I write this  to spill out all the exfoliation inside me
In the darkness of my mysterious dreams
When the fears surpass my rationality
I scream out loud your name
Am  I being lame?
Of it's late to say all the says I didn't say when you were alive?
Should I leave behind the vivid  memories of you grabbing my hand?
When I first stepped on this  earth
The unpleasant feeling of your beards sticking my face
Or  the face we used to had when you wanted to spank me for stealing
Sometimes I hate  you know
For leaving US without  my consent
You have left me with the uneasy task of taking care of mom and sis
Mom still beautiful as you met her in her juvenal age
Radiant
Light-skinned
Smiley
Behind her appearance
There is an ocean of sorrows and disappointments
She no longer has  faith in people
She sold out her dreams so we could have a chance in life
You never deserved us
But I still love  you
I still love  you