Even after I ******* I still think about you.

I long for your touch like a family reunion.

I have let the devil distract me
It came in form of
Friends, wine, smoke, drugs,  preachers, women, fun.
It came in the form of sweet things.

I thought about you thinking about me.

Thank you Thank you Lord...Thank you lord; thank you lord...thank you lord for everything you have done.

I am a disgrace
Fallen out of grace
Out of the race I am dazed
Can't show my face.
In these phase of time.

Do you really want to know?
Or you are just asking cos you bored?
Well, it depends.
I have a lot on my mind, just don't know where to start from.
I wish i was unconscious to say it all so I hide anything, or feel shameless.
I am thinking of how to change and be a better person.
Don't want to be a selfish person anymore...stop being manipulative and opportunistic.
I want to practice what i preach.
I want to walk freely without hiding or passing other routes.
Love truly and be a good friend.
I want to feel free wild and young.
Living my life.
I want to travel to somewhere new so that i can feel like new.
Be different.... More eccentric.
I will do the right things this time because nobody knows me here.
Be a new person, start afresh.
Preach possibility and  be positive anywhere that i go and with whom i come in contact with.
This is  whats on my mind.

I will always come wearing a smile on my face
Whenever you call me by my name
Don't worry be happy.
You can count on me good days, bad days
Just call on me and my smile would put a smile on your face.
I will tell you what you need to hear and what you want to hear don't worry be happy.
I promise from this day henceforth.

No matter how much I wash, I am not clean.
I need to say the truth but I am not living in truth.
I know the right thing to do to cleanse my soul but I am not doing it I am too ***** and don't want to be saved.
I am full of lies and owe people money.
I use my charm to deceive people
I am torn inside and what to be clean. I know what to do but I am not doing it. Don't know why I am scared or feeling like I have time. Time is going and I am tired of trying to escape or always run away. I want to face my battles now. Stand trough it to the end. I owe my kids and the kids around me this change. I want to be leader. I want to preach and change people postively with my words and money and actions. I want

I miss you. I miss the scent of your body. I miss inhaling your fragrance. I miss cuddling with you. I miss your clinginess. I miss when you wrap your legs around me. I miss when you check my phone. I miss your surprise visits. I miss your soft voice. I miss your gentle nature. I miss holding your hand when we go out. I miss our conversations. I am missing you deeply.

How do you know I'm in love? I always champion my woman's business, making sure everyone knows about it. I guess I'm just a hopeless romantic. Maybe one day I'll find my ride or die.

I find myself dreaming, praying for a call from you, imagining the phone ringing, only to realize it's all in my head. Why do you have such power over me? Is it because the love is real?

The nights are long and even harder without the cash to escape into Lagos' nightlife. My mind is racing. Being broke and heartbroken is a tough combination. I hurt someone who loved me, and now I wonder if this is karma. I sigh.

I used our picture as my wallpaper to show the world I was taken. I crossed the seven seas for you, and you know that. I thought you loved me. You said I was a good thing, but you'd rather let me go. Do you really want to lose a good thing? Can't I have this good thing?

I feel like a poet suddenly. She told me that maybe if I had money, she would have considered me. That shattered me. Thank God for the strength of man; I would have fallen, but I was just dizzy. I'm not a poor boy; I'm skilled. Does that matter?

Maybe I need to travel to escape this, but I know I can't forget this love so soon.