In our minds
We sit and stare
In thought of who goes
First. I draw a card.
She plays a card
I play and she draws
Two more, I play knowing
She has two more cards
I draw three more, but I’m oblivious
To what’s happening.
She smirks.
And plays two cards
One was the joker and the other a Queen
She controls the game....
yet I know the outcome
Of the endless cycle of
Chicane.

Standing I wake
Impulsed i fire
You can’t stop the impulse
once the fuse is lit.
The cancer in your mind
Just consumed your thoughts.
feeling pain, ill take it all away
From you if only you’d give it to me.
Give it to me....
I’ll take it and ease your pain.

Why do you make this hard ?
Sing it to me if you have to
Spill it out if u need to
Write it out if you want to
Scream it out if you have no other choice.
Let me know how you feel
Don’t sugar coat it
Tell me how it is.
Don’t keep me in a cryptic world
Where mystery is my friend
And decoding is my enemy.

The reflection of my face
I wouldn’t even recognize
I guess I’m to blame
You said you’d be there when you weren’t
I said I’d give you my all
But you let it all go
I wish you were around when I looked
In the reflection of my face
I miss
I miss
I miss you
**** it
I dreamt about you
But it never felt right
I wish I told you everything before you left
You... you told me that...
I thought you cared
I don’t understand how you stayed optimistic
When you were ready to let me go

Am I too much of a stranger ?
I know.
I know,
Your mom told you not to talk to strangers
But do I feel strange.
Do I look strange?
Shame on you
Haven’t you felt nothing
Haven’t you felt much
That’s okay.
I thought I’d never get over you
But I’m happy now, with you out of my site
Where I can be happy without your presence.
You haunted my dreams,
You become the host when I closed my eyes,
But not anymore.
You can’t see me move
Cuz ***** there’s no eyes in it.

Unhappy I am.
I simply don’t get mad from the mistakes that should upset someone.
I feel... NOTHING
I’m not sure how to act, because I ****** up... Yet I think there’s a way out of all this sadness, but I can’t fathom when it’ll all be better.
I’m blind to what’s in front of me even if it hits me.....yet I see so clearly.
I’m unhappy, because I’m trying to make someone else happy
I trust when you can’t even trust yourself
I love when you can’t love yourself, But what does that make me?
Who am I ?
I lost myself trying to help people find themselves... YET I’m the one left
Picking up my own pieces.

I’m standing in the dark
Shot in the eye
Shot in the brain
Feeling numb
But my heart won’t stop racing
Who, I, to decide weather you should
Let go
Who,I, to decide the outcome of this
ambivalence.
Stuck where I stand,
Standing where I’m stuck.
All I ask if you can open your mind
And not be tunnel minded.

We sit and wait
For the time to finally
Pass by hoping we’d be okay
After nightfall.
Time ticks like a tirelessly
Twining clock.
Time never dies.
So what are you hoping for?
Time is not what you should wait
To pass, but rather the perception of time.

Life goes on
I sit and sip on my tea
Not knowing what tomorrow might give me.
Why am I like this.
What happened?
Where’d you go.
I Put the cup down
And a voice reply’s
“ you happened, you fell, and you’re still trying to get up, WHATS HOLDING YOU BACK GET UP TIME IS RUNNING OUT”
I shed a tear
Knowing clearly what I’m doing
My shadow consumed all that light
And left me nothing but darkness.
Dark I see,
Dark I feel,
In darkness I drown in fear.

I thought i found a way
A way for everything to go away.
A way for my emotions to just fade.
A way for me to be happy again.
A way for me it just be normal.
I thought you would make all of that just go away, and you did for a little while,
But it all came rushing back as if it knew I’d be falling down the same hole I was in before.
I blame myself.
I blame me.
I blame I.
For all that’s happened I allowed myself to love when I was in no shape to love you

Naked.
Get up
Come here.
Window open.
Gust of wind;
Breezed by him and her.
Love—They asked “love why are you doing this”. The fake love that people happily walk into blindfolded like hoping for a surprise. Love has been avoid of loneliness, to fill that gab of emptiness.
I am doing this, because you’re tearing me apart trying to fill something that only you can fill.
I’m here to love and bring you happiness,
Not to fill your void of loneliness.
Wind blow out.
And running they kept.

Unhappy I am.
I simply don’t get mad from the mistakes that should upset someone.
I feel... NOTHING
I’m not sure how to act, because I ****** up... Yet I think there’s a way out of all this sadness, but I can’t fathom when it’ll all be better.
I’m blind to what’s in front of me even if it hits me.....yet I see so clearly.
I’m unhappy, because I’m trying to make someone else happy
I trust when you can’t even trust yourself
I love when you can’t love yourself, But what does that make me?
Who am I ?
I lost myself trying to help people find themselves... YET I’m the one left
Picking up my pieces...

Why do we do the thing we do?
A question that I don’t yet have an answer to, and I hate not knowing the verdict of such great outcome
Why... I don’t get it
We lie
I lie
I’ve dug a hole so deep
And I’m left alone,on my own drowning.
My hands by my side not reaching out
Knowing if I do I’d get pulled back by the draft.
So alone I’ll stay
Alone I’ll survive
Alone I’ll grow
Not hurting anyone else.
For i am the dark hole I’ve created.