This life without you
It wasn't what I chose
It's not going real great
But I'll tell you how it goes

This life without you
Is not enough
There's something missing
When you're not here
And I don't like it
That Is clear

This life without you
Passes slow
It's not working
I just thought you should know

Every day that passes by
I think if you
And wonder
Why
Why would i
cry over the things that don't change
Leave my life in pieces
Impossible to arrange
Lose hope in love
Let the anger flow
With all the pain inside
It remains there to grow

And why would I
Long for someone that's gone
On this journey I feel so alone
Everyone has someone meant just for them
But my person left
My faith in love at it's very end
Why do people believe
In happiness and love
The truth really is that stuffs all made up

It doesn't work out
There's allways someone better
You'll be left behind
Lost out of your mind
Staring at every letter
Of the message that she sent you
Telling you there was someone else better

You'll allways be outdone
All the happiness you had
Leaves like the sun
Before your life was bright
Gold pure and yellow
Now at the best your depression is mellow
You weren't the one
Someone else will be her sun
The light to her life
Her happiness
Her joy
She'll forget about you
A vague memory of her past
But to you
That was the only love you thought would last
But it didn't
It's a thing of the past
Shell forget about you
You never were special
Just someone else
That wasn't enough
You weren't her light
She left you with delight
Now she is with her new
Love at first sight

Inside your body
Your mind a In a fight
With life and death
Which one is best
You know the awnser
Scared to admit
That all your love is gone
Your happiness
That's it
Contemplating which way you'll go
You decide on drugs
That make your heartbeat slow
Then stop
There goes your life
Like a bubble goes pop
Gone just like that
You left all the pain
That made you go insane
They all told you look at the sun
There's is allways a better side
But I was living in the rain
I'm done with all this pain

I'm allways here for you
I may not be the best
I may not be the easiest to get along with
I may not be your first choice
My love is allways here for you

I'm allways here for you
I mess up a lot
I say the wrong things
I don't allways think
Sometimes I think too much
I might not be the best
My love is allways here for you

I'm allways here for you
Im not the smartest
Im not the hottest
Im not the strongest
Im not the fastest
I'm not the best
My love is allways here for you

I'm allways here for you
I'm not the best
I mess up a lot
But I'm allways here,
And I will allways love you

From a kid who tries

I really truly love you
But your actions and what you do
Show me things have changed inside of you
You're not the person you were
Where did love go? How about care?
The Ashley I loved is no longer there
You're not who you were
And that's something i can no longer bear

This hurt is never ending
It comes in waves like the ocean
Relentless,
The tide is rising
As is the anger inside
It's something that's quite difficult to hide
It rips me apart and hurts me inside
Everythough I have leads to suicide
Maybe I should just bite the bullet
And accept my fate
That your not the same
And I'm full of hate
This will never work
I carry way to much weight
Too much for anyone to see
No one will accept what's inside of me
Just leave me where I'm meant to be
Lost
Alone
No love left inside of me
Because it's all gone
And I am alone...

I tried to be a lot of things
I tried to be everything you liked
Everything you could ever want
I tried to be that

But trying only does so much
You can hope to be something
But I've learned hoping
Doesn't do a thing

I hoped you'd come back
I hoped my life would change
I hoped depression would leave
I hoped that I would stay the same

Well you're still with luke
My life hasn't got better
Depression hasn't left
I've changed
Hoping
Doesn't allways work

I promise you this
One thing will never change
how much I love you
One thing I won't stop wanting
Hoping
And trying at is getting back
Is what I've lost
Your heart.

I love you Ashley
Every second of
Every minute and
Every hour of
Every day
Please don't ever doubt or forget
That if no one else loves you
I will

You were my last
You're my future
You were my past
You've got me wondering how long I'll last

How long I'll last without you
I need your love
I miss you care
Everywhere I go I see you everywhere
But you're never really there
Just memories of the past
That dissapear into thin air

Quick as imaginable
Who I thought was you was not
Just My mind hoping and wondering
Over something it's forgot
Which would be you're love
 It's been so long without it
Nothing's ever been the same

Because without light in my life
Everything feels the same
Everything is so lame
I wish it was a game
And I wish it would just end
I could forget about a broken heart
Just quit this game and press restart
Oh what'd I do to mend this broken heart
The things that it's put me through
I rip myself apart every day
I'm tired of living life this way

I didn't ask for life this way
I take a step back and look away
Inside myself I'm in dismay
I see a failure in life and love
I have failed the woman I love

We all have that person
We'd choose over anything
You happen to be that person to me
For you that is clear to see
You know how much I love you
You know that you're my drug
That I can't live without
But what happens when that drugs gone?
I guess well find out

Well the side effects are showing
I'm definitely not the same
As you slowly take the drug away
There's more and more pain
But I just keep waiting
Hoping there will be a day
Where everything changes and it's all ok

Some days are really hard
Should I scream or should I yell
With no one there to hear me
As i make my way through hell

How much longer can I last?
As my drug disappears
Every day without you starting to feel like years
As i go to sleep some nights
With my eyes full of tears
Will i last long enough
After all these years?

Addiction is a thing we all know of
But it's a problem only some will face
And if you get hooked
Get ready for hell
At first it's not really much
Everything bad starts small
Then grows untill it takes over all

Then begins your fall
Everything you loved, it all
Starts to loose meaning
So does living
There's really no purpose
We all die
It's the same thing no matter when it comes
Dead now
Dead then
The difference is thin
But no matter what
When you die
It's the end

I don't get how you do this
But you said that
How can you lie to me like that
You promised not to do that
Some day I will snap
Be gone forever
Maybe you'll like that
Finally won't have do do this
Won't have to hear from me
There with you, I'll no longer be

It was one to many
I couldn't take it
How many more before you break me
I know it's not many
Ive told you that
Yet you value it like a penny
One day that little lie
Will break the broken
Some lies don't take
Words to be spoken

I really do not like being mad
But it seems to be the only emotion I have
I do not like lashing out
But there comes a time
The time is now

Hey Elliot
you're okay,
for now at least.

You make me smile
I wait to hear your voice on the phone
It's not the same as in real life though

but we'll get there
one step at a time

I love you.
Like more than the grains of sand, you find at the beaches you hate.

I'd put all your problems on my shoulder just to see you happy
Because no one else
And I mean no one
Has ever made me feel how I feel
When I'm talking to you.

Stay the hard worker you are, go for your dreams, and keep being the boy that you'll always be.
I'm so proud of you
You're doing amazing