IF YOUD STOP THINKING ABOUT THE OTHER ONE AND FOCUS ON LETTING THE ONE YOU ARE IN, IN THE NOW TAKE ITS PLACE ITS PLACE AND COMPLETE ITS UNKNOWN OR UNCOMFORTABLE PURPOSE IN YOU, YOUD UNDERSTAND HOW IMPORTANT THEY BOTH ARE. JUST BECAUSE IT IS NEGATIVE OR A BAD EXPERIENECE DOES NOT MAKE IT ITS DUTY IN YOUR LIFE ANY LESS IMPORTANT, OR A WASTE OF TIME. I BELIEVE WE GROW THE MOST AND RICHEST FROM THE MOMENTS WE DREAD AND DENY AND PRETEND THEY ARENT THERE. SUPRESS, DRINK…SMOKE…IGNORE THE FEELING…DOES NOT DILUTE IT, IT JUST MAKES YOU LESS AWARE OF THE CHANGE THAT’S HAPPENING WITHIN YOU, WHICH IS SAD IN A WAY BECAUSE YOU KIND OF MISS OUT ON YOURSELF. THOSE ARE SPECIAL MOMENTS, THE HEAVY DARK AND DEPRESSING MOMENTS ARE ONLY YOURS, WE EXPRESS AND UNDERSTAND IT AS LONELINESS, “NO ONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT IM GOING THROUGH” WE CRY..JUST THE WAY WE TRY STAY POSITIVE WHEN FEELING NEGATIVE , SO SHOULD WE GIVE THE NEGATIVE A CHANCE SO WE FIND THE POSITIVE….SO WE ARE PREPARED FOR THE SUCCESS COMING…ITS YOUR JOURNEY, NO ONE ELSES, WORK ON ENJOYING THE WALK ALONE. THE COMPANY YOU MEET IN YOURSELF COULD BE THE BEST YOU’VE EVER EXPERIENCED…YOU SHOULD KNOW PAIN. IM STILL TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF, WHAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IS EMBRACING IT, ACCEPTING IT AND ALLOWING MYSELF TO FEEL. THAT’S WHY I WRITE AND SING AND  SMOKE BEAUTIFUL JOINTS. THE SEEDS ARE SEEN BY MY BLOOD SHOT RED, SWOLLEN, BLURY EYES….SPECITALS, LOL..AND ROLLED SO GENTLY AND LADY LIKE BY MY SHAKEY SKINNY FINGERED HANDS…THOUGH IN PAIN I CAN WRITE, SING…THINK, DREAM…I AM NOT AFRAID OF PAIN, THIS FEELING COMES RARELY…MOST OF THE TIME, I AVOID IT OR TRY KEEP MYSELF AWAY FROM IT EVEN THOUGH I DON’T KNOW HOW IT WILL COME, WHEN WILL IT COME AND WHAT IT MIGHT MAKE ME FEEL INCASE IT EVER DOES…LOL! CONTROLLING WHAT YOU CANNOT ….A MOMENT THAT YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IS ONE YOU TRY PREPARE FOR THE MOST BUT WHY THOUGH?
I CAN BOLDY ACCEPT THAT IT IS COMING, I UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT. I REFUSE TO WAIT OR PREPARE FOR IT BECAUSE ILL NEVER BE SAVED FROM IT BY DOING SO, MY PREPARATIONS ARE NOTHING BUT AN EMPTY USELESS, TIME GONE….WASTED. I CHOOSE TO DO OTHER THINGS SO I HAVE SPACE TO LET THE PAINFULL MOMENTS IN LIFE COME THROUGH AND NATURALLY TAKE COURSE LIKE EVERY OTHER EXPERIENCE IN MY LIFE.