Breathe
In and out
The words will come
The actions will start
You will create a world for him
One day
Do not worry that day is coming
Because this is day one

You work hard
You see
You hear
You understand
Now create a world for him

You can and you will
Because you were meant to
This is true
Breathe

I’m exhausted.
I need to ***.
I want to be happy for a whole day.
I need a shower.
I need to get off the floor.
I’m tired.

I am kind
I am funny
I am caring
I am passionate
I am loving
I am good
I am smart
I am pretty
I am important
I matter
I matter
I matter

If I don’t fix things then what am I for?
Fixing is my purpose.
If you say don’t fix me, how am I to be?
Fixing is my purpose.
I want to help, to fix.
But who fixes the fixer?

We are not perfect
We have moments where it could end
We are not the couples you see on the screens

We are us
Damaged and happy
Beautifully normal

I want to be less angry
I want you to listen
I want to have a space that is ours

But I know that I love you
You make me laugh
Laugh so hard

You make me feel safe
Warm
Loved

You are not like anyone else
Thank you for being uniquely you

So many feelings.
All at once.

So many thoughts.
It makes my head spin.

But the more I stand, the more I stay.

What I can do is breathe, dance, stand, get through.
I can.
I can survive, so one day I will thrive.

There is no rush. I cannot rush this.
I wish I could skip to the end.
But I need to experience this. All of it.
All of it.

So many thoughts.
So many feelings.

I will take this day by day. I am me.
I can do this.