Can't sleep till you rest with me.
Our heavy heads in perpetual search of peace.
I wanna fly or fall into your arms, but I can't trust in lust.
It leads to scars.
If I held your hand like you hold my heart, would it all break in two would it fall apart?
This world is cold and filled with cynics. Frozen lies that lead to warm truths. Beautiful messes that defy lyrics, broken Heroes that run toll booths.
When does poetry become song?
An arrow like note to lodge in the hearts of man, evoking tears of love and loss- this pain is costing me ... Everything. ..
In the arms of another man.

It's crushing my soul to watch you disintegrate
This idillic icon, this flawed and broken person
I'm supposed to grow and be you, yet I find my self in constant terror of becoming what is and what could never be
Maybe society failed you ....
but you failed yourself in pinning your hopes and dreams on another.
I may ramble your paths in intrigue
May sip of your vice in hopes of understanding
May rage at the unfairness of the hand that you were delt
But i refuse to file blame
Refuse to wallow
And I've repent for your sins
Noticed my own
Dug my own shallow graves
And have made peace with my daemons
I will not follow suit
You are a beautiful disaster and I love you
Maybe some day you will be set free
The cage of your mind is so binding .... I can only imagine your torment
But you bring it on your self...
And unlike you, I can embrace my flaws.. my vices ... my daemons... it doesn't really help.. but at least it keeps me sane
Others may have failed me.....
But I make my own way.

She says
I'm ebbing down to pieces. I bear the weight of a thousand souls. This brittle frame work is getting worn from lack of apathy. I need an outlet to get back a little piece of me. It's all the same,how the days blend. My life's refrain is a need bending pain.

I'm wearing down in ways. Flaming out my days.... Prefer to stay in haze. Help Numb out my manic mind?

i hoplessly, endlessly wonder why. everything is lost, a somber toss of peace into the fray. No light of day to guide me down the wondering paths that once lead us, fed us on dreams and aspirations. when it happens, it happens fast. winds change. tides turn. yet, as if in a fit of unconscious reverie , my pen continues to flow. a constant stream of thought. endlessly slipping truths wrapped in lies, endless lies wrapped in crisp undeniable truth. broken thoughts .... good intentions .... half lives lived untill they fade to black.

Half a bottle in and well on my way, to far gone tonight to care of consequence.
Through blurry eyes I see the clarity of it all.
Constantly guided as ever by a moral compass and inner fortitude. Ah, but to tare down this inner sanctum and free the caged animals within.
Like a deranged ****** of the human condition I remain a fly on the wall of the world.
So far hidden in self imposed shadow, the light stings my eyes. Filled to helplessness by another days worth of wading knee deep with the Haves and Have Not’s…
.. Still I wonder, who holds the key to my undoing?
Where lives this keeper of the passage to true life so well hidden…
.. Who drank my last glass….?
But I digress…
and regress ,
and obsess still over the smallest of things . I am but a tiny profit of immobility.
**** these thoughts that throw me asunder.
Cursed am I.
so caught up in my own brain.
Unable to enjoy a bit of well earned fun at the expense of my liver! Perhaps a proper mix of chemicals will lay to rest this angst,
this mind so full…
..this body…
or shall I uncork a new friend and simply try again….

I'm so busy facing my own fears,pain, angst and regret that I forget about the world..
how the masses feel... how they do?
If we are all truely in  this together... where the s the tether? This anamorphic tie that binds...the knot of cosmic uncertainty.. we can overcome ... we can be moved.. we shal prevale
United in a common need for community , family and general peace... we stand..and when we fall , we will fall together.

Let me drown in a sea of passionless *** - fill my lungs , my hart , my soul with a dead sense of instant gratification - you may think its love I seek , yet there is no want for a soft touch or a warm embrace - I beg my body be made a vessel to fill with your need - plead that you drain my manic panicked racing mind …. Calm me with your rhythm and skin….

alchohal and razor bladed, a twisted gaze, an open vein - a hart to bleed, a mouth to feed, the price is high if i suceede - sollace lost to higher ground, place all theses dreams in lost and found - a touch brings tears and two deaf ears, help build a wall around my fears - a need so deep brings loss of sleep, sanity is yours to reap - a dark and simple vow is made - to move along - to let it fade - a wisdome of my own designe, tuck it all away, in no one confide.