If it wasn't for society
I think you'd like me
Confident, smart, funny
All things once found easily
now are lost
for the anxiety of what was
still haunts me
scared, lost, broken
If it wasn't for our society

I'm sorry
if you needed me
I fell asleep
because those toxins of life built up in me too
I needed to let go
I promise it wasn't to hurt you
I fell asleep
I'm sorry

Where did you go
'Waiting for ... to add you back'
Is this your way of goodbye
Where did you go
I never said I wanted you to leave
I couldnt tell you about me
Where did you go
If I did you would have ran
Sorry for the secret
Where did you go
I worry about you
How will I know you're safe
Where did you go

Everything ends eventually
Nothing really lasts forever
Don't let it confine you

Or you'll be one of them
Fallen into the same trap

Unintentionally
Sacrifically

Take a picture
Put a filter
Black and white
Those look best
Because then
You cant see
What I'm try to hide
Black and white
Acne is unnoticeable
Scars erased
Teeth look perfectly white
Eyes perfectly shaded
Everything looks better in
Black and white

Reserved
It's not allowed
To be with you
But I will wait
Ever so patiently
Reserved
For when the time comes
And we both get what we want
The starry late nights come to focus
And the drives we planned
Finally achieved
Reserved

You can not blame me
I made you get help
I listened to your problems
Everyday
Just to let you know I was here
I let you rant
everyday
So do not put the blame on me
When I was the only one there
everyday

Who are you today
Are you there
Are you gone
Who are you today
Are you happy
Are you sad
Who are you today
Are you awake
Are you asleep
Who are you today
Are you alive
Are you dead
Who are you today
Are you you
Are you me
Who are you today

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It wasnt long ago
I could tell you everything
But now it seems different
I get scared to let you in
How could you love someone
Who doesnt love themselves

All around me is light
The sun that shines bright every day
The moon that illuminates the night
My friends who bring endless laughs
Yet it all fades as the night comes
My smile grows dimmer
My laugh cut short
I've become one with the darkness

Tell me why you're fixated on the broken
The untouchables
The ******
For I am one
I would like to know
What makes me whole
Why you're so curious
Why aren't you running
The broken scare people
So tell me why you're fixated on the broken

Fear not
I'm still here
Just a little lost
Not because of you
Of all the ones before
Made me like this
Insecure
Broken
Fear not
I am okay
It just takes time
For me to be alright again
I always come back
Fear not

Send help
I feel it settling in
Send help
I don't want to disappear again
Send help
Please I'm finally happy
Send help
It's going to consume me
Send help
I can't handle it again
Send help

To them it's so simple
Holding hands
Hanging out
Showing each other off
But for us
It is everything but
We arent allowed
Rules
Stipulations
Conflicts
To them it's so simple

Something about you
Are you crazy in to me
Or just lonely
Do you see everything
Or just what you want to
Could you handle it
If you cant handle yourself
Something about you
Confuses me

I urge to be with you
To lay my head on your chest
To do nothing but sit with you
So close, yet so far
I urge to be with you
Even for just one night
So for once I could sleep sound
Knowing we had each other
I urge to be with you

You can claim you were looking up at the stars
And a lot of people would believe you
But you and I
We know the reality
That stars burn
And the greatest star is the sun
So when you say you're looking up at the stars
And I the sun
we both know we are crashing
burning
falling
because all we are
is the sun and the stars

The dark sky creeps over, clouds getting darker
What happened to the sky that made it so angry?
who upset the beautiful sky?
No one knows what happened
except that there is beauty in the chaos
the rain hitting your face as you walk
the smell comes rushing in
the raindrops come down harder and harder
you don't get upset about getting wet
you relax in joy as someone gets it
you can let go of everything
something about the rain becomes relatable

The problem is you made me feel different
after I said I would never again
cause this feeling is awful
the loneliness
the emptiness
but it was for you right
So why should I care that much

6:30
Time to get up
Same thing everyday
Jean's, sweatshirt, headphones
6:50
Time to go
Same playlist every morning
Daily mix 1
7:30
Clock in
Time to get to work
Sit down
8:00
Scan, click, scan
Click, scan, click
Scan, click, click
4:00
Time to go
Clock out
Drive home
4:30
Home now
Cook dinner
Eat dinner
5:30
Relax for a minute
Minutes up
Time to go again
9:00
Time for bed
Get tucked in
Ready for another day
6:30
Time to wake up

The thing they don't tell you
About suicide
Is who is affected after

You left me without a goodbye
How am I supposed to live
Knowing you wanted to go

How am I supposed to love
When it was never enough
To save you

How am I to accept
When you didn't say goodbye
After all the time we shared

The thing they don't tell you
About suicide
Is how much it hurts

I'm  A little tired,
So I think I'm going to Sleep.
I hope you Understand that,
SometImes it's hard to breathe,
When my thoughts raCe,
Trapped In my mind.
It's time to say gooDnight,
PlEase don't forget,
That you meaN everything.
I'm sorry. I'm not goOd,
WiTh words but I love you,
Please don't forgEt that.
-For  E

I always find it ironic
I'm here, but I couldn't feel more alone
I'm home, but I don't feel at home
I'm here, but only physically
I'm here, but I don't know where
I'm here, but until when
I'm here, but when is it home

I found a new place to call home
now that it's here, i want it to stay
how will i ever recover
from another lost home

I guess the difference being
this house moves with me
shows me unconditional love
Something i thought way beyond me

For once i can say i'm home
but am i giving you too much
or not enough
Did i find home?