Cant stop shaking
My heart is breaking
Cant seem to find
What i left behind
Cant seem to cry
Because Love is a lie
How to know whats real
When you no longer feel
How to cope with pain
When theres so much
To drain
How to be happy when your alway sad
How can i be cranky when im sick of being mad
How to get up when im always falling down
How to hold someone close
When there's no ones around
How to feel  love without making another mistake
How Do i keep my heart together when its shattered and ready to break

The past holds fear, pain, and alot of regret .
Some of these memories i will never forget.

I will never forget the pain i once held
I will never forget the fear my soul yelled
I will never live down the regret that my mind has dwelled
But how do we overcome the fear pain and all the regret.

When peple never change lies stay the same and people never forget.

I see a little girl
Torchered throughout her years

Frightened and scared
Trying to hide her tears

For what she went through was so terrible and wrong

She hides the pain inside
And tries to carry on

As she gets older she continues to re live her past

Over and over
how long can this last

She feels so much pain she can't control

She is dying inside the pain is swallowing her whole

She  feels the pain no matter how hard she tries

She covers up the hurt with her sad smile and lies

She feels so imploded with such horrors to hide

She's a ticking time bomb her soul is being fried

She's holding so much pain she has to release

She starts slashing with a razor she starts to feel some peace

The more pain she felt the deeper she would go

No one could help this girl from feeling so low

She tries to see happiness she gets a little glance

But her emotions explode she no longer feels she has a chance

She picks up a bottle to drain away  her past

Instead she drains the bottle she looses control so fast

She spins and she spirals the feeling of despair

The self hate the torcher it's too much to bare

She's wants an exit she wants a way out

To Stop this feeling  of being  worthless to stop all her dought

She wakes up in the hospital feeling hopeless ****** and bruised

she tries to make sense of what happened her mind so confused

She tries to have faith that she can overcome her past

But with every drunken attempt it could be her last.

The more sadness the more sorrow
The deeper the mind will bellow
Mind racing feet pacing
The soul becomes hollow
Heart pumping mind jumping
To many emotions to follow
Overthinking feet are sinking
Digging a larger burrow.

There is no light only darkness and despair
Nothing to grasp
Nothing to hold
Everything is bare
My mind my world is spiralling around
Wave after wave it's all crashing down
****** into a whirlpool spinning round and round
Sadness misery my mind starts to drown
Take in some air take that last breath
Darkness creeping in it feels like death
Miles and miles of flooded space
Dying dying dead in its place
The coldness the emptiness there is no more
Knocking and knocking waiting at deaths door