They can have a wonderful life without me I guess it must be sad

That's too bad I've gone and went like summers rain

It's such a pain

I sat in the tub thinking of all the bad times because there where no good

But there I stood

Plugging in the chord to my demise

And dropped it in the bleach white tub it didn't rise

I thought to myself would I even be missed

Would they even cry when I've passed

That thought didn't last

I jumped in the tub crying and felt my body surge

As it submerged

I walked home from the gun store with only one red shell

I guess it must have been that musty smell

Because People looked at me in disgust

I was a nuisance to some
Everyone left me even my family and kids

I looked for a tool to end it all and starting placing bids

There was only one shell and I didn't want to miss

Taking the gun and loading my shot

I placed the barrel in my mouth and my hands became hot

They where so sweaty and I was thinking it over
This was the last choice I would make
And I pulled the the trigger

As I was sitting at the desk my thoughts where ensnared
I thought to my self I wouldn't hang even if dared

That really skipped over my mind
I get laughed at because I'm blind

Just because i can't see the people I'm with
Doesn't mean I don't know who you are

I can hear you for miles about to snicker

That's what drove me closer to the chair
It's just not fair
As my mind fills with sadness and despair

I tie the rope around my head so tight it rips out my hair and it goes everywhere

Thoughts of all the times together keeps me on the edge of the chair

Contemplating if I should jump but i just stare at the floor

Then with every thought considered i push the chair away with my toes

And my body drops like a bag filled with sand
It doesn't land

It's hung from a rope
This all started because I mope
Right before I jumped I wished there was still hope

I was so sad about what they had
If I stuck around I could've been a dad

But now I'm just hanging from a tight rope

Wishing for things i can never have