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Jan 2019 · 184
Fault.
Anthony Emmi Jan 2019
I look in the mirror I see regret.
I see all the things I could reset.
I see the good and I see the bad.
Confused messed up and mad.

I know now how it all went wrong.
Its all my fault I wasn't very strong.
I wanted to do what was right.
In my own mind there was a fight.

I don't know how to say goodbye.
It seems so easy until you try.
Love is to deep, I can not let go.
You taught me love, that I know.

Didn't know I was the luckiest man.
To have such an amazing life planed.
I ******* up I didn't know what I had.
Now here I am a broken single Dad.

A. Emmi
01/25/19
Jan 2019 · 160
Entitled
Anthony Emmi Jan 2019
Humans creators of time.
Superior in our own mind.
Entitled we dictate it all.
Simple minded we will fall.

Inevitable self destruction.
Nature is our only instruction.
Yet we seek complications.
Creating more frustrations.

Solving problems we created.
Divided we abide dissipated.
Guilty as can be we dispute.
Leaving majority in destitute.

Capable of so much more.
We decide to fight, wage war.
Declare nonsense on mankind.
Thousands of years spent blind.

A. Emmi 01/23/19
Jan 2019 · 159
Mindset.
Anthony Emmi Jan 2019
Mindset.


Every next choice could be a new start.
Time has no definition in our heart.
A man made tool to guide us along.
Never deciding what's right or wrong.

The choice to change is only within.
We can choose to smile or to grin.
Perception lies in our consciousness.
Choose a life of positivity not regress.

A battle it is if your broken and torn.
Scars run deep beat down and worn.
We can live in the past full of regret.
Or we can look ahead a clear mindset.

Some of our pain is from our own hand.
Some sought us out unwanted unplanned.
Life deals out everyone a different hand.
Its up to us to take control take command.


A.Emmi 01/01/19
Dec 2018 · 185
Dear Dad.
Anthony Emmi Dec 2018
Dear Dad.

Its been eighteen years since I seen you last.
Since I seen you smile or heard you laugh.
My best friend, for the short time we had.
My mentor, my hero, my Dad.

How have I been since you went away?
So many things, so much to say.
I met the woman of my dreams.
It didn't work out, that's life it seems.

We had a daughter a little red head.
Love at first sight, just like you said.
Her name is Abigail, she looks a lot like you.
Ill give her my best in everything I do.

I wish you were here to see her grow.
To give her the wisdom that you know.
Don't worry she has an amazing Grandpa.
She loves him dearly, she calls him Guh.

I've had some good times, and my share of bad.
Life's been one hell of a ride, without you Dad.
I miss our long talks, your unbiased advice.
Your never ending love, hard work, and sacrifice.

What I wouldn't give for just one more day.
To tell you everything I want to say.
I hope you would be proud of the man I've become.
All the hardships, and struggles I have overcome.

Now I will look forward, I'm sure I will be fine..
Trying to be a better man one day at a time.
I miss you always, ill never forget this day.
December 30th. When my Dad went away.


A. Emmi 12/30/18
Dec 2018 · 182
Goodbye.
Anthony Emmi Dec 2018
Goodbye.


Sometimes in life we must let go.
Cast aside the burden we know.
Transcend existence, transform.
Find Balance within the firestorm.

Begin the puzzle one corner at a time.
Fill in the pieces, slowly you will climb.
The past is behind you, miss it you will.
A life lesson learned, a covered landfill.

I'll give the love I have before it's gone.
A picture I'm drawing not yet drawn.
A good man I am, I've done some wrong.
Does that defy my whole life's song?

Ahead I shall look, It's the only choice left.
No matter how distraught or depressed.
I thought I had forever, life changes course.
Forever missed, you're my greatest remorse.

I finally say goodbye, and farewell.
Hope life treats you fair and well.

A.Emmi. 12/19/2018
Jun 2018 · 232
Moon Rise.
Anthony Emmi Jun 2018
In the sunset I see you fading away.
Moon rise gives hope to another day.
Cool breeze dry's tears from my cheek.
A broken down soul torn and weak.

Hopeful dreams fulfill my head.
Every night while I lay in bed.
Wishing thoughts of times gone by.
Wishing thoughts of you and I.

Memories so vivid and so pure.
Of a love that once needed no cure.
Years of good times all washed away.
On that fateful January Sunday.

Now I stand alone trying to repair.
My heart swollen my mind in despair.
I find it hard to move on with my life.
I miss you so much....my beautiful wife.


A.Emmi 06/30/18
Jun 2018 · 273
Something.
Anthony Emmi Jun 2018
A new day will arrive.
Even without you here.
Please always know.
I hold you near.

I think of you often.
Thoughts of past.
Thoughts of love.
These thoughts last.

From the beginning.
Love at first sight.
I miss your laugh.
I miss holding you tight.

Days go by I still remain.
Trudging on my own.
I seek true happiness.
On this long road alone.


A.Emmi 06/29/18
Jun 2018 · 169
Flawed.
Anthony Emmi Jun 2018
Forgive me for I am forever flawed.
Born scared, chewed up, and mauled.
A gift I was given, the gift of life.
But something was taken, a sacrifice.

I am different than most, a brain malfunction.
I do not come with papers, or instruction.
I must navigate alone in a sea of existence.
Doing what is right with patience, and persistence.

I once did not understand that I was this way.
For I was just a pawn in life, just here to play.
But now I know, and with a heavy heart.
I am forced to reboot, give in, and restart.

Forgive me for I am not your average man.
I was born with gods will, and a different plan.
I have climbed to the highest peak and survived.
I have hit rock bottom and never compromised.

A.Emmi 06/19/18
Jun 2018 · 132
Sleepless.
Anthony Emmi Jun 2018
Heart beats rythem erratic
Hope is blind eyes static
Forever is never far away
Sleepless nights here to stay

Late evenings early morns
Halos brighter than devil horns
Hunger present eating a chore
Lacking affection love adore

Confusion settles hard to think
Grabbing life.....shall not sink
Future is present now is here
Tomorrow gone will not fear

Bargain I will strive I must
Wipe myself off shake out the dust
Slowly pace living low
Taking time to let myself grow
May 2018 · 179
Life of Lies.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
Past memories inflicting pain.
What more do I have to gain.
Living a life of lies indulging sin.
Waving off all friends and kin.

Living life reclusive in fear.
cant see anyone nor hear.
Buried under a fortress of gloom.
Looking out a window of doom.

Indecisive of my future path.
All consuming grave and wrath.
So alone no outlook of tomorrow.
Sulking in my own pain and sorrow.

Remembering past to hard to bare.
How much more ware and tear?
Days go by as I await the night.
Patiently waiting for no sunlight.


A.Emmi 05/20/18
May 2018 · 169
Tomorrows Fears.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
Anxiety racing mind wont slow.
Always thinking things I don't know.
Worried for tomorrow so far away.
How can I get through this horrid day.

Feelings confused heart broken.
Why wasn't I more outspoken.
I lost everything I loved so much.
Now I can hardly feel and touch.

So cold inside where I reside.
Shaking all day trying to hide.
Fear of the future what is next.
All I can do is put thoughts in text.

Barley hanging on so hard to cope.
Visions of hanging at the end of a rope.
That will never happen people still care.
I need to get gritty bite down and bare.


A.Emmi 05/16/18
May 2018 · 160
One More Night.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
I want to hold you just one more night.
Just one more time in my arms tight.
I miss your smile I miss your touch.
I  miss the person you are so very much.

I love you now, I will until my dying breath.
My love for you will proceed my death.
You are my true soulmate that I always knew..
Over those first years oh how our love grew.

You are a special person so kind and true.
I wish I had treated you better, I wish I knew.
I did my best with what I had, at least I thought.
Now I know there is much more I could have brought.

I am a better man for getting to love you.
I am a better person for knowing you.
You will forever be close to my heart.
I will never let my love for you part.


A.Emmi 05/15/18
May 2018 · 478
Ghost.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
In my darkest times.
You have been a friend.
You understand.
When others rescind.

You take me for me.
That is all I can ask.
You are a special lady.
With such a tall task.

You bring me love.
When I need it most.
You bring me a smile.
When I feel like a ghost.

You brighten my days.
With just a simple text.
You make life worth fighting.
When I don't know what's next.


A.Emmi 05/13/18
May 2018 · 180
Mother of our kids.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
You are a special gift.
To the kids you love.
Always doing what's best.
A true gift from above.

Always having a kiss, and a hug.
For the ones that you dearly love.
A care free laugh a brighter smile.
Always going that extra mile.

From morning to sunset.
Your love never ends.
You are a true blessing.
To your two little best friends.

I couldn't be more proud.
Of the Mother you are.
I couldn't be more proud.
Of the person you are.


A.Emmi 05/13/18
May 2018 · 176
Mother.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
A comforting smile.
A familiar laugh.
Always so caring.
Is the Mother I have.

She wipes the tears.
A hug so tight.
She deflects my fears.
Tucked me in at night.

Always picks up the phone.
Always sends cards of love.
Never making me feel alone.
She is truly a gift from above.

Mother you are a blessing indeed.
You gave me life and so much more.
You never left me with a need.
I will always love you to my core.


A.Emmi 05/13/18
May 2018 · 310
More.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
As I wipe tears from my eyes.
I suddenly realize.
Life is full of lies.
With zero compromise.

Do all the good you wish.
You will still feed from the dish.
You will never catch enough fish.
You will still have that one wish.

You will always want more.
Always look behind that door.
Always pacing the same floor.
Always screaming from the core.

Always punching that clock.
Never leaving the dock.
Following the same flock.
Hiding behind the same rock.


A.Emmi 05/11/18
May 2018 · 169
The Struggle.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
I will never win this fight.
I have fought with all my might.
Its time to turn out the light.
Once and for all say goodnight.

Wait there are people who care.
How could I ever dare.
Have these thoughts of despair.
People love me for all I bare.

The struggle is getting to deep.
The pain far outweighs the keep.
How can I ever make that leap.
I am a wolf dressed as a sheep.

I feel alone day in and day out.
I just want to scream and shout.
I will beg and plead and pout.
Until someone digs me out.


A.Emmi 05/09/18
May 2018 · 155
Roots.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
Moving pieces all around me.
I am the rock, I am the tree.
Roots dug deep feet below.
I will remain here to grow.

Set me a blaze, chop me down.
Ill still be here deep in the ground.
I am an anchor one that's fixed.
Feelings however are torn and mixed.

Pick my leaves, and trim my branches.
You shall only be given so many chances.
For I will grow back only to be stronger.
Roots will grow deeper, branches longer.

I will overcome any storm in my way.
To shine in the sunlight again someday.
Rain shall replenish my broken soul.
For I am that rock you can not roll.


A.Emmi 05/04/18
May 2018 · 137
Greed.
Anthony Emmi May 2018
Slipping between the cracks.
Weaving between the racks.
Sliding up the walls.
Floating through the halls.

Mind bends warped and bound.
hearing every single sound.
Eyes focused squinting stare.
Sitting here in the bare.

Living breathing flesh indeed.
Thinking knowing cut and bleed.
Planting digging nurturing seed.
Money gold mankind greed.

Following flowing going with.
Crowds shifting politics myth.
Leaders leading minions bow.
Everyone wanting now.


A.Emmi 05/01/18
Apr 2018 · 149
So Still.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
You will never find a love like me.
Unconditional love I shall be.
I love you now, and always will.
How can I remain so still.

I sit and wait patiently.
I sit and wait for you to see.
For you to know I am your man.
For you to reach out your hand.

Months gone by, I miss your smile.
I miss your laugh, I miss your style.
I miss your beautiful long brown hair.
I miss your squinty loving stare.

I am so alone without you near.
My wife, my love, I hold so dear.
How can I make this right?
How can I be by your side tonight?


A.Emmi 04/30/18
Apr 2018 · 158
Beloved.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
All alone in my skin.
Clutching fists again.
Blood shot eyes.
Confronting my demise.

Rocking back and fourth.
Feelings of heading North.
To where land touches sky.
Could I possibly say goodbye?

You my Little Red are my anchor.
My beloved daughter my mentor.
You teach me unconditional love.
A thing I once knew nothing of.

Here I shall remain doing my best.
Holding our love close to my chest.
I miss you more and more every day.
How much more pain do I have to pay?


A.Emmi 04/27/18
Apr 2018 · 158
Once Again.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
I sit alone in the dark.
Picking up pieces of this broken heart.
Once again.

There is no beginning or start.
To this loneliness.
Just when will it end.

But I must go on now.
I've gone to far.
I cant give in.

So Ill pack my bags.
and leave this ugly town behind.
once again.

Ill hit the open road.
Ill see the mountains.
and hills once again.


A.Emmi 04/27/18
Apr 2018 · 156
Tired.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Tired of everything.
It all seems a bore.
Tired of living.
It all seems a chore.

Tired of being alone.
It wears on my heart.
Tired of thinking.
That we are apart.

Tired of being tired.
When does it end.
Tired of all of this.
How can I mend.

Tired of repeating.
Day after day.
Tired of seeing.
Everything so gray.


A.Emmi 04/18/18
Apr 2018 · 138
Blankets.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Heart beats.
Blood bleeds.
Brain races.
Fake faces.

Wasting time.
Killing mine.
Nowhere is here.
Nothing to fear.

Blankets of gray.
Shadow at bay.
Silence of mouth.
Eyes talk aloud.

Tasting my death.
Leaving my breath.
Calming sounds.
Making its rounds.


A.Emmi 04/18/18
Apr 2018 · 141
Anonymous.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Peaked and weak.
Flushed and Bleak.
Parched and dry.
Whiskey and rye.

A feeling we know.
A feeling so low.
The next day we met.
Shame and regret.

But we can stand tall.
We will not fall.
A sober life we live.
A sober life we give.

Together we meet.
A solemn retreat.
No one will judge.
Onward we trudge.


A.Emmi 04/17/18
Apr 2018 · 168
Death Row.
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Walking abound eyes twitching.
Life bursting from its stitching.
Meaningless days continue on.
Counting down till life is gone.

Mind is sick relentless thoughts.
Begging for ease in a bottle of shots.
That road leads no where, that I know.
Just a painful existence on death row.

Days turn into weeks, weeks to years.
Seeking forgiveness, living my fears.
Alone I sit day in and day out.
Life has taken such a horrid route.

No smiles, no pain.
No happiness, no gain.
No comfort, no stress.
No feelings, no mess.

A life I can not feel....How do I heal?

A.Emmi 04/09/18
Apr 2018 · 168
Derange
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Time does not exist.
My eternal minds abyss.
Self loathing restless.
Self degrading relentless.

Blaming all troubles I abide.
Substantiating I coincide.
Grasping for any relief.
I hold the past in belief.

Insanity surely ensues.
Same problems and issues.
Doing things on repeat.
Never learning I retreat.

Despair and sorrow.
Its all I seem to know.
Trying so hard to grow.
Yet feeling so ***** and low.

Alone I shall stay, lying to myself.
Never having to please anyone else.
I am who I am, maybe I cant change?
Maybe I prefer a life lived in derange?


A.Emmi 04/09/18
Apr 2018 · 147
Revelations
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Fine tuning my craft.
One never ending draft.
Picking apart at the bone
Every strand left alone.

A singular thought.
Life can not be taught.
All corners in reach.
Only you can teach.

Braving the harshest conditions.
Seeking the impossible missions.
Grazing this round rock.
On the door I shall knock.

Peeking into all situations.
Intuitive revelations.
Grasping my own opinions.
Ignoring the unjust minions.


A.Emmi 04/06/18
Apr 2018 · 163
Am I over you?
Anthony Emmi Apr 2018
Thoughts are drifting away.
Memories are fading
Heart is healing.
No more self degrading.

Soul feels new again.
Darkness has past.
Sunshine creeping back in
A new life at last.

Don't get me wrong I still care.
But I know I can move on.
Our love we will always share.
But our day is a new dawn.

I will always wish you the best.
Hold you close to my chest.
Know you were my soul mate.
But its now time to deviate.

I will always love you Anna.


A.Emmi 04/01/18
Mar 2018 · 182
I am many things.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
I am a saulker
I saulk the saulks
That the saulkers saulk

I am a wheeper
I wheep the wheeps
That the wheepers wheep

I am a writer
I write the writings
That the writers write

I am a jokester
I joke the jokes
that the jokesters joke

I am a waffle eater
I eat the waffles
that the waffle eaters eat

I am a pickler
I pickle the pickles
that the picklers pickle

I am a friend
I friend the friends
that the friends friend


A.Emmi 03/30/18
Mar 2018 · 161
Morning Turmoil.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
All thoughts anew.
A mind reset.
Possibilities endless.
Worries I forget.

Then it rushes back.
Flooding turmoil.
All motivation I lack.
I retreat, I recoil.

Another worrisome day.
Anxiety, unjust fears.
Afraid of all encounters.
A new bucket of tears.

I await night.
When all is calm.
No more people.
No stress no qualm.


A.Emmi 03/30/18
Mar 2018 · 198
Shudder.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Absolute and just you must feel.
Taking all from me, so you can heal.
Stripping my life away bit by bit.
Doing things the way you see fit.

Please don't ask, for I am doing fine.
I take it slow, one minute at a time.
Emotions run high, I still think of you.
But what is a lonely man to do?

I cant force your hand, only give you space.
How long can we possibly run this race?
You now live life like you're set free.
Blaming all your sadness, troubles on me.

I need you to know that its your fault too.
I need you to know that it wasn't all you.
I would never blame my faults on another.
Yet how you can makes me shudder.


A.Emmi 03/29/18
Mar 2018 · 184
Strife.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Tattered and broken a familiar feeling.
Laying, waiting, gazing at the ceiling.
Watery eyes, have I blinked or are they tears?
So many racing thoughts, uncomfortable fears.

What's my next move, where do I go from here?
Shall I let my higher power take the wheel and steer?
Blinded by dull light, I seek nights comfort.
Alone I gander through this star lit desert.

Tangled in razor wire I try to set free.
Yet every move cuts deeper into me.
Blood gushes out in plain sight.
No one notices my constant fight.

Ill put on a show, and say I'm okay.
While everything inside me is in decay.
Maybe I think to much about life.
Everyone's issues, the worlds strife.


A.Emmi 03/28/18
Mar 2018 · 182
Unspoken.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
You say you are a friend.
Yet you only think of yourself.
You lie, steal,, and deceive.
A friend? More like a thieve.

You break a trust, one unspoken.
Years of laughter together now broken.
You take what little I had.
If you had only asked instead.

I would have given shoes off my feet.
Now you hide, run, and retreat.
Lashing out into the world.
A broken woman, a little girl.

True friends are not defined by years.
Nor hard times shared with tears.
Or how often you may see them.
Its defined by who you are when with them.


A.Emmi 03/28/18

Inspired by K.Z.
Mar 2018 · 165
Reborn.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
A new found love.
A rebirth of the heart.
Reborn once again.
We shall never part.

Yet years go by.
We drift away.
Two separate roads.
Two shades of gray.

Over seven years.
We tried our best.
Life caught up.
We know the rest.

Now our hearts reset.
An old battery replaced.
Ticking once again.
A past love erased.


A.Emmi 03/27/18
Mar 2018 · 175
Middle Ground.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
I've been stuck in the middle for a long time.
I've been stuck in the gutter before.
I've been turned around for the last time.
Now its time to open that door.

I have fallen away from the bottom.
I have climbed up once again.
I have risen to the occasion.
Now its time that I begin.

Sometimes you have to be starving.
To understand how hunger hurts.
I've never been so determined.
To put my thoughts into my words.

A. Emmi 02/22/18
Mar 2018 · 304
Abigail.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
The most precious girl.
To ever lay in my bed.
A little girl named Abigail.
My little red head.

Never knew such a love could exist.
My dedication is forever that I insist.
She looks at me through unbiased eyes.
Something most cant do or realize.

She is sweeter than a Georgia peach.
My love for her could never breach.
Through time and space till the end.
I am her Father her best friend.

Always know that you are in my heart.
Twenty Four hours a day from the start.
God sent you a gift of all gifts.
In your presence my spirit lifts.


A.Emmi 03/26/18
Mar 2018 · 160
Sober.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
One by one they would go down.
Drowning pain in a bottle named Crown.
Masking life's worries, for a quick fix.
Deceiving people in a life of tricks.

Lie after lie, I would convince myself.
Everyone around me knew I needed help.
I lived so blind thinking all was fine.
Until that fateful day I crossed the line.

How is a man to know he is so sick?
When the drink itself is the fix.
Opposite ends of the world I lived on.
Up and down a constant lie, a constant con.

A sober life is what I have achieved.
But make no mistake I can be deceived.
By thoughts I am cured, will be my curse.
I must understand Ill end in a hearse.


A.Emmi 03/25/18
Mar 2018 · 224
Lilac and Balm.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Tick tock time is persistent
The moving hands feel resistant
Years fly by, yet hours crawl.
Sweating, pacing, wall to wall.

Flickering candles ease, and calm.
Scents of lavender, lilac, and balm.
Staring at the back of two eyelids
Images of you, my sanity outbids.

Endless cups of coffee, and cigarettes.
Endless wondering, quiet threats.
Standing higher, looking down.
Am I so small, I make no sound?

How many times can you wash a soul?
Before it shrivels up, and turns to coal.
Is Rock really bottom, I think not.
What is the definition of life's plot?


A.Emmi 03/24/18
Mar 2018 · 134
Blind Sight.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Words, verbs, adjectives, nouns.
Describing forces I write down.
Flowing from my toes to head.
I stir awake in my bed.

Lakes of coins, dreams of doubt.
Why cant I figure this life out.
Questions run through my mind.
So many sights I see blind.

Passion I have yet care I lack.
Why dose life seems so black?
I know what's right, I know what's wrong.
Yet I find it hard to be strong.

Day after day, night after night.
Is this life all just a plight?
An endless path that leads nowhere.
A drop of water in a bucket of despair?


A.Emmi 03/24/18
Mar 2018 · 131
Shimmering Brightness.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
A new light has shined upon me.
An unexpected ray of faith.
A glowing shimmering brightness.
A warm nourishing pool to bathe.

Down and out I was, forever it seemed.
Until this orb absorbed me.
I pouted, cried, and screamed.
A new sense of direction, I am again free.

I didn't think it would happen.
Not this quick at all.
But one thing life has taught me.
We have to sit before we crawl.

Take things as they come.
You never know when they end.
Enjoy the present moment.
With each and every friend.


A.Emmi 03/23/18
Mar 2018 · 196
Infectious.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
She comes to me out of the clear blue sky.
When I was just about to give in and die.
A friend for years, now an unexpected trust.
Helping me clean off all the rust.

Her happy smile, infectious laugh.
Encourages me to not look back.
Her unknown beauty she is unaware.
Just how much I appreciate and care.

A friend Indeed, came along just in time.
To save my soul, help me unwind.
Without the hope I would be in the past.
I surely hope our friendship will last.

So now I sit, and await our talks.
Oh how she helps me forget my sulks.
My mind goes numb, forgets the pain.
Makes me realize I have everything to gain.


A.Emmi 03/22/18
Mar 2018 · 571
Pity.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Pitter patter, heart beats faster.
Laying alone again.
Time drags on, time has past her.
From a long ago sin.

Anxiety grows stronger.
A feeling of deep dispair.
A love may be lost.
Am I the only one to care?

In the end it was me.
My faults are mine to bare.
Could I have helped them.
Would she even care?

An illness within me.
Has ruined quite a lot.
Without it would I be me?
That, I think not.

A cure there is none.
But now I understand.
The work has begun.
With Gods helping hand.


A.Emmi 03/10/18
Mar 2018 · 188
Waiting.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Whispering in my mind.
No time to find.
Soul searching worry.
As vision goes blurry.

Head hung low.
So much I don't know.
Wondering is constant.
Cant accept the concept.

Always searching.
Restless yearning.
Heart is burning.
Life disturbing.

No Escaping.
Brain is aching.
Shaking and pacing.
Cant stand the waiting.


A. Emmi 03/19/18
Mar 2018 · 136
Repair.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
With open arms I wait for you.
Let us undo what we went through.
In two different worlds we are now.
But we must try no matter how.

A family so precious they deserve us both.
With hard work and trust will come growth.
But its not my decision alone to make.
Lets give us a try for our familys sake.

I have never doubted my love for you.
Something I am certain that you knew.
Marriage is hard work not always fun.
Lets not quit and call this done.

A vow I took and those words I meant.
My sins of the past I do repent.
I am not perfect that I confess.
Can we repair this god awful mess?


A. Emmi 03/11/18
Mar 2018 · 212
Numb.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Under me the weight pushes upwards
Contesting all emotion inside my eyes
Looking outward I bare and grit
Loosing balance I tumble and spin

Unparalleled by any past trauma
I craft a future I do not own
Conceding to fate I hold my heart
A heavey burden smoldering slow

A constant thread pulling away
Piling up into a tattered mess
Shattered glass broken once again
Swept up and tossed aside

Sitting idle thoughts asunder
Grazing for a smile a feeling missed
Anxious waiting a hard task indulged
Forever knowing nothing at all

A. Emmi
02/15/18
Mar 2018 · 138
Feelings.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Feelings of pleasure
Feelings of pain
Feelings of resistance
Feelings of strain

Thoughts of sarrow
Thoughts of repair
Thoughts of tomorrow
Thoughts of you here

Times of passion
Times of fright
Times of loving
Times of light

Regrets of yesterday
Regrets of fate
Regrets are plenty
No Regrets of you

My True Soul Mate.


A. Emmi 03/10/18
Mar 2018 · 150
Lovely Smirk.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
As I sit here thinking of all the pain.
I wonder how you can refrain.
How you gave up, and tossed me away.
Like I never existed, it all ended that Sunday.

All the good times we had.
You gave me two kids.
Made me a proud Dad.
Now I live alone, beaten and sad.

All the smiles, and love we shared.
Times we took comfort when scared.
The cuddles, the movie nights.
The camping, the Christmas lights.

A house in the country, our dream came true.
Now I live in this box, so far away from you.
I thought marriage was until the end.
But you will not budge, break, or bend.

Just remember you will always be my love.
I miss stroking your hair, your scent of dove.
Your gorgeous brown eyes, your lovely smirk.
Let us make amends, lets get to work.


A. Emmi 03/22/18
Mar 2018 · 155
Crumble.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
Constantly swimming against the current.
Every small task becomes a deterrent.
Fighting with mind body and soul.
Paying the gate keeper a hefty toll.

Blinded by light comfort in shade.
Forever dulling this rusty blade.
Breath by breath time moves away.
Crumbling and breaking down everyday.

Pictures are all this man has left.
Solitude in images a pain in my chest.
Craving your touch a smile a laugh.
Missing my friend my better half.

Dreams every night of what could be.
Thoughts of the past you and me.
I am still the man you fell for.
Can we rebuild can we restore?


A. Emmi 03/13/18
Mar 2018 · 224
The Never Ending Road.
Anthony Emmi Mar 2018
A grey night has fallen upon my dusty eyes
A dark road awaits my worn tires
The smell of a musty sleeping bag is faint
As I pack my life into a bag of tears

A cloud of smoke draws sadly into the wind
A tree cracks with old age
I am nothing but a shadow for the stars
As I drive into the night fearing tomorrow

The road is old and torn by dreams
The day is too long it will never end
Thinking of the past is too much to bare
As I drink from the never ending bottle of faith

A stale taste grows old in my mouth
A cigarette burns so slowly and calm
The rain falls to relax my mind
As I shut my eyes just a little too long

A. Emmi 04/04/06
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