I drowned my demons by occupying my mind
I drowned my demons by occupying my body
The demons drowned me
I am a prisoner now of my own choices
Trapped in this mortal shell
Trying to get out
Afraid
But trying

Pure soul,
bitterness,
disappointment
The taste of you,
the aftermath.
My heart
a ruin
Parts of me
are still with you
Refused.
Within you
and without you.

You can’t bring dead things back to life
it doesn’t matter how much you try
All the joy, sadness, awkwardness and everything else
Every moment
From the best one to the worst
Gone
And you’re still there weeping for something that doesn’t exist anymore

Alone!
Alone!
Alone!
I screamed
No one responded
Not even an echo
How did it come to this
Why am I alone?
Someone please answer my call
But not a single tone could be heard
I was alone in this world
No friends
Just me
I smiled
A forced smile I never wanted to bring out
But I pretended i was strong
While being nothing,

The church bell is ringing, I have this strange feeling to go to church?
Im sitting near the balcony,
witnessing the fall of dusk in this god forsaken city
More and more lights go on, turning peoples lifes into a fools paradise
Traffic? Like always, filling every ******* space.
Thats it back to my routine.

I read the song lyrics you post
And their secret messages they have
They’re full of doubt
Full of hatred
Full of regret
With tiny pieces of love
And I keep asking myself,
are you really trying to describe me?
Is this the image you’ve created?
Or is it just your biased fantasy of me?
I don’t even recognize myself anymore
Let alone understand your words