Like her, the angel He sent from above
who was the one person I truly loved.

She changed everything and made my life worthwhile.
She was the only one who could make me smile.

She really doesn't understand how much she means.
I'll never be as happy as I've been.

She was my heart and my soul,
She filled me with joy and made me whole.

She was my world, my greatest treasure.
I loved her so much that it couldn't be measured.

I remember every moment we had.
All our memories I miss so much.

I wish we could go back in time,
When I was hers and she was mine.

I'd always protect her and let nothing harm her.
How ironic it was though that she was my armor.

She always made me feel so secure.
No matter what went wrong, she always had a cure.

With her I felt absolutely no fear,
But now I'm scared of anything that comes near.

She healed me and put me back together,
So I held on to her; she was my tether.

Sadly, she suddenly cut the rope,
And with it went my happiness and hope.

The spell had finally been broken
As I realized I had awoken.

It had all just been a dream,
No matter how real it may have seemed.

Everything I felt had been an illusion,
Explained by the way it left me in shock and confusion.

My best dream became my worst nightmare.
She vanished while she was right there.

She left me to struggle on my own.
She left me stranded, isolated, and all alone.

I had to wake up and realize
That the only real truth are real lies.

But I can truly tell her, "You're the sweetest dream I ever had,"
And for that, I can only be grateful and glad.

To be happy again, I'll have to relive the past.
Hold on to every memory for as long as they last,

To look back at how I used to feel,
To remember them as if they were real.

Even though it's over, l'll have to pretend,
Because all good things must come to an end.

I'm tired of dreaming.
I'm through with trying.
Tired of living, yet scared of dying.
Maybe things are good for you,
but look at all that I've been through.
Look at all the pain I've won.
I bet you think that it's been fun.
You never thought I'd turn away.
You never believed you'd see this day.
Look again cuz here I go
leaving behind all I know.
Changing it all as I must do.
Not daring to stop and think things through.
Wanting to run as fast as I can,
not stopping until I understand.
Like why did I let things get this way?
Why didn't I leave yesterday?
How are things going to be,
since there is no more you and me.

Someday you'll miss me like I missed you, Someday you'll cry
For me like I cried for you, Someday you'll want me back like I
Wanted you, Someday you'll understand why you broke my heart
When I didn't, someday you'll understand that I was the only
Girl that put up with all your mess, when your own family didn't
Someday you'll know how pain feels how you hurt me
Someday your life will turn upside down, like mine did when you broke my heart
Someday you'll have someone hurt you like you hurt me
Someday you'll realize how lonely life can be.
Someday you can sit down and think how much I meant to you
When you meant the world to me,
Someday you'll know how I really felt
Someday you'll try to come back to me like I tried with you
But someday you'll love me when I won't love you.

I wish you knew the way I felt
Everytime I looked at you,
I wish you knew my heart would melt
When I thought of me and you,

I wish you knew the pain you caused
When you chose to love someone new,
I was about to tell you but I paused
When I tried to say, "I LOVE YOU"...

Some some sweet talks
Silent stars nights darks
And the only topic of my conversation,
Will be....
You are mine... dearest

L is for lovely
O is for obsession
V is for violet
E is for elegant

My words are dried
Feeling short of supply
Where will I find the words
I'm still grieving in pain
Heart is still bleeding
My words are dried
Since I lost her.

Listening to the songs
Back too back.
Waching the roof in dark.
Saying to myself
Let her go.
Will I ever be able to write again.

How it feels to leave a city which saw you grow mature. I still remember when i came here 12yrs back I was just a rookie. It was this city which gave new prospects to my life. Gave me friends who will last for my life. Showered me with love and affection.  Gave me sense of maturity. Made me an entrepreneur, saw me rise and fall. Got love which shall be cherished for life tough i lost her. Feeling like I'm leaving something behind. Sense of losing some part of myself has grieved my mind. But I will be back after sometime. I would love to COME back to my home. But for a while I should move on, I'm leaving my soul behind on streets Where i wandered, places i visited, places where i partied all night with friends. I will be back after sometime. Visit my home.

What does it feel when we have a heart filled with joy and happiness.
Can anyone tell me?
Cause I have forgot how it feels being happy.
Mind is stuck at something and divided in two parts.
One is filled with the pressure of Work and deadlines.
Other one is filled with the thoughts of her.
Once work is finished, I left idle and mind goes completely blank.
As if it's shifting from left to right.
And the play of thoughts starts.
I'm getting habitual for this kind shift.
First it use to hurt me a lot heart use to ache.
Now I'm so habitual to it that like it's a drug if i don't take it and feel the highskies i won't get the peace. I have started to enjoy this feeling too.
Hope it would not **** me,
My eyes are wide open all my senses reignited.
I don't need to drink, Or smoke because I'm already high.
So please someone tell how it feels to be happy. And filled with joy.

Im just trying to fall in love with myself
Its better than investing in somebody else
I can make myself happy.
I don’t have, think what someone will think
If I drink,
If I stare at any girl,
If I hangout with friends for long hours.
I don’t have to buy flowers for,
I don’t have to think before eating what im eating,
Now i eat, drink, hangout, sleep, exercise.
Take weekend rides on bike.
No thinking of future.
I have home which is sufficient for me.
Now im thinking to by a new rides in this year,
A foreign trip with some cool destinations.
And Goa will become a second home for me.
I earn enough money so I can  shop daily,
Date a new girl daily,
Make unplanned trips.

I’m just preparing to fall in love with myself.

It’s a deadly feeling when your Lonely
                                ? Is Why one feels lonely
                                       Answer is simple
                            We hold some thing so tightly
                   That it starts consuming us from inside.
               The thoughts of somebody whom we loved,
                 The fight we had with someone we loved,
             The argument we had with someone we love,
  This feeling comes because we are taking the small thought to
             Another level by thinking about it continuously.
To solve this think just do on thing say sorry to the person you
hurt.
               If that person accepts your apology then its ok
       And even if they don’t take it then leave it then and their.
     You now just forget what had happened and enjoy your life,
  Now its their time to feel the grunge that they didn’t accept your
  apology.
                   You  just enjoy your life forget the past,
                                      Just enjoy the life.
And when they come back to you don’t forget to enjoy the
                                         moment.
The law of nature says what you throw to the sea it will be definitely will come back to you.

Today I'm setting her free.
Yes I definitely setting her free.
IF she had something for me,
She will definitely, will comeback to me.
If she doesn't then she was never meant to be.
Yes I'm having tears,
but I'm setting her free. ..................

It's complicated but yet desirable,
It's confusing but sensible,
It's drowning but meditative.
Who ever is in love
Is a blessed,
It's a divine power.
If loves on your side everything what happens is right.
So cherish it for the life,
treasure every moment spend.
Let your hearts flow like a river.
It will be filled with ups and downs,
But hold your hands tight.
And enjoy it and feel it.
It's a once in a lifetime experience.

What to write ?
Everybody is in a celebration mood who has his love with him. Some spend whole week planning for this special day. Thinking what will be the best flowers with a candlelit dinner.  Or a night at a pub or bar. Or a long nightdrive. Or should I gift her a ring and propose her and say what I feel for her.
What about me, why I'm seeing what others are doing. Cause on this day of love I'm all alone. No one to share feelings, no one with whom i can spent some lovely time. I wish she would have been with me.

How to fill the emptiness of heart
Shall I fill it with the sweet memories of past, with the struggle i had,
grievance people have about me.
battles i lost, victories which are few,
pain i suffered, love which i never had.
Or leave it hollow and let it free to live.

Live the moment
Life itself explains
Live in the moment.

The first sight of your loved ones
The first date with her,
The first dinner with her.
The first smile she gave to you,
You catch a glimpse of it.
Just cherish every moment spend with her.

The first talk with her,
The first argument with her.
The first sorry you said to her,
The apologie you gave to her.
Just cherish every moment.

The first time you said love you to her,
The first time she restrained to say she loved you.
The first promise you gave to her.
Just cherish every moment.

The first fight with her,
The first time you tried to persuade her.
Just cherish every moment.

Love is a game give it what ever you have.
Dont worry if she leaves you.
Because you were not alone who enjoyed the moment. You will be always be remembered by her; you had given what ever you had.
Just cherish every moment.

And just move on, this was an experience you had.
Live the moment.

Oh what a roller coaster ride has been.
Last fifteen days I have seen many ups and downs.
Right now I'm in the middle of the steep *****.
It all started from argument with girlfriend,
And after couple of days she dumped me for asking to chat with me.
I had too share a major achievement I had that day. It was a major break through of my life. I was desperate to share this thing with her. But she was in some uneven state.

And then it took 5 days me to recover from that. I was willing to die.
On same night I had an accident on bike, I got brushes speeding driver behind some how saved me but crushed my mobile.
And after couple of  days I was on the speed way with my colleagues it was midnight.
I was driving and maintaining speed, God knows what happened the truck running in front of me at top speed suddenly stopped.
I ferociously applied break but still we bumped in to the truck.
But by God's grace we got saved, Unharmed.
Car got broke.
And now all off sudden my father asked me to close the showroom. We had a sudden financial crisis.  

Now it all most a ground zero for me.
I'm still figuring out what life is I was on the 7cloud when my love was with me.
And now once again I'm all alone on the 4th cloud.

I was always a dream weaver,
Weaved dream about. Just anything I liked.
It was problem with people, they never wanted to be attached to my dreams.
And walked off .
Thought I will get hindred.
I will fullfill my dreams.
Time never remains same.
I will complete my dreams for more dedicated once.
May God with you & me.

I was heart broken
Trying to avoid people
Trying to avoid family
Avoiding friends.

All because my girlfriend rejected
Me.

Felt worthless,
Because I was bleeding deep inside.

Friend's and family surrounded me,
Took care of me.
Then I realised what I'm worth of.

In last two weeks
I faced death twice.

Didn't realised it at first accident.
But second time I saw it close.
I bummed my car which was running
At top speed of 140 kmph. In too a truck.
But me and my friend were left scratch less.
God showed I have still life left.
My world has not ended.
These accident showed why I was worrying
when I have much time left in my hand.
I can still get life which I have dreamed off.
You get what ever you have dreamed.
Not to worry God I always listens prayers, and answer's them silently.

You are nebulous glow in my life. Want this feeling for of my whole life. Don't want this moment be ephemeral.

Hope is all that keeps alive, everything, every person, every situation, will always, keep blocking you and your dreams.
One has to only keep going and keep doing we have to do to achieve our dream's.
Thing's don't work for us,
People don't work for us,
Change your attitude
Getup early, workout, Pray to god, start your work early.
Contact people at their early working hour's.
They cannot ignore your calls ,and you will get the true answers.

"Communicating fully and openly, without withholding, is a key to successful relationships."
Those of us who attempted to be authentic were sometime ridiculed for being overly sensitive, making a mountain out of a molehill, or being too needy. We got the message early that it was dangerous to show our tender underbelly. We might be judged and criticized, even humiliated. But still never loose your own self. Try to control.

She asks me what's wrong with you why are you not responding.
I told, I entered my den. I'm just fedup of this and playing safe. Fedup of wandering behind you with an open heart, no response. Just keeping safe and preparing for Yes and No's. You are playing an unsafe game which can be injurious for me.
  I'm just fedup of your attitude, no wonder you take yourself as a Princess Untouchable.

Look firstly I'm a simple guy,
With a very humble background.
I have never been in relationship ever, that's you not replying my message; makes me think you distancing from me purposfully.
Yes I told you I will give space too you, yeh but this doesn't mean, one shouldn't even care to reply message.
From day one every now or then, I'm trying to understand your side.
But have you ever thought how must i be feeling when all this things happen.
I think you consult to friends and then act. Because I have seen girls like this acting after consulting with friends.
Hope you're not doing these things,
Good only know's what's holding you back. It's been 1 month since we meet, yes we had argument after That. You named that as a fight. You blocked my messages not once but twice. I never got angry on you. I still remember even when I was high at the time of fight(as you named it) i didn't say some abusing to you. I was subtle and and just spoke my mind.
You do what ever you want, still i won't blame you.
It's my fault i give people my affection easily. I was never born stubborn. Never think twice over giving to people.
The day goes much easy because we are busy with work, but night which doesn't sale sleep to me., makes me Thinking about you. I know you must not be thinking about ever,
This would create my image like a feminine natured. But wht to do i can fight with any person and have tussle but just cannot tussle once heart gets involved this happens only with/for you.

FiNgEr'S CrRoSsed.

"You never can tell what a thought will do
        In bringing you hate or love--
For thought's are things, with their airy wings
         Are swifter than carrier doves.
They follow the law of the universe-
         Each thing create it's kind,
And they speed O'er the track to bring you back
  Whatever went out from your mind."

"Blessed is the man who has come to know that our muted thought's are our sweetest thought's "
"Blessed is the man who, from the blackest Depth's, can see the luminous figure of Love, and seeing, sing; and Singing, Say: 'Sweeter for than uttered lays are the thoughts I have of you.' "

☺their are,; more ink has ' bleeding into canvas, but being patient it will b' served one day by day. I understand now one's should meet like thirst and water. When have to meet, they definitely will.

Life is mysterious,
Gives you what's minimum for you,
Asks for what is maximum for you,

Just got killed by,
Eyes that are so intense.
Make you sink in so deep.
Skin not so fair but a perfect blends with the slender figure.
Smile is just a final master stroke. A true beauty, i just got killed........ You won't agree with me; just look through my eyes.

You are a always a girl which I tried to chase. Things change after ignores. So always don't try out what people tell you. Listen to your heart, things will change when you will have faith in yourself than others. Dare to speak ur mind face to face. It happens always some people have a loud mouth, speak what's in their mind without fearing, about results. This doesn't makes them lame or  mediocre they were only following what they had said.

I have no regrets from the year that passed,
I lost something, but in the end got something.
For Which i can care and adore my whole life.
I ask from this new year is hope & strength. Happy new year Dear.
2018
Wish You a Joyful & Prosperous year. Filled with happiness.

My heart is cold
Heart is cold......mmm.
Despite falling in love,
My heart is cold,
My heart is cold.

Shall I warm it with some magic world.
My heart is cold.
My ................

All I wanted was love.
No demands, No commitments,
No propositions,
I just her asked for the love.
And answer was I'm not yet ready.
Give me sometime, told me to restrain
Using this word love.
She doesn't want to say not letting me to say.
I agreed to give her space & time.
And lower my arms.
God knows what will happen ahead.

I owe everything to everyone in my life.
I owe my life to my parents who gave me chance by giving birth to me.
I owe my life to my teachers who tutor me in school & college.
I owe my life to my siblings who were every time with me when I had no friends.
I owe my life to my friends who were with me in my school and college life.
I owe my life to my colleague's who were with me when I was struggling to build my business.
I owe my life to my girlfriend who never said she loved me.
Im still struggling in my life. Now I'm on my own no ones with me. I don't blame anybody I'm all alone, it was my decision to stand on my own efforts. I still failed. I'm broked, I'm bored. I'm not getting success, thought comes to my  mind to end my life. But one thing stops me from this. I know I don't even my own my life. I have no right to finish my life. Because I already owe my life to everyone in my life. I can't finish it without settling what I owe.
I always remember i owe my life to somebody.

I owe everything to everyone in my life.
I owe my life to my parents who gave me chance by giving birth to me.
I owe my life to my teachers who tutor me in school & college.
I owe my life to my siblings who were every time with me when I had no friends.
I owe my life to my friends who were with me in my school and college life.
I owe my life to my colleague's who were with me when I was struggling to build my business.
I owe my life to my girlfriend who never said she loved me.
Im still struggling in my life. Now I'm on my own no ones with me. I don't blame anybody I'm all alone, it was my decision to stand on my own efforts. I still failed. I'm broked, I'm bored. I'm not getting success, thought comes to my  mind to end my life. But one thing stops me from this. I know I don't even my own my life. I have no right to finish my life. Because I already owe my life to everyone in my life. I can't finish it without settling what I owe.
I always remember i owe my life to somebody.

I asked god for just few things.
I asked god for just few thing's,
Success to my work, Love in life to share life grievances.
I involved these things in my prayers,
I get early in dawn,
With the sun.
Search for daily work contacts.
Get some project's. Work on them day and night, and when done with project. Client disappears, and after one week I'm back to ground zero.
I'm still praying god daily.
Because he gave me one thing to me I was asking it's love.
I'm holding it since 4months and still praying for success to my hard work. Now it's been limit I'm getting impatient. Wanting to settle in life. If Things don't happen fast i will loose my love also. I'm already on my knees. Oh god please help me. Oh god please help me............. Or i will crumble. And end life.

What days are these,
Trying to remember thing's,
But don't get trace of anything.
Trying to fell with nostalgia,
Can't afford that luxury.
What day's are these,
Can't even relax with memories,
Goals are yet to be achieved,
So can't afford this luxury to.

Yes I hold something.
Yes I hold something, which makes me feel everything so deap.
It makes me the one, who people easily make fun off.
Express my feelings without even thinking.
Doesn't care of consequences, what people will think.
Makes me fall for everything in life easily.
Never care of self, makes me slefless.
Over Caring, possessive, Overprotective, dominating, jealous.
But I'm none of this i know who I'm.

I'm fragile, I feel Pain, I hurt, I Open may eyes, I Crave Victory. I couldn't give up. I feel no fear, I fear no men. I Create, I conquer, I Over power.  I have decided, enough is enough. I'm willing to people laugh at me, I'm willing to gut this up, I'm willing to make things happen. I'm taking life on. I'm willing it's possible, I can do this, Yes I would do this. I will make things happen.  It's my Time. I see the sign.   *And You're that sign

Me and my loneliness,
Makes me sad,
Makes me remember about the lost memories,
Makes me lose my control, Makes me idiot,
Makes me maniac,
Makes me desperate,
Makes me full of lust,
Makes me full of anger,
Makes emotions like never before,
Makes me feel the pain in my heart.
And what I do, i just hand over it a pen and paper.
Then starts writing the stories, poems, quotes, the one liners,etc.
I just think the loneliness even some times helps.
Brings something nice out of you.
I started like loneliness.
But I wouldn't be a friend with loneliness.

Don't you feel like I feel.
It's okay with me.
I will keep messaging you,
Good morning & Good Night.
I made it my duty,
I have feeling, that I don't want to lose.
I know it was me who made you mad.
It was me tried to interfere in your life to much.
I will not forgot it was me who surrendered, not you.
Don't want to talk to me.
It's okay with me.
I will keep messaging you,
Good morning & Good Night.
I made it my duty.
Days are all that matters,
Your are busy in life,
No wonder's you think,
I'm not.
Hope that day never comes,
I will not reply your message.
Don't want to talk to me.
It's okay with me.
I will keep messaging you,
Good morning & Good Night.
I made it my duty.
Don't you feel like I feel.
Don't want to talk to me.
It's okay with me.

Look at the Sun, it's still similing at you; You missed him raising in Dawn, he was alone. but he still waited for you no matter how many long hour's wait will be. In the meantime Burnt himself and took care of sorrow's of darkness and brighten the world for you. This has been his daily routine because he has already fallen for you.

Shall I pass a day without seeing you?
Or miss a chance to prove my feelings are true;
Shall I think twice to win your heart?
Living without you will tear me apart.
Shall I not recall the way your hair dances in the air?
And how your laughter warms my cold winter;
Your gentle breath swifts right through the autumn’s call, Shall I confess this love or wait until the next fall?

Gone for a morning walk, I saw a beautiful dew drop.
Wasn’t tired, but still, my heart wanted me to stop,
To take a look at the freshness and clarity of the dew,
Maybe because it reminded me a little too much of you…
Good Morning Beautiful.

This is a short love poem for a girl Whom I know before I have no existence,
My soul was then in the nature,
Revolving with the earth’s revolution.
This my poem is for a girl,
Who is the angel of light
Send to the earth to fight
The monsters of loveless
Loneliness which were in me.

She is flying her way back to,  looking stunning  racing on the winds. But it was something was missing their; here comes the rain drizzling in with the steamy winds. Making her moistened, every single drop cleansing her.  She looks stunning now like a shining star in a night. Drops falling from every curve. Wish I would have been there.