If only you all knew
(and me too)
All this time spent trying to entice you
And you're all dull, and just as sad
I've been told that I was the sunshine, the tinkie treat
Someone whispered thank god for you

You kissed me on a dare, oh,
You godlike thing.
And I imagine you thought it spectacular,
Thought you held me like a king
I could still feel the concrete under my feet, my feet in their shoes,
Ever aware

It's a funny feeling this,
And you're awful all the same, but still
where else would I go when you make it hurt like honey

You tell me it's one of them you're speaking to by
The way you're edged away,
In that careless way,
Far enough
In the hopes that I don't see, and far too close
In the hopes that I do

She was so far away
So perhaps I stood a chance.

The others lived
To see the inside of
my bedroom,
For sport

And he doesn't know how
Easy it would be
that it doesn't take much
with me

It's what you loved
the most, still do

But he is good.
He is kind.