I'm to shy to speak my thoughts and to ashamed to just speak my name.
I'm to afraid to be myself, and to caught up in your beauty to speak any game.
To afraid of rejections so my true thoughts I start neglecting.
I sit back in a distance at time just stunned by you as you stand close to perfection.
Right now the time isn't right so I choose to just let you pass.
But if faith have it's way we'll run back across each other and the proper words to say to you I will finally get to grasp.

You destroyed movements that would have bettered my peope
As a white devil you're enslaving those who are weak minded and making it a sequal.
You took my friends away and stole all the traits that once made them bold.
You have them lying and stealing from me which overtime made my heart so cold.

Because of you its genocide in the street where people slowly **** one another
Two paths with you, you either die or go jail, the false life of getting rich is how you got my brother.
So lets sum it up that I have never messed you but some how by taking away family and friends you took away a piece of me.
I just pray that the black plague you are will just be removed from the world starting with these streets.

I remember when we first met the year was 2009.
Nine years later were still being cool and everything seem fine.
You use to live on my brain but I'll lie If I didn't say you will always be in the back of my mind.
I'm just glad we can be always be friends and just kick from time to time.
Back in the day I never took my shot because you had a crush on another guy.
I was feeling you but still just keeping my feelings real shy.
I remember writing you a poem and getting one right back.
Moments I'll forever cherish.

I tried fitting in with them but was told my skin was to dark and that I was not the type.
I asked a darker crowd for companionship but was denied because I was told I talk white.
In reality they ment proper but I cannot hate my own people for what they don't know.
In a country where a letter from Willie Lynch divided us and still stunts our growth.

We were deprived of our name, religion, and planted an idea in our head that lighter is better.
Features once  seen as a sign of ugliness such as big lip or now being imitated and make others jealous.
These life scars remain though, that rain from feeling left out seemed to only get wetter.
Hoping one day this alienated feeling will dry up but one can only be zealous.

I wish we weren't friend and that our lips can become one.
I wish I can just open my mouth and share my true feelings.
I feel stuck that I had a crush this long and closure never came.
It's tough seeing something so beautiful and knowing you will never have it.
Maybe years later once were completely apart, this can be something we laugh about.
Until then I'll stay in my line.

I tend to think lady liberty is blind from a crooked system deep within.
Also she tends to be harsher on those who have a little darker skin.
Years later I'm still feeling her effects with the constant storms and hale.
Think about it how does a minority race take up a majority of the jail cells.
Land of the free, home of brave.
Built up by torture and capture along with the entrapment of slaves.
And once you set them free you label them as being less than a man.
Add in implication of Jim Crow laws in a large unethical plan.
Segregation was legal followed by discrimination.
Tie it in with institutionalized racism what a melting *** of a nation.
How do you stop the movement of those when it come to being black.
Import drugs into the ghettos and have them strung off of crack.

If I told you I miss you will you take it as game
If I told you that you had my heart still would you see me the same.
I told you that you're more than good looks but you take it as game.
I tried sparking your brain but all of sudden things started to change.
Now out of depression you constantly drink and pop pills.
You want that feeling of being out of your body to the point your life you don't want to feel.
You find yourself laying on your back for the wrong guys.
Believing anything they tell you just falling for the lies.

The friendship we have can't be explained.
I seem to smile everytime I see your name.
The time we spent as associates was brief but it still came.
Now we wishing we can hangout more one of these days.
And I dedicate this poem to you because we're so far away
But still do your best to check in on me when you find time in your day.

Just when I thought I seen it all we finally had a chance to cross paths.  
No nerves or jitters just good drinks from Superiors and good laughs.
Just being able to talk about the past help make the conversation real cool.
In the back my mind I know that the women in front of me is going to one day be my jewel.
She believed in God and was educated in school.
I was lost in her eyes and beauty which turned me from a scholar to a fool.
I didn’t want i  to leave wished we could’ve stayed all night talking.
The drinks started to get to strong and at her face I couldnt stop gawking.
I was hoping to get another date before the new year started.  
In the back of my mind I told myself we’ll one day become cool before hugging and departing

Samething that make you laugh can make you cry.
Samfiend you put trust in can even lie.
Samejob you work can lay you off.
Samething you once thought was free can eventually come at a cost.
Samepoepole you call family can go missing when times get hard.
Same girl you spilled your heart to can one day still away and part

I cut myself for the first time and got the rush of my life.
Blood went everywhere I was stunned at the sight of the knife.
All I felt was pain at first but then it slowly started turning into an adrenaline  rush.  
I was tough and just amazed at my slit wrist that I just sat and stared while I kept my words on a silent hush.

They can trap your body but never your mind.
And as time progress everything will be just fine.
Just continue to pray to God and believe in the word.
Your moment of freedom is here.
Until then I will continue to build up the name.

I remember getting the call that things are over.
I did not care because my heart was getting unattached.
No tears or remorse I took it in like a soldier.
The heart beats on with a feeling that will never be matched.
I took all the pictures down no need to ever wonder.
New love will eventually be in the air.

Successful woman I'm trying to become a part of you.
You are far past superficial and have a crazy work ethic that I admire in you.
I don't see myself chasing nothing anymore but you while you chase that dream.
And I see you working and going to school  and getting it by any means.
Far from ordinary you easily change between a dress and some jeans.
Aspiring to have it all Im just loving your potential to be great
Just hoping I can slowly step in and could be in your fate.
Driven to have it all the last thing you worry about is rest.
Instead of running the streets you study and doing what it take to pass all your big test.
Never caught in the strains of getting caught up with your peers.
You make grace look good as you overcome the world fears.

You are my best friend and someone who has stuck it out through issues that were thick and thin
When I failed and hung my head your motivation wouldn't let my ambition end.
You pray for me and cook for me and transcend my spirits to a level that *** can never reach.
Though far from perfect you're everything that I need through I'm learning more within.
PLEASE DONT CHANGE!

When we hug and part ways I can feel a warmth like I never felt before.
When we talk and I look into your eyes at moments I truly feel that I am looking deep down into your core.
Im waiting on the day where things for us can flow naturally where we both recover from the past.
I think of the day that our lips become one and we can kiss but right now I shy away because I know your feelings are fragile like glass.
When the time is right and I kiss you, you will be able to tell that my heart and intentions were true.
Until that came though I will continue to try to the be the best friend I can to you.