i'm drowning in my own thoughts
wishing i could tell you how i really feel
but i can't so instead i pretend to not care
i can't let you see that part of me
the part where i long for you
the part where i wish you knew how i truly felt
the part of me that aches
because you'll never feel the same way
about me as i do about you
it *****
knowing that i can't tell
you all the words i've been
dying to say you
so instead i push you away
i pretended we never were friends
i pretended that you never existed
i pretended you meant nothing to me
so that i could get my thoughts
to stop killing me

i saw the way you looked at her
your eyes sparked
it was as if you
were seeing the sun
for the first time
i saw the way you started to smile
when she started to laugh
i saw the way you felt sad
when she didn't notice you
i saw you the way you felt
when other people
were talking to her
and you weren't
i saw the reflection of you in me
you loved her but i loved you
she gave you nothing but
you still loved her
you gave me nothing
but i still loved you
you see its a chain reaction
she loves him
you love her
and i love you