Corwin Schneider

Corwin Schneider May 2018

I wonder everyday the time
As I stare at this broken clock
To fix this broken tick
To make it tock.

Corwin Schneider May 2018

The moment I break in sorrow
She turns to leave
I try to follow
Insanity hits with no mercy to spare
I feel like a lost puppy
And abandoned doe
There is nothing to do but let time pass
For time heals everything

Corwin Schneider May 2018

To wake up next to her

When I wake up and she isn't next to me
I dream of the day when she will be
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Oh how badly I crave you
On my way to see her today
So in love no words to descibe
Every memory shared
All the arguments spared
I hope that you
Crave me too
When I am with you
My heart races
I can't keep count
So many places
Your arms embracing me in a hug
From a long night away from one another
Leads to conversation and what to do about her brother
Your smile alone
Sends warmth to my bone
Your glare your stare
Take my throne
I can't help falling into the abyss of love
And to see that I have the one I dreamed of.
Crazy how five years can fly
When you were the only one to stay
And not say goodbye
Now I wonder
How much longer
Until the day we don't have to go
I won't have to leave you alone
Instead to go to bed
say goodnight
kiss your lips
sweet dreams. and hold your hips
To feel your warmth next to mine.
know you are safe
know you are sound
Then in the morning to see you smile
Rise and shine let's start the day
But instead forget why we got out of bed
Seeing your smile at first light.
To wake up next to you knowing your were there in the night

Corwin Schneider May 2018

Keep it locked inside

The effort and strain to keep it locked inside
It hurts like hell if you cannot tell
A smile in pain
While my heart is flooding in the rain
Don't look. Don't tell
Keep this all to myself.
My heart beats faster as i hear them yelling and screaming in my face
My mind goes faster and faster.
But I cannot show anyone my pace.
Smile. Fake a smile

Corwin Schneider Oct 2017

A life's story

When a parent has a child
They love him with care
At least that is what was supposed to happen
But instead they left him bare
Let him go without a second thought
Oh I'll take this liquid poison over them instead
How in hell is she not dead

The one who brings him in
Making him as happy as happiness can be
But you would never know.
That this child was me.

Keep it in don't tell a soul
No one cares
No one wants to know
Brought into a strange family
Away from the problems
Making a future
Given a second chance with endless possibilities

I was taken away from the sour stench
The sting of smoke in the air
I do not remember much
Except her awful touch
The feeling to the pit of my stomach
The hate deep within my soul
It was fun she said
But even today I wish she wasn't here
Take my brothers place
Bring him back
You should have been the one to go.
I hate you I yelled as I fled
I wish you were dead.

For that is cruel I know
But it is true nonetheless
For I have none of these.
No regrets
It is the truth you see
Although slightly absurd.
But in the end the truth tends to be a bit more painfulthan you want it to be
As you fall down to your knee.

Corwin Schneider Sep 2017

The fear of a clown

In the shadow of a cold night
A small child plays in the dim light
Under the ground of the rainy skies
As a red balloon floats by
The boy will soon fly
He sees the stranger in the drain
He is confused, curious.
For this he shall die
The fear of a clown
Pennywise

He feeds off fear
For he loves you my dear
But do not be mistaken
IT is your soul he has taken
Do not run
He wants to have fun
Do you want a balloon?
Red as the moon?
If you take the string
Say your goodbyes
IT is the fear of a clown
Pennywise

In the end you may see
IT is not that scary
The crazy clown might not be that bad
Maybe he was just really sad
You see he had a virus
A bug
All he needed was a simple hug

But when he was rejected
He became consumed
Filled with hatred
Every twenty seven years pass
All soon will be doomed
He was afraid
So he feeds off it now
When you see IT drift by
He ends it with a bow
In the end he dies
See you again
Pennywise