The ones you thought were the closest to you, are now strangers.
The ones you fell in love with years ago
now see you for the problem you have had since you were a child.
they see the anger, the hate, the pain.
It has been driving you insane.
you try to hide behind a fake smile as pictures burn through your head of the memories you made through the 5 years
the fights that led to this. the memories that brought you back
the love that holds those memories so close to your heart. It hurts to know you threw all of it away because you were blind with love that you didn't realize it became somewhat of an obsession. didn't realize you were suffocating her until it was too late. and now there is no healing from this. there is no getting her back. you ******* up so badly you are now a regret to her. All you are to her is a lost memory, the pain drove her to call you insane, obsessed, sick, psychotic, disgusting, and the list goes on. Some of those may be right, others, may see them as wrong. All I know is i hurt the one i loved, and there is nothing more I can to to bring her back to my side.