The more I see...the longer hate grows
& through my body it rapidly flows
until one day hate will reach its ultimate limit
by that time...I don't know the mistakes I'll have to do it!
I was watching silently without giving a **** care
till that night...the devil seared me with such nightmare
the devil waters my hate and anger tree
with the tears previously rolled from me
he keeps searing me with those scenes
throwing me into the black hate ravines
and now...I've got only two choices in my fate
either blindness.....or the **** hate.

I know the story seems too long
Me myself feel z drought of my tongue
and get bored from such blue painful song
Whereas I got to be tough and strong
if I still have z sense of right and wrong
You know something!!... chasing wild wasted dream
is like trying to catch hot searing steam
you will never catch it actually
but it will hurt you severely
So...the weak soft heart solidified
which was for so long lonely tied
the one who seemed like a fool
is now taught to be hard and cruel
Rolling tears...deep pain and killing sigh
I won't live in this misery till that day I die
Perhaps....another dream has gone
but for sure there will be a better one.

As I refresh up my memory
To remember days in my history
some days arouse my happiness
another some.....fill me with sadness
but while remembering....there is always
a smile…..!!

I remember that day when I was struggling
in this hard cruel world without tiring
Thus...I used to the way of success
just used to it...till it became meaningless
I got almost everything I wished
but still one thing that I missed
till I met her…..!!

Her eyes...her smile...her laughter those I couldn't ignore
when I met her...I never ever felt like that before
she was the one...I had been for so long searching for
finally!!...love & success...never wished for anything more
it seemed like the cheerful world had opened up its door
but not that wide open….!!

She strayed & turned away from my love                    
she said I'm not the man she was dreaming of
she left my heart in a way of fears
she let my eyes in a lake of tears
she burnt my heart with a searing fire
the fire .....of my innocent desire
and tragedy continued….!!

Then the beginning of the worst of the nightmare
Failing...the thing that I never expect or even care
cause it was the last **** thing that I would ware
I was safe on a mountain.... then the sudden fall
absolutely a disaster... the greatest one of all
at that time of my life.... I lost every single goal
that's how life changes….!!

I now believe in an idiom though it seems too blue
that the happy moments in our lives are extremely few
just a few ones....like an early morning leaflet dew
But at least I have one thing left to do
to remember that another dream has gone
Gone away...... like a dusking sun.

I think the tragidic last chapter has started
as all the glorious chapters of my life are wasted
all the happy glorious successful days ended
I'm so torn... so broken to be mended
my dreams & ambitions were my only way
swept away leaving me nothing to say
life's so dull & gloomy without hopes or dreams
as they drift away in dark shallow streams
I see it now.... green soft trees fading to brown
I feel it now.... my will to live is about to drawn
I believe in it now....that all the surroundings let me down
Hell !! ... no one can imagine wt I'm feeling
cause no one can imagine what I was dreaming
My  dream was simple and almost true
but that wasn't the fate's point of view
Thus...another dream has gone
nothing can be said...nothing can be done.

Dreams...were my reality that I live,
I had so much faith .. so much love to give.
I dreamt of changing up the whole world,
turning chains of thorns into necklace of gold.
building up my own glorious empire,
where justice, peace, love will entire,
and all the virtues that a sensible man can desire.
A sweet dream to live in this perfection,
and also so hard to fulfill this fiction.
but I had faith and courage to carry on,
I didn't need anything or anyone to rely on.
just only you
my faith .. my courage .. my strength .. you
my will .. my spirit .. my hope .. you
my soul .. my life .. my love .. you
but you just walked away& left me behind,
searching for something else that I'm sure you won't find.
Go .. leave .. but try not to forget,
a decision that one day you'll regret.

I can't .. I can't feel blood running in my veins
but I can feel love dancing in my heart
so, I fight for what I can feel
& sacrifice by what I can't
Ain't I materialistic?!!?

That's my definition to materialism
coz my love to you was a symbol of idealism
but you always have your words of criticism
coz that's not your definition to materialism

My love wasn't enough for you
even when i said that everything I do
I do it just for you
you always want a materialistic clue
to prove my love to you!!

After all .. you didn't get it
that you're the only precious thing I get
for you .. I would fight and never let
that's why it's hard for me to forget
but you didn't give me another choice to submit
so I just have to do it

I know as your love dies
an endless pain will rise
but at least, I won't hear more lies
and one day .. I'll find real truth in other eyes.