I can't explain this thing

That beats deep inside me.

I will never understand

This thing I cannot see you.

I can't explain these feelings

I have always tried to hide.

I don't understand this anger

I'm feeling deep inside.

I cannot explain why

My heart is truly crying.

I don't understand this pain

And yet I keep trying.

I can't explain

What I see in my dreams.

I never understood these fears

Or what it all means.

I can't explain these eyes

And the story they never told.

I don't understand why

My heart is so cold.

When will it stop?
This pain i feel deep inside me.
My one any only
Turned out nothing like it should be.

I waited for him
And i gave him my heart.
I trusted him with my innocence
And he tore me apart.

Unanswered questions
The lies I won't forget.
Should I have forgiven him?
How long will i feel regret?

How can I have faith?
Will I ever trust again?
Why do I still feel plain
And he already had another woman.

My thoughts alway about him.
Can't get her off my mind.
How could she be so cruel
When I was so kind.

I made him my whole world
And now all I feel is alone.
Have I lost my chance at love?
Has my hurt turned to stone?

My life is full

Of these crazy dreams

Silence out of reach

Or at least it seems.

I often wonder

what makes me tick

as these crazy dreams

they are making me sick.

I live in darkness

Each day of the week

About these crazy dream

I shall never speak.

My heart darkens

Black as night

As these crazy dreams

I try to fight.

A hellish nightmare

I live each day

As these crazy dreams

Slowly take my life away.