On a cold dark road,
When there is light
We do not stumble.
In the darkness
We find pleasure
What can we say then
We stumble on pleasure
Or does this pleasure find us
When our eyes are closed.

We sit and laugh
Talk and chat
Remembering alas
How it could have been.
Think in silence
Think aloud
I am far off now.

The pleasure I could see
For once my eyes were closed
In the moment I blinked
Now the light has filled my soul.
I can see now
I stumble no more
For that pleasure
Was just a stumbling block
On that dark cold  road.

You were doing so well, I was proud of you,
But the beauty of the world took you from me.
Did you ............miss me too?
Now look at me, broken in places where I was broken before.
This time my wounds won't heal! I cannot. take it. anymore.
You have not noticed but I am trying to nurture these scars, to patch them up again.
I bleed infront of you,  do you see my blood, don't pretend!

Where are you? Are you somewhere where you have openly hidden yourself from me?
I see you looking my way, but do you truly see?
What's your focus?
Do you see me or are you subconsciously focussing on the dagger in my back- the one that you twisted and turned, time and time again.

Aren't you seeing all the blood? Ofcourse not, I've cleaned it up with my tears.
I have drown myself with your painful smiles and glareless stares. Do you still see me? Because I don't want to see you. I smile and turn away.
This time, I'm mended, not broken.

Somewhere inside me,
There  exist a place
Where I retreat alone.
And there I will wait,
Come and rest a while with me.

In the still of the night
My heart's silence is broken
And there comes a flood,
Like an ocean's wave
Consuming everything thought not yet spoken.

When all is felt and gone
My heart's ocean cease to rush.
Body and soul join once again
Gaining back it's self-control

It was, that one great moment
When it felt right to pour
My heart into my soul
Forever wondering ...

Jealous of the sun
That sees you first,
And the wind
That touches your skin.
The elements of the earth
Gets your attention,
And here I rightfully remain, I Alone.

If I dig deep within my soul
I will find your words hidden inside me.
The very sound code spoken at the foundation of the world
Used in creation, in forming even the sky and the sea.

Words which speak of life and love
Wheeling humanity and nature together.
With kindnesses and mercy coming only from above
And the eternal promise of your grace and love forever.

Your life is in me, guiding me to walk the path
Of love, kindness and with a human heart.
I shine your light like a lamp on a hill
Fully knowing it is not mine, but it's by your will.

I find my purpose, and the plan for my life
Secured in knowing you are always by my side.
Never letting me stray neither to the left, nor the right
As a comforter and friend, You are my faithful guide.

So at nights when I cry myself to sleep
Still my heart and take care of me,
Like the good shepherd caring for his once lost sheep
Until your angels take me to You, for all eternity.

Come quickly, come soon,  
My Forever Love, even still...
I will wait for You.