You can't find it.

You never had it.

It's not there.

You are like a shallow ******* hole.
You are like swallowing wood chips.
You are a snake in the gut, a rotten meat drink an eyeball needle injection...**** staph infection You are redness and irritation a migraine a wart You are very bad news You are debt, misfortune, forclosure, a missed flight, an accidental **** in the pants!!!

But still you are worse
And you will never go away.

Think you are easy
You are wrong.  
But I would never
I don't have that
Whatever you have
Burnt your love letter
A good thing to lose.

Dip cup
Sip murky grey
No little bit
For a bite
in my bowl
Wet
cold
musty
Sit
still
Wait.

Personality is an ocean
I'm tossing cookies in your seas.
Talk about my face
see your own.
You are a mask
wearing a mask
wearing a mask.

Forgetting
Being already
Forgotten.

You
Me
Sit
Sad
Lonely, only
You, me.