as i sat on the cold tile
tears running down me
i found that i was simply
lost
i didn't know what to do
didn't know who to tell
because i was simply tired
tired of
this world
tired of me
tired of loving you
when you didn't love in return
tired of fighting for you
when you were fighting for her
tired of being me
maybe i thought
if i was her
would i still be tired of myself?

Dear, "anonymous"
this has been on my heart
for quite sometime now
so i guess i will ask about it
why?
why was i not good enough for you?
what did she have that i didn't?
do you think she loved you more than i did?

because of you i don't believe in love anymore
at least not the kind of love that i used to believe in
you have shown me to believe in rejection and pain
you have shown me that there was no light at the end of the tunnel
you have shown me that "soulmates" are impossible to find

i used to believe that maybe one day
the universe would bring us together
but i guess not,
but i do know that no one ever told me
how painful love can be

there will never be enough words
to describe how much you hurted me
so for now i will say thank you
for showing me who you really were
and i hope that life treats you well
goodbye
    - the girl who once loved you

i say that i'm done
with you
but yet i can't help but go back
to you