tame your demons
broken voices
persistent choices
mix your familiar freedom tones
do not trust all that you see

sun block the arrows
blind as night
clear as day
shadows created by your light
water pulls you with the moon
limping along like whitened coal

stealing stars
on borrowed time
familiar faces break into pieces

character confessions reveal your judgements
ice cold face teared with drops
licking flaming all that is

threaded spreads
connect unseen
patterns extend extrude then clamp
dissolving structures
shredding toxins
ephemeral flumes
invading night
flexing fibres
stormed in strength
silhouettes silently shape
unfold

sensing your scent
a virtual presence
magically mixing in my mind
clinging
clearing
crystals of time
missing
moving
gliding
glittering
sparkling
shining
echoes of love

darkling casting spells and sparks
char
coal

surges

glows

darkness black as chthonic pitch
revealing

messages

murky

missed

paned
curved
waves
crack and smash
foaming
frothing
smeared about
water blues and greens commingle
savouring
basking
in
littoral
shingle

pouring
spilling
into her eyes
peeling
piercing
a layered disguise
emerging essence fired with light
glowing
flowing
in lustrous flight

if you do not know
how long you will
stay  
make it  
your
brightest
in
every
way

folding flaking flying
flowers
floating fleeing
fast

posing petals
poised
painting paths upon the grass

curdling colour constantly
magical myriad mingle
matching mosaics majestically  
a vibrant vivid
marvel

surrounded by
so much more
than we
need
why do we then
force feed
our
greed

anguish and anger
over many years
hurt and pain
with some tears
attraction addiction
fatal restriction
unable to fix
a scourging affliction

split splintering
wedge widening
gap gaping
secrets secreting
so much hidden
so much hiding
pretence can lead to
much
dividing

men keep lists
of those they kissed
details intimacies form and shape
times places perhaps a date
and when their self esteem is low
these records stroke their brittle ego

his track record is on the shelf
revealing much about himself
double dicing when he felt the need
copiously spreading his spewing seed

spreading with his twitching gun
spraying loving so much fun
shame and guilt under rage
tricked and trapped in his own cage

sadly sinking left behind
tethered trellised so entwined
gasping gaping whaling weeping
what is it that
you
seek
to
find

trestled truths
come splitting through
smatterings in yellowed blue
shaking quaking patterned pictures
crafting casting mystic mixtures
proposed exposed
in fleeting flight
masked and mirrored
in the night

i love the tree
she speaks to me
each early every morn
she answers questions that i have
to guide me on my way
her lichened dampened cool crisp bark
protects her from all that is so stark
her youthful strength is so immense
her presence there is just intense

i found it nearly in the sea
so exciting
a first for me
gently lifting it from the sand
i carefully carried it
on my hand
the only thing
you managed to spot
was the single chip
right on the top
and what to me
was a wondrous find
became imperfect in your mind

the weave was woven with invisible light
warp and weft
linked in flight

fibrous filaments mingle and mesh
twisting spinning
converging afresh

gossamer strands betwixt and between
bind and blend
without a seam

twining twirling
close to my head
waving winding
wondrous web

entangled entwined ayahuascan vine
copiously crafting
multidimensional time

virtual
carnal
actual
real
secret messaging as you feel
occluding closeness in present ties
filching feelings with hidden lies
infidelity has many strains
enticing them to play these games

i felt your venom
in the night
spittling forth
with so much spite
unable to show
any empathy
targeting me
as your enemy
if forgiveness is
what you seek
then give it too
try to be meek
avoiding what you cannot face
will not free you
from
your
entangled
space

melt this moment
mould it in time
sensuously slipping
his arm behind
encircling enfolding
with
eternal
love

refracting reflecting
instant imaging
phantom phrases
winged words
pensive poignant
pacing
past
haunting
happenings
being
alive

whirling whiplashing winds
cracked chipped crests all afloat
fearless feathered friends hover
piercing peels penetrate
bending bushes bow and sweep
hibiscus heading skywards
catamarans metal tinkling
thrashing sails
vortex spiring papers
sun rays bubbling  
crusty sky
day emerges

felt fear fades into consciousness
emotions are plummeting
vice tightens on pain gripped heart
mirky miasma of blackness envelops
molten thickness cloying body and mind
uncertainty
overwhelmed
weighed down
staggering
struggling

darkness came bursting through
revealing more than i ever knew
it was the test
for you and me
the deepest
we could ever be
our blackest sides then emerged
together
both
what a surge
we rose above it
hand in glove
surging resting
enveloping
love

chilling changing charging charming
edging easing excavating
daunting daring detonating
falling failing feeling fainting
heaving hoisting hefting hauling
mounting masking mystifying
mulling making morphing moping
pounding paving penetrating
quelling quashing quaking quailing
seething saving suppurating
tempting taking towing teeming
sparing saving storing solving
squirming squealing squashing squelching
varying vying vacillating
melting molten moving moments
smother cover consummating

articulating this entrancing encounter
difficult still to expounder
captivated aligned in a cosmic net
the abecedarian of how we first met
paths and lives ferruminated
knowledge and knowing assimilated
mystical astral interstellar intrigue
culminating in the purely oblique
such a kindred correlation
absolute projection and expectation
intrinsically bound in an eternal rhythm,
just as within the pearlescent prism

beams of sun
light up our cottage
spills of snow on mountain tips
icy wind
clear blue sky
olive trees justly jive

squally raging gusting wind
screws are missing
zincs are kissing
flipping flapping
banging tapping
branches brushing scratching
fight
rain is lashing
precipitating

thank goodness
we are dry
tonight

R
coral cinnabar crimson carmine
cerise claret cochineal cardinal
burgundy ruby scarlet vermillion

O
apricot amber carnelian topaz
nascarat saffron jacinthe tangerine

Y
flavescent lutescent xanthic citrine
jessamy ictericious ochre meline

G
vivid viridian olivaceous teal
zinnober porraceous and eau de nil
caeisous virescent cyaneous corbeau
celeste celadon pavonated azuline

I
cobalt peacock prussian pthalo
saffirine aegean denim blue

V
amaranthine amethyst violaceous plum
heliotrope purple violet mauve
ianthine porphyrous lilac lavender too

thoughts of feelings pushed aside
where do they go to  
then reside

words that stirred inside my head
unexpressed
never said

stopped from sensing intense emotion
forced to dilute any commotion
joy and sadness just forbidden
what happened to all that was so hidden
what remains
to
just be
is
touch

with it
i can
feel
so much

letters decant and i often find
they alter into a different bind
the rate of flowing into me
depends on their viscosity
they come and go
and overflow
triggering
written reflection
essentially
of
my
introspection

you loved me through my dance of life
ecstasy and darkest strife
you held my hand as i turned away
imagining a better day
reaching our tranquility
balanced harmony
for you
and me

why the we for the retirement plan
where was the we when the work began
where was the we for first days of school
where was the we when our children broke rule
sports day prize giving swimming ballet and more
waking at night
scared and unsure

how then to make we
out of me and of you
when for so long now
it has been
me

mostly

without  

you

twirling twining
undermining
mixing thoughts of
what could be

wheeling whirling
so perturbing
ticking
timing
when
will
it
be

my love infuses
convoluted chasms
sensorially seeking sensuality

secret sounds of
heeded hearing
savouring scents that
waft and wane

tingling tastes from
treasured truffles
tender touches that
flourish and flow

vibrational viewing that
sights the scene

my gaping wound has disappeared

i just let it go

it bled and festered furiously
burrowed deep inside my soul

scabs of healing
lifting
revealing
unveiling a residual blotch

when injuries come and go
scarring then remains
authenticating the depth of pain

that
i
felt
within
my
mind

as i uncover what is hidden in me
i wade through layers of history
bathed in swaddling of protective shields
never to show what i truly feel
subdued suppressed crushed and contrived
unable to show
what makes me feel
so alive

twinkling in twisted twine
mystical
memory
illuminating divine

magical moments
clarifying crystals
mindful musings
portal pillars

tampering tinkering with
intangible
time

words spill into my mind
streaming delicately down my spine
swerving and curving with mind-blowing verve
unlocking visions with magnificent reserve
veiled for so long without expression
they pour and flow
thick and slow
exuberant ****** musings

they erupt and unravel without regulation
arriving delightfully at their destination
as they appear
on my blank page
i savour their conception
creation
and
emersion