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Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
Man, those jeans look tight, that blouse dipped just right
and your hair frames you like a picture.

Man, that walk and sway, that look in your eyes as I begin to pray
no wait— I need a second to breathe.

Girl, that click click of flaking confidence on tiles is louder than any of those sharp-tongued wits
and that booming laugh will never be loud enough so drown out the noise of your arms crossed over your belly.

Girl, put down the water bottle that you drink your tears from and put away that open “secret” diary. No one will read the words of a girl still breathing her sadness.

Boy, don’t waste your time with that one, she nearly suffocated the last one with all that
and cries butter and canola oil.

Boy, ain’t nobody fooled by those leggings, trying to hide what we can all see, like Blood on the streets of Cali.

Boy, making me hungry here seeing them legs in those jeans that must be ovens trying to cook that unbaked pizza dough.
Boy, where you running?

Boy, where you hiding?

Boy, where did she go?

Boy.

She’s gone.
Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
Existence bears a pain I hope to know.
Hope bears a joy in the satisfaction of becoming.
Joy is a responsibility only for the wisest and most lonely.
Wisdom is battle-scars won with great loss.

For life pulses through the abyss between stars.
It undulates colour and essence of a thousand thousand beings.

All shall know the pain existence bears.
All shall bear a joy in the satisfaction of becoming
And they shall call it hope.

Mind and matter will unravel, codified and infinite.

Bodies will implode.
Their bones, powder and form loam.
Teeth shatter and become stars.
Eyes burst and fill oceans.
DNA and RNA weave and burn.

Flesh melts and black oily-slick smoke
Blocks the paths on which thoughts wander.

Emotions are waves that vibrate along the threads
Of sinewy value in parabolas.

Pain. Hope. Joy.
This existence is satisfied.
Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
*******.

I thought you had my back, but you’re just another ******* *** on a pole.

My (now ex) boyfriend's pole more specifically.

Don’t get me wrong, he’s a disgusting, slimy, broken cunting pathetic dirtrag if there ever existed, but you?

******* Gabi.

I hate you. You’re the reason he left me in hopeful scatters down my never-ending driveway. You’re the reason I cry myself to sleep at 3 in the morning. You’re the reason I wake up shaking so ferociously I spew what little I could eat on the bed where we made love.

Fitting isn’t it?

******* Gabi.

Even your name makes my bones wants to explode into pieces that fill you with holes where your *****'s blood is washed away like sewerage.

******* Gabi.

And the fact that you have something I don’t.

******* Gabi.

I hope your children die before you get to hold them.

******* Gabi.

I hope your heart gets ripped out your chest and **** on.

******* Gabi...
******* Ga...
*******...
****...
Fu...

P.S. Enjoy my leftovers *****.
Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
There it goes again,
The eternal want
No the eternal, unending need.

It stalks my every thought,
Sullies my every waking moment
A rash of good intentions failed.

The hunger is none
The Desire is all I know.

Control and restriction
Fail
Gluttony and weakness
Failing

Why does the butter melting in a hot pan
Become more sensual
Than any *** on Earth
It is my undoing
And my creation

The pants that scream at the stiches
Please stop!
The Magazine that flaunts
Decedent holiday treats!
Tears burning away the ropes of order
The foul gas
A high for the next fight.

Those digits are God send
Values beyond value.
They laugh and tease
Their coldness unchangeable
I never liked maths anyways.

Each mirror lies differently
All more evil than the last
Their silver surface accentuating every pitfall in you

The porcelain beckons
The intoxicating stench of bleach
Comforting
The embrace of understanding.

Shattered glass and shrapnel embed themselves
Into my DNA.
Never forget they say
I won’t. I cannot.
Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
There is no evidence here.
There is no proof of that broken-tooth smile
Of those happy and sun gleaned faces.

No flash highlighted the essence of hard work
And shadowed the bitter tears and blood
Not a ghost, for that would suggest that that, which was is now dead
And that which is never lived
Can never die

Those close embraces of rocket energy never caressed
Those makeuped eyes never rippled
Those Cartier smiles never posed for this Oaken frame.

It was never hung
Proud and loved
A mock to the “drawings” on the fridge door.

The dog never ruined the first three attempts
And was never included in the final just because he was so ****
Cute.

A talent, some would say
To fabricate. To create from none.
A talent indeed to lose
After creation never capture the attention of the camera.
Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
Blink. A few times more.
Lights gain contour and shapes move.
This is me at the very beginning
Not like conception, but at the start of memory.

The floor I am sitting on
with my legs daggling over the split-level
Is hard, yet warm. Parquet is the term for it
7 years later. Floor will do for now.

A tree towers before me, flashing brightly
Causing an assault on my eyes.
I think I can eat it. The round things look
like sweets.

Somewhere in the crème-coloured lounge suite
Below my throne an equally crème, equally uncomfortable,
Equally ugly set of couches and chairs
Laze in the afternoon butter-sun.

Grubby, sticky fingers draw abstracts
In the high polish floor, and I giggle at my
Masterpiece.
Something floats into my head.

Something? No, a someone. Mom
Later to be learned. For now, loud lady.
Incomprehensible jabber and noise
Fall out her food-cruncher.

Another floatie in my head,
It makes noises, but not like mom.
Mom tries to make its noises though.
It is soft like my blankie.

Update: Mom calls it Zeus. Also, it is
A cat. Zeus plays with the candy on the tree
No fair, I want it. Zeus also uses his teeth and nails
To hurt me, but his hair and nose hug.

His tail flails and bandies about in the air
Hips swaggering at my infancy
It looks good to pull.

Hissssss.
And the cat is gone.
Hannah J Strauss Jun 2019
Strings of letters.
Threads of code.
Necklaces of knowledge.

Hunger insatiable.
Sources untameable.
Power unrestrainable.

Patterns and patters of worlds within worlds.
The understanding of a light-age, barely scraped.

Information on my tongue
Wagging, eager to be shared.
Brain waves pulse excited by new stimuli
thrashing for more.

This jewellery that adorns me glitters.
Value greater than life itself.

It is the currency and regency of the universe.
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