Black cloud
You ask me why I'm feeling sad
That life's not really all that bad
I lie to u with a forced smile
"I'll b ok it'll take a while"
You tell me to snap out of it
That life's not really all that ****
I lie to u without a frown
And say I'm fine when I'm really down
You say just look how good things are
You've got a family,friends and a car
I lie to you and simply say
Yeah you're right I'm just having a bad day
You say to me it's all in your head
Get a grip and get out of bed
I lie to you and say "you're right"
When secretly I'm losing this fight
You tell me i don't need my pills
That all i need to do is chill
I lie to you and say I'll try
When all i want to do is die
Next time that you want to speak
Please help me to get through that week
By telling me you will be there
And simply showing that you care
I don't choose to feel this way
I hope it goes away some day
I really want to be happy too
And hope I can with the help of you
My depression and suicidal thoughts