floating
falling
screaming
crawling
back up again
knowing I would
not fight
for my  life
right now...
a muderer would be disappointed
when I say, go ahead, there is no point
the abusers were right after all
I am a mistake

I forgot
I came out from under the rock
I forgot
I don't belong here
They remembered
To shove me back under
They remembered
I am not one of them
I must remember
I must remember