Here I am, here again, lost in imagination of what I think I want
But that's my heart, the games it plays, always leading me to illusions font.
My life's lacking, the insecurities within, surfaced again and pain will follow
My heart's involved, blameless it is not, it fleets as well, darting through feelings like an in flight swallow.
The scene is familiar and not unknown, it will consume me for a time then fade
I never understand the message conveyed, I feel the feelings of an insecure child, another charade
Oh my lord will I ever learn to accept reality, the out-laid truth
or will I continuously flow through the unreal and walk the fragile roof.
I know that a fall is my fate, a heart destroyed and smashed more readily than a fragile vase
I voluntarily take myself there, to the very edge but this time my heart I beg.
Release me early, release me now, let my intuition through, my mind to thrive.
They have the keys to reality and can unlock these chains of the unreal and contrived.
Reality and truth is there gagged and bound, held hostage by my treacherous heart.
But experience is strong, knowledge abounds and my mind is smart.
Not this time, you malicious being, out flowing feelings that have no ground
The victor this time will not be yours heart, you wont get your way from the unfound.
My mind has matured and experience abounds, I know the truth from logic gained.
Be free my mind, be free my intuition, fly and be free, quiet my heart, silence it, keep it refrained.
We shall win this one my friends, reality returns, breath easy and pulse be calm.
We won the victory and the nerves are soothed.
Treacherous heart you never learn, but you will this time, you will be muted.
Let the mind and inner voice speak before you decide you have been suited.