The world has no eyes on me
at 3AM
I don’t have to engage
or entertain them
It’s the the most peaceful calamity
that I’ve ever known
A tranquility of silence
and darkness my mind’s chaperone

~kb

There was a light in her
like I’ve never seen before.
That purity in a person,
the kind you can’t ignore.
She’d call me from
her bedroom floor
to talk about life,
what we're here for.
But I knew all along
a monster played in her head.
We tried to keep it tamed,
but she was hanging by a thread.
You seemed so content
when you called me those days.
I felt ok for you,
you’d find your way through the haze.
But the next call from you
wasn’t your voice.
It was someone else’s
telling me of your choice.
I cried and fell weak
to the unforgiving floor.
I wouldn’t be hearing
your voice anymore.
I know that you suffered
so greatly, my love.
Just know that I know
you’re smiling down from above.

~kb

One of people’s biggest fears
is being afraid to die.
They’re not afraid of death,
they’re afraid of losing life.
So if you ask me if I’m afraid of death
I’ll have to tell you no,
because I’d have to be afraid
of losing something I don’t know.

~kb

Don’t tell me I don’t love you
It couldn’t be further from true
It’s just when I look at you
You aren’t the you that I thought I knew
I no longer have myself a space
Or a horse in this race
Or any adoring look on your face
I haven’t fallen out of love
I’ve simply
fallen out of place.

~kb

There’s far too much left to discover
Stop playing undercover
Let’s be real
Let’s be lovers

~kb

When I said I hate you,
I meant I love you and please
tell me you do, too.

When I said I was fine,
I meant I’m breaking down
a bit. Just hold me close.

When I didn’t speak to you,
I meant I’m so sorry, I was wrong
I just, don’t know how to
tell you.

When I looked you in the eyes,
I meant tell me what to do
because you’re pushing away.

When I said we can’t communicate,
I meant, you don’t seem to know
what love is, you don’t know
how I need to be loved.

When I said goodbye,
I meant goodbye.

~kb