they say heaven
is a place up above
but darling
when im with you
and the light shines through the windows
into your hazel eyes
heaven is right in front of me
heaven is you

take me back
to the times of love
as we stood in the grass
and swayed back and forth
as the cars passed
and the sun sat
we stayed the way we were
so young and in love
as we danced
to the song that now breaks my heart
now that our love has gone
like the leaves of autumn
so has my heart
for i am afraid
i will never feel love again

I let him in
I let him see who i was
I let him see my past
I don't let people in
He left me
He left me broken
He left me with a realization
I can't let people in
No matter how close we become
They will never get to know me
All because of a boy who was too scared to love

I can still feel your presence here,
It feels stuck to my skin.
I was afraid that if i let you go
I would never see happiness again
There are nights where my dreams of you are so vivid
That i wake up and immediately grab a pen
But no matter how many times i write to you
I never seem to win
These poems to you are a battle
Between my happiness and your peace
The feelings that I felt for you are indescribable
And i could try to write a list, but i know you aren’t for keeps
So i get lost in a sea of words, and suddenly I cannot breathe

I am so lonely
yet not alone
maybe i am living in this house
but this will never be my home

It’s 11 p.m, I can’t seem to find sleep
It is not late, but I just want to escape this world
This ledge of depression that my body is looking down upon is steep
And from me, my peers, will never hear a peep
As the clock strikes 12, I am left all alone in this living hell
No one to save me, no one to care, I feel like a boat whom has lost its sail
Suddenly I realize it is 2, though it seems this feeling will never be through
I hold onto the thought that I am not alone, although I know that no one else feels this pain too
As the clock strikes 3, I just want one hour of sleep
I lie awake, no one by my side, I find it hard to imagine for sleep by and by.
It is 5 in the morning, I sit here and let my tears start pouring
I feel so alone, like a body with  no soul, and the corpse is just mourning
Once the clock strikes 7 it feels like I have reached heaven
I have made it through another sleepless night

Sometimes we don’t see it until it’s too late
Sometimes we don’t leave until we’re too far gone
Here’s to the people that were put through hell
But still managed to find their own heaven
Here’s to the people that are healing their own scars
We’re healing one day at a time
And we are healing without a materialistic love
We don’t need you to fix us
We have been broken before
We have healed before
We aren’t afraid of the dark anymore

you were never scared of the dark
but what was in it
the dark holds secrets
that only we can hear
we stay up all night
writing for them
maybe what we write
is the dark
maybe
we are the darkness