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Everybody is in a celebration mood who has his love with him. Some spend whole week planning for this special day. Thinking what will be the best flowers with a candlelit dinner.  Or a night at a pub or bar. Or a long nightdrive. Or should I gift her a ring and propose her and say what I feel for her.
What about me, why I'm seeing what others are doing. Cause on this day of love I'm all alone. No one to share feelings, no one with whom i can spent some lovely time. I wish she would have been with me.

How to fill the emptiness of heart
Shall I fill it with the sweet memories of past, with the struggle i had,
grievance people have about me.
battles i lost, victories which are few,
pain i suffered, love which i never had.
Or leave it hollow and let it free to live.

Live the moment
Life itself explains
Live in the moment.

The first sight of your loved ones
The first date with her,
The first dinner with her.
The first smile she gave to you,
You catch a glimpse of it.
Just cherish every moment spend with her.

The first talk with her,
The first argument with her.
The first sorry you said to her,
The apologie you gave to her.
Just cherish every moment.

The first time you said love you to her,
The first time she restrained to say she loved you.
The first promise you gave to her.
Just cherish every moment.

The first fight with her,
The first time you tried to persuade her.
Just cherish every moment.

Love is a game give it what ever you have.
Dont worry if she leaves you.
Because you were not alone who enjoyed the moment. You will be always be remembered by her; you had given what ever you had.
Just cherish every moment.

And just move on, this was an experience you had.
Live the moment.

Oh what a roller coaster ride has been.
Last fifteen days I have seen many ups and downs.
Right now I'm in the middle of the steep *****.
It all started from argument with girlfriend,
And after couple of days she dumped me for asking to chat with me.
I had too share a major achievement I had that day. It was a major break through of my life. I was desperate to share this thing with her. But she was in some uneven state.

And then it took 5 days me to recover from that. I was willing to die.
On same night I had an accident on bike, I got brushes speeding driver behind some how saved me but crushed my mobile.
And after couple of  days I was on the speed way with my colleagues it was midnight.
I was driving and maintaining speed, God knows what happened the truck running in front of me at top speed suddenly stopped.
I ferociously applied break but still we bumped in to the truck.
But by God's grace we got saved, Unharmed.
Car got broke.
And now all off sudden my father asked me to close the showroom. We had a sudden financial crisis.  

Now it all most a ground zero for me.
I'm still figuring out what life is I was on the 7cloud when my love was with me.
And now once again I'm all alone on the 4th cloud.

I was always a dream weaver,
Weaved dream about. Just anything I liked.
It was problem with people, they never wanted to be attached to my dreams.
And walked off .
Thought I will get hindred.
I will fullfill my dreams.
Time never remains same.
I will complete my dreams for more dedicated once.
May God with you & me.

I was heart broken
Trying to avoid people
Trying to avoid family
Avoiding friends.

All because my girlfriend rejected
Me.

Felt worthless,
Because I was bleeding deep inside.

Friend's and family surrounded me,
Took care of me.
Then I realised what I'm worth of.

In last two weeks
I faced death twice.

Didn't realised it at first accident.
But second time I saw it close.
I bummed my car which was running
At top speed of 140 kmph. In too a truck.
But me and my friend were left scratch less.
God showed I have still life left.
My world has not ended.
These accident showed why I was worrying
when I have much time left in my hand.
I can still get life which I have dreamed off.
You get what ever you have dreamed.
Not to worry God I always listens prayers, and answer's them silently.

You are nebulous glow in my life. Want this feeling for of my whole life. Don't want this moment be ephemeral.