a day of fake honesty a moment exposed as spirituality words were exchanged accompanied by fake egoless *******, i want to tell you because in all my spiritual enlightenment you will accept me as truth and not see otherwise. society is under the illussion of self gratification so I'll fit right in because I'm more or less an instrument of Devine nothingness. nothing the key to everything the lie I told my self following the meaning to life, the meaning to life that benefits otherside than it does you because being a spiritual seeker is what life is, I'm return I'll live happily and pain and suffering free because of the notion which is free your self from the self gratification and ego. I'll learn how to be a more desirable person that way as being egoless is what spiritual seekers seek. the motion of I AM and no role attached to it is like discovering what scientists fail to see. because science is the evil that created hell to people like me. me who no longer sees the spiritual path I walked me who is no longer enlightened or was even in the first place. me who would go everydau repeating a mantra that says benefit others for whatever you do is the true meaning to life therefore I will be gsrenteed a place above ego orientated people those who suffer. because i bought the idea of a human perspective that says clear the mind and you Will live with the same oneness as the universe itself. i believed this would bring universal harmony for my self. how stupid am I to believe a notion that negates the faculties of ego itself for the alienating of ego as if I can claim an idea that is built from what it denies. and that idea is the hidden face of spiritual fallacy. the search for spiritual enlightenment is being in denial about the exact thing thing it claims I can not. i was never in pain or suffering before. i was never not beneficial to mankind I was never unenlightened. i was never controlled by ego. i was all but perfect a creation not an experiment. the books and teachings that defined me as I walked this path of denial only shows the denial was believing a hearsay a false prophet a religious belief. it was me who suffered.