Cast off, shunned, alone. This is what they condone. Shaded, jaded, and unsatiated, that’s my legacy. I thought I was strong enough on my own, that I’d grown, but I’m just a small child inside, lonely and empty, a hollow of a shell, with no one to compel me, help me, love me and move me. I’m so ******* lonely, eating a bullet will fill this void. Will it? I’m so hungry. For love, for compassion, for someone to share my passion. I have so much love to give, so much to share, there is nothing to compare. I’m so hungry… still hollow and empty inside. Every day I die again. Still nothing to swallow. I feel like I’m suffocating from the inside out. A shell of a person, a ghost, a hologram. Nothing left of me. I waste away Each day is another death I’ve died. No anger left in me, just apathy. I’ve cried myself out, barely drag on. Yet they still hang me out to dry… and so I die again and again. Will it ever end? I’ve held a gun twice to my head, wishing and praying I were dead, asking is there anything left for me ahead? No. It’s another bleak, dark day, wasted away… turned to dark, with no spark. My flames have gone out, suffocating embers is all that’s left. No light ahead, and so I feel dead. Another day, is another dollar I have not earned. I yearn, Oh how I still yearn. But my prayers go unanswered, unheard, my shouts get lost in the noise, of everyone screaming to be heard. My prayers float away, another day… a dollar I’ve not earned. It’s all gone to Amazon, to Disney, as they flip my story. Tarnish my name, and so my flame finally dies. I’m still forever left out. My name, my story used, but they don’t tell of my abuse. They don’t tell of my shame, I get no fame, while they lay claim to my life, my rights. I’ve no fight left, no spite. So I die over and over again inside. Please just give me the bullet. It would be so much easier. Less pain, please take it away. I feel I’ve died a thousand deaths from here to tomorrow, there lays my sorrow. It goes… on and on and on…

Sick of the facade. WHY NOT USE A WHIP AND ROD? Sick of these trolls, all they do is just scroll. Hit DELETE, RINSE and REPEAT. They on patrol looking for they next victim, lookin', and searchin' of how they can whip 'em. To all you Trollers out there, scrolling, meme'ing, sick of the facade.
These Trolls go on a roll and just scroll...
They are bullies in disguise hiding behind they cell phones and keyboard.
They taunt and sneer, while they smear your name, for their own fame, with no care for the game.
Throwing elbows and jabs, no penalty shot, cause they got caught
with their pants down, so now you need to sit the **** down, shut up, cause you in line about to be ****** up.
Bunch of ******* critics and hypocrites, with only one ticket to their own show. ECHO.... No one around, BLAST that's MY sound comin' round. Gonna shoot you down off your own pedestal, knock you down, off your high horse. Bunch of geeks, with their tweets, thinkin' they have some treat to give you, like you somethin' special. All they are is a bully behind their mask, a coward in disguise, who just hides. ****** losers with no end game. ******* tweet patrol, they are just weak patrol.
Just a facade... Undercovers is what they are...
These people are leeches, all I hear from them is screeches.
With a flick of the wrist, Nigel gave me the full gist.
It's just a mirage. Well, I give you applause, but this is SABOTAGE.

Sick of all these hoes trying to put on shows trying to make jokes b* I don't need your woes. trying to keep my head up above ground before I go down, you need to sit down cuz I'm about to f* drown trying to drag me down. Be fronting with your fake smiles and all the Wiles you just trying to leave me in the wake.
You don't know me I spent seven years in abstinence trying to make sense of all this f* nonsense. you be acting like I'm Satan u's so ungrateful you don't even know how to giv thanks. But you don't know me back the f off me spent my teenage years flying to New York trying to give support to all those people in 9/11, lost souls gone to heaven.  raised hundreds and thousands of f dollars for all those people trying to holler, drowning in Hurricane Katrina well I'm right there trying to feed ya. but you say money don't mean s but you be begging for it when you down and out cuz u spent it all on f* **** and *******. You think I got no compassion I think you're just looking to someone for slashin. you want to put me down you want to cut me down watch out cuz next time I come round it's going to be a knock-down. You think I'm crazy I think you're just f lazy trying to blame others for all your woes b* quit trying to put on a show. I was right there at your door trying to give you more all you can say is b* you a *****. The sad part about it is that you're not the first to come out with it trying to act like you the Queen of the castle well I'm about to wrastle you for that throne cuz b* I've grown. You don't know s bout me spent years in Hawaii saving kids from drowning so b* quit your clowning. Why u always got to be fronting why you got to test me, *** if im just a wretch arrest me already. if I'm such a horrible person, a devil in Disguise then I am my own demise. So quit trying to drag me down because I already be down. But you don't f* know me you just trying to show me what I lack it's alright I come back in full swing to attack let's go tear up that f ring. UC when you got nothing to lose everything becomes your Muse. I got nowhere to go no one to see I lost everything I'm at rock bottom I'm at f** it, so this Rucker about to become a ruckus. You trying to take from me my name you trying to take from me my pride watch out ***** I swing wide.
U disgust me with all this negativity, it's making me sick, stop now cuz I got a mean tic

Girls be checking me wishing they could be me, girls be fronting me always trying to compete cuz they incomplete with no originality they need to check they own reality. seems they get close when they have something to gain when All Is Lost I'm the one slain. Peeps be shooting me down saying what they think is right no one asks if I'm alright. They tell me angels can't fly but I be looking up in the sky all I see is rainbows and stars while I be cut up and left Lonely with scars. Boys be checking me out trying to feel me out trying to throw some game all they want is they claim to fame. I need some peace of mind in this Daily Grind before I lose myself and just unwind. People be looking at me like they know me thinking they in charge and have something to show me. All I see is an endless mob trying to push me into the fog. I get lost, I get lonely, I have no one to comfort me. Everyone who gets close only wants to boast acting like they the king of Mars or a queen of the stars. No one sees the real me they only see what they want to see. They *** their blinders on, while im just tryina find a tomorrow. People be slangin my name as it is they only claim to fame. Gold diggers be mind f* people with they own agendas all acting like they trying to help us. I sing the  Blues with a sad tune, cuz i got no way to vent trying to say what I meant, always misunderstood cuz people think I'm Hood. b be throwing elbows trying to check me trying to test me trying to front me trying to bump me, get in line cuz u aint so divine. Bout to be thrown, cuz ive grown. They call me narcissist I just think I'm sick of this ****, all these games playd tired of peeps throwin flames. Just need some peace of mind to get back to my Daily Grind. These people are blind they walk around people of all kind. They want to call me a racist say I walk  with a white Hood. What they don't know is that I'm from the hood. I be mixing with all type so they need to get off they gripe Cuz I'm the only one leading a lonely life. They want to call me crazy cuz they think I'm having a baby. I'm just begging and pleading for some peace of mind for my daily grind. I be trying to float like a butterfly while they sting like a bee all this negativity is drowning me. These boys be getting heinous and jealous they ain't loyal trying to act like they some kind of royal. You want riches and you want fame get your head in the game, take it out of some other b ***** and be a man not some kind of boy toy wussy. B want to be me, guys want to f and no one wants to claim me. My family abandoned me they all say I'm crazy they don't want you to know what goes on behind closed doors cuz they all in Scientology. You think I'm trash well I know you're just bout that cash. They Chew you up n spit you out, they forget what it's all about. They *** they own agenda when it doesn't meet they own they try n end ya. I only spit lyrics and write rhymes to get me through these tough times. I think Chester was onto something real when he couldn't deal. Sinking down flailing trying not to drown. Head's barely above water sometimes I think I think it's time i take that drink. Sticks and stones may break my bones but words are what really hurt me. Tired of being spit up and chewed out think I'm ready for the shootout. See people going to take these words I write down try and make me look like a clown I'm just trying to turn my frown upside down. I'm sick with angst and lack of loyalty for everybody be walking around thinkin they royalty. Why so down and lackluster he asked cuz ppl walking around saying they want to bust her cuz they know they can't f with her. Tired of these b* stalking me, I'm just trying to be free. Sometimes you need to let the Beast go in peace so as to not have to get the police. Tired of the harassment and mind games cuz all they want is they own claim to fame. Tired of these b trying to stalk me, thinkin they the ****** boss o me, tryina talk to me, tryina rule me, trying to confuse me, ***** you bout to be my muse. You wanna stake yo claim? Get yo own f game

Just want you to know that you can all go to hell. Everyone wants to taste, gives the chase, everyone wants a piece, a slice, for no price. no one really gives a s. My exs forsake me, my mother never forgave me, my father forgot all about me, they tell my brothers that I'm crazy. Once a girl who wore her heart on her sleeve, jaded from being Amongst Thieves. Can't trust nobody, cuz they all just want to be me. No one sees the pain, the hurt, jus listen to the lies, as my name is **** through the dirt. The Asians hated me, the blacks steal my guys, my name, and my pride from me, they say they want to support me, but they don't realize they just degrading me. The whites smile in my face, as they stab me in my back. Living everyday with the lies they put forward, it's harder than reaching for the stars untoward. This cross is too heavy, it's too much to bear, every Rock they throw is more wear and tear, my body barely drags on, everyday is a different challenge yet the same with this cross too much to wear. My exs forsake me, my mother has never forgiven me, and my father forgotten me, while they tell my brothers that I'm just crazy. The other day I was just verbally attacked by another, all she tryina do is smother, my last will, my last Flame, is smited by those who smile in my face, and talk behind my back. Her white devil coming out, yet im The one still left out. In the rain, the cold, the dark, all i need is one spark. The wound in my back grows, I feel like I'm bleeding out, in this Darkness, I'm lost with no way out. Some Say buy a gun, you have to fight for your right, stand up tall. Well I feel like I have done all, I spit into the wind and it smacks me in the face, left in shame and disgrace. I fight this fight alone, unarmed, and unprepared for the battles thrown my way, so my shoulders slump, as I try to give jump, and I end up just a big pile of nothing, a lump. People walk over me, kick me when I'm down, then ask why do I frown? I Ask myself how long was the score, how long must this go on, but they say it's just begun. You must suffer, you must take it all, for you brought this on, the squall. It is you who beckons the evil from others within, and it is you who must bear this Smite and Smothers, for in the end you will grow stronger my dear. I am called out, cussed out, stabbed in the back, and this wound will not heal. This mental mind-f has left me empty inside, and just trying to hide. Everyone believes that these demons that haunt me are my own, but they play blind deaf and dumb to those that taunt me. These bullies throw out harmful threats, but that's not what scares me, it's how those react around me, who are not there for me, to love, to support, to believe in me , when I am in need. When they're nowhere that's what gives the scare. How much longer is this beating, they look at me and ask what beating?

Sometimes I wish someone would just tell me what to do so I could see things from a different View, im so lost and confused. Don't know where to go don't know who to see don't know who to put the trust in me. When you lean on someone and find no one once again It all becomes a white fog. No Direction, no guidance, no one to confide in, because they're just a ***. I reach out, try to be heard seems to just fall on deaf ears and so these tears continue to come down As I lie face down. Once again the holidays near and I fear no one will be here. Every man I love has another one on the side of whom they try to hide, but I will not abide and stand on the side lines. I will not watch you tear my life apart as I give you my heart. And so once again I Stand Alone with no one to call my own. Another year gone by and I have no one by my side.