I sit here
Every person who walks by
I look up and wait for a word
Seems like forever here in this chair

The thought of losing you
Well it just brings me to tears
I couldn’t go on the rest of my years
I’ll just sit here and pray

I pray that god wraps you up tight
And he gives your body the strength to fight
Watching these people go in and out
The uncertainty makes me want to shout

Finally the nurse says let’s go sir the Dr wants to see you.
I listen to him and a smile comes back to my face
Because none of this would be possible without gods loving grace.

A thought so grim
I looked down the barrel and pulled that hammer
Did that animals life matter?
I say thank you for your life

A poets mind is endless
It jumps from one thought to the other
In an instant
It’s a new poem

December has come and gone
A bitter sweet ending
The beginning of something new
My heart is broke and blue.

A poets life is words
It’s what I do.

My mind is like a black hole nothing but hurt and dispare every time I get something that is good I throw it away because I don't know any different.
my heart wants to love but the anger that pulls at my soul want let it In.
Like feeling nothing but the numbness that my mind has become feels like that light at the end of the tunnel that is 2 miles away and your stuck in mud and can't move..
it's never ending

My heart on my sleeve
I can barely breath
You broke it in two

I’ll sit here and wait for you
My soul is blue
Tell my heart we’re through
I’m dying slowly here
Girl I love you!!!

Day after day
It doesn’t get easier
My heart bleeds
My soul cracks even more

I keep watching that door
Like you’ll walk through any minute
Wishing for a genie in a bottle
My one and only wish my love
Would be you..

My heart broke
When I hear your name I choke
I can’t get in my head
That you’re gone and never coming home
I just lay here feeling really low
Minute after minute I’m slowly dying

How could you do this
You said you loved me
I guess this is bye
I’ll just hang my head and cry.

I’m dying slowly here
But you don’t care.

Imagine

Imagine a world where all can be one
Imagine a world where we don't need a gun
Imagine a world where we need no drugs
Imagine all you need is a hug.

Imagine waking to peace and no senseless killings
Imagine what a feeling
Imagine there is no black or white.
Imagine just doing wright.

Take pen to paper and imagine the possibilities
Imagine owning your responsibilities
Imagine the smile on your kids face when no bullies push or call them names.
Imagine your life with no pain..
imagine taking your loved one and dancing in the rain.

Close your eyes and imagine
Open your mind and imagine the possibilities
Imagine saying hi to a stranger
Imagine a day with no anger..
Imagine if we stood together as one
Imagine how that will feel ?
Imagine if we loved instead of hated one another
Imagine that feeling my brother
Imagine all as one
Let’s make it a reality
And then we all win..

Imagine my brothers and sisters. We all can unite we can all live as one. All we need is the faith of a mustard seed. Faith moves mountains.

                                      Written by
                                 James W Cook
                                      07/18/2020

I’m Nervous !!!

Girl if you only knew
I’m shaking over here
That pretty smile has me feeling like a little boy

A little crush with the passion of a million dreams
My heart screams
Let me be the one
The one that has that sweet goodnight kiss
Or that pretty smile when we meet eyes

It’s no surprise
You already know
My crush is you
I just wanted you to know.

My mind so dark and cold
Torn apart piece by piece
My life has no peace
Just ******* and madness

Life full of sadness
Thoughts of suicide are my norm
Take that blade and cut my arm
To feel the blood so warm

As it spills from my arm
My thoughts are of only death
I can smell the breath of the demon
Sent to bring me to hell

The devil rung his bell
The fires burn so warm
It’s like being back in my mother’s arm
Reborn into hell

My dreams full of lies
I dream to escape this life
So my friend hand me that knife.