal to her, her love carries 50 pounds

Her voice is infectious when she sings
Momentary gazing I fastened, warmth she brings

My life was perfect until she suddenly held her hand with another guy
Left me puzzled I was reaching the ****** of wanting to die

Silent cries soft spoken, while I woke up from the dream and sighed
I thought it was supposed to be you and I, now my misery is quantified

2 weeks ago I had that dream, from that point, I was weary
Death is scary to some, but I find it sweet, if it was me in my dictionary

I need a woman near me so I don't foul play my life to take
Shaking my time span sustainable, this is the Devil's game

Knowing too much can be draining
Those not proving what they're claiming

Personally, It's faith I'm aiming
Issues can be caused by simply complaining

Until my fate frames me...

I'll forever be a man with a damaged wing
Considerably gifted but humble while I'm fading to live

Is there a purpose to this chapter
Watch me spend hours on writing to be a rapper

Light flashes as I contain a bulb to perform laughter
Not thinking of the simplicity of me becoming sadder
I head-but vibes and only bring confusion to everything I gather

Making sense of the world is to much to offer
Sincerely, call me Edward Parker
A self-composed man exposing his nature of an author

I calculate the madness and it's still incurable
What does the world want? the elements keep me miserable

I Tip-toe and gleam to salvage my goals and dreams
My pen bleeds blue or black ink, 4 to 5 utensils applied to meaning

I might be inclined to sketch my life graphically
But what's the point? why can't I enjoy moments relaxing?

If I Step my feet in her boundary, she will not permit
Even if I called her digits or was prompted by stitches

My heart is busied so affiliating with you would be knew
I never had a connection to last crucially to understand the visual

Siblings' example makes it look so easy
They try to preach me on subjects bound reach me

I sometimes fail to listen and learn
Whether I am initiated with Christ like they are
I tend to believe staying close to them, keeps me aligned and firm

Pressure to bust through the neighbors door
Retaliating static
A black polished pistol pointed to a chest and blown
History of Black Panthers grinding with dope addicts

My young brother relates more to the city due to his color
We don’t share the same father, thus, womb with mother

Catching felonies is similar to increasing your fever
Blood flowing as fast as cells growing, lacking a teacher

No mother or father to some, preacher is a heavy thinker
But will he explain their culture alongside society and respect for hoodlum drinkers

Though the state only provides alcohol beverages to conceal their embodiment of fate
Let's break the crate our brains were left in and disconnect the chain

My peeps advise she’s not worth it
Could it be my nature to fall for her
In my heart I know she deserves it
I don’t want her to become the target

In conversation she’s amazing, straight genuine
We all know connections occasionally fail to last
Another heart left again, cold chills though I push pins
Tack another love letter to the wall not mailed, a foolish craft

Incorporate sufficient dialogue with God the father
Dosage of best medicine and course of thought
A period of family connectivity UN-bothered
The woman spider lost her fruit fly, his life was once caught

Escape the fiery depths of Hell and become your own inmate
Translate the morals you wish to inspire at Judgement Day
Mean everything that you say or perpetuate, no slang
The customs of God and Devil seem to focus on rate
But anyways I motivate myself from understanding my intimate Mistakes
I view her intelligence so if accidents are penetrated, she makes the call
Block me, rock me, rot me….
Well I ended up becoming a falling leaf this fall

Aggravated through the Tucker's womb
Off to the abyss consisting of carbon smoke
Thus inhaling fumes
Initiated with the family drive
Pulling me into the author's loop

Big sis taught me to never let the fire drip
I take gulp sips
Because if I ever gave her lip
For instance, handling a death grip
My conscience shall not slip

A letter to my friends in the cemetery
You're forever blessed
Notes deeply potent through the prophecy

To my comrade Andrew, fly high
Mercy shortly pertained the visual
You're smart and I'll come home in a while
A thorough heart with a crowned smile
God taking you by surprise, I sit outside
But just a shadow in the midnight
Paper work for the given day
Will I be risen to Co-Sign?

Infatuated with tall waters at age eight
Almost fell flat bottom
To the surface, I was purchased and saved by Cass
Sister from a damaged path
She was one of many who drew my sins on an open map
Young patched body with tattooed facts
Spreading all around his chest and back
Coming back from the grave with clean rags
To place pressure on my scabs
Feels like I've been hung on the wall and tacked

Nailed on my forehead until I no longer remember
The pain at a given temperature
I hit the lever
Now I'm free, But am I really?
Shaking intensively to say what I have to say
Thoughts so logical they hobble on the ceiling fan
Shady that some acquaintances might hate me
I stand adjacent to Faith, so your hammer can't break me

Systematically the cause for the wrong ones inspired
Violence enacting innocent people in passionate fires

Emotional suffering is not a subject the public is equipped to feel
Others are addicted to inner pain, peeling off the layers they soon conceal

Were you a burden that was inside hurting?
Though, had heart for fruitful learning?
Likewise the moon changing phases as tables are turning

Some will not change, but...
A wide support range that is attempting to clean this place up

Communities are depending of the forming capital
While the hungry is an ugly picture, we need a miracle

Insensitive to share currency for the well-being
Instead I envision a clear division of what two sides are seeing
A suite for a desk and a supervisor depending and leaning
Reputation is now a source we enable room for breathing

What's the purpose of retaliation if the war keeps steaming
No altercation is solved, just evolves to a point where fate is all we are experiencing
Cashing spells is what we are demonstrating, until Hell invites the screaming

Seneca customs shape the finest blend
'Dysthymia' I take because pain is my greatest friend

Gianna is my definition of enduring as I get shoved in the mud
I no longer rank the beauty or my hope to her statue I've loved
Maybe an ordinary angel I saw from afar thus saw abundant
I shouldn't count my chances as I'm now emotionally struck

Flounder God's love account and take out loans
Amount is lower than a world colder, I need a vest bold
Smoke coats my physical and metal form, lungs choke
Broker than the souls drinking the Pacific Ocean
They seem to believe all the fuzzy convoys croaking

Prepare to shelter yourself with the warm grass
War erupts in your mind so time to ask for mercy fast
Stacking a pile of paper when you are strapping words for asking
"God please raise me from the rapture until these people trap me"

A supplement of scriptures to finalize a pure soul
Society is shaky and crazy for lacking remorse for a home torn
Sticks and bricks dancing in the wavy flames
A deceased family was shot up through ISIS ways

I don't mean to go off topic
But a tear can be tasty to embrace the heavy logic

If I had a penny to drop in a well
I would undergo friction of sharp edges
Close to fate like a magnet because the cure is not helping
A man in the mist of change is erasing his memory of yelping

Low key citizen inhibiting a strong desire
Why buy a match and toss him in the fire like burning trash?
My window tinted as blood marks are printed, grief I admire
I came from a background flare of those devilishly laughing

Quick and snap a picture of a young clan member I once was
Bear tribe is my essence and nobody understands deep loss
13 siblings spread over cultured land, sheltered with cream frost
Our own gang we created due to cops and their weapons drawn

However, my mental state altered and I bow down
Village of Camden I reside while little Amanda in memory was abandoned
Sis I will always stick by your side but I'm glued to this town
Adoption day was not your fault, I love you, no longer stranded

Lord willing if I meet her
A grey ****** protecting a home sought to wither
But I will not let that happen, Aspen is the notion to shiver
No clue where you currency live, 18 going on 30
The situations you were among is the heart of earning

Until then, I send this whole poem from a diamond heart
Rare to find but wishing to parish, will I learn through the dark

I Stand Beside Him as if he never turned to ash
Andrew was a true friend
Car accident had your seat belt strapping
I grieve when thinking of you
Asking God if there is a special ticket to come see you
The belief that a connection never dies after your last gasping
Every opening I'm falling through, every crease
Traffic passing as if what happened was not tragic
I say please and thank you more often because of the sadness
Tears overlapping into the bucket, while pieces of window glass are shattered

I capture the memories that will forever be
A fellowship as a received gift, abundant like piling leaves
Even winter can't compare to the inner cold you breath
Shadow of His presence beside me

A friend who is a brother
A member who became family
Within the shadowy depths of delusion
To still picture a person not here, thus, inhibit misery
Physically you're numb but emotionally you're forever bruising

Falling to the floor, hands touching your own filthy guilt
Too much attention is a lesson I learned, a building no longer standing still
The weight of pressure and understanding is the scale I failed to balance, like the blinded part to my free will

Not greedy for money but communication
Is similar to a poor man eating half of a meal, and means to waste it
Might as well spark the flame and resume your mentality blazing
I usually don't pin-point other's mistakes but at times I'm illustrating
A photograph meant to be left alone as I still manage to recreate it

Accepting and moving on is the key I could not find
Envision me with this effort to keep trying
Painting an image of what I desire most
Hope for all and my conscience to stand tall, self-fighting

A battle zone in your mind dome
Too many feelings weakened, carry me home

My acts of annoying the boring people who don't want to talk
Seems to trigger me strongly, I continue on flossing
Make perfect out of nothing, read this message in white chalk
Every lie is bought and every dawn is another moment
It's about time I walk

Away...

I attempt to send you a text message
Quick start up conversation but it's the new beginning
For now at least I value a strong connection
However, I'm far from clever when the subject is love
Want to call you and spare some opportunity, but I'm stressing

Affection that's shared with you is breath-taking
But objection is a ligament of mine, lacking confidence has me shaking
Anxious to initiate dialogue with a woman, under conditions relating
Too much difference is what I usually find
Aching and feeling stiffened by the direct blow to my face this time
All I was aiming for was to meet a woman I saw divine

Speaking to you brings me in a loop
One minute I'm approved, there are several other dudes
Searching like I am, reviewing
A fall out I knew would enthuse the fact I first noticed you

Watch me crumble too..

My feeler of tides, the flux of ocean life
Are withering and teetering the sunlight

Waters roar and I'm standing on the coast
Tension all around is from the misty smoke

Movement of rocks befriend the thunder
Even the sound of lover, reaches under

Puddle in my eyes, don't drown
Near a woman lying down

Protect her from harm
Arms wrapping her until the dawn alarm

Her heart is tender
I promise I will remember
When bereavement is the subject,
Flip the lever and let her
Walk on flowers
The tip of her toes dipping into water
I bring her to this place and watch her grow stronger
The house on the hill I built, I love her

A gift given to me was me knowing her identity
Blessing to have stepped on her feet
Noticing the mark she imprinted, she is the air for breathing

Hope you are well miss!

If you are not accepted
The hope will commit ******
And all factors will be affected

My heart is saying leave
But what a tangle, weary weave
Pulling from the deep seems to catch me
Off guard as of now, all the painful dealings

Sit and wave my hands in front of you
A ghost never receives the convoy menu

Feelings are in the mist of reforming
Dragging my body through the storm
Where was God when the Earth was emotionally showing
The flaws in some, characters change
Utterly violent and scoped through close range

Election Day is the secrete to the plan
Trump either has a clear path or ****** hands
Trust nobody is what I will stress
Families are the only source to unite the black dress
Code laws are going to alter the safety of people
Creating departures until they forever possess

Danger to all unless somebody steps up
Never abide to authority if they're green greedy
If you snoop on them they will **** you instantly


RIP Tupac Amur Shakur(September 13, 1998)