I've been broken for years
Once a happy person, though
Over time my love for life disappeared
Lonelier I felt
Isolation became my friend

Speaking isn't easy,
This is something that makes me queasy
Insecurities, self hatred, the bullying, being interrupted
Angrier I got
I became a volcano
Like most times I am relaxed, yet heated
Fighting for my own
Further life happened
Mentally I was becoming more and more defeated
Not many friends or friends at all
Once I got the chemicals
That's when giving up was a call, I made
So where's Alex at?
He is in the abyss
Transparent with the shade

He's given up
Full of shame
He gets up every once in awhile
He is filled, with shame
He has no confidence
For his mindset has changed
Numbing himself from pain
Looking outside from the window pane
Asking himself why all this
Pain?

He searches for who he is amongst these masks
He is unmanageable, with so many tasks
He is so young
He is so smart
Yet he's trying to fight with his past
He was drunk
He was high
He is now clean
He is still trying to find
Alex,

He has one request from his god, and it goes like this;

Dear God, let me have no fear! I have my life set to adhere to my duties as a young man, no fear for my outcomes, but to accept what is, sticking to my life, soon to find my full self with honor, GOD! I have my downs, but I am searching for my willpower. Let me find peace, serenity, and courage, amen.