We all dream of better days..Right?
I can lay In bed for days
Just here ..
just watching the changes of the daylight through my blinds..
The comfort that comes from being here all alone with no one to interact with
No one to have to please
No one to have to answer to
Its really an odd feeling
Because part is pleasure and part is almost guilt..like the things i would be getting done right now or
All the fun things i could be doing
All the thoughts i have, they
Don't change my inability to get up instead of laying here..
As i just lay still wrapped In my soft plush blankets ...
It's so quiet.
..with no expectations .. My mind is allowed to run free till i just fall unknowingly into worlds uncontrolled .... I just don't want to even move there's no feeling like this<3

Two things residing within me.
Crashing against one another like hot and cool air meeting clear amongst the skies.
Utterly astounding and wrecking all at once.
This shard of darkness that's discreetly embedded to my core has always been awoken and seeking inconvenience and fear .. as night creeps it's way to dismay all hope and prosper. My angel of light has not given up on me and still puts up with the fight just for me.
Through the blind years of executions of realities
Still
The desire to pursue to accomplish and to shine.
With years to gain knowledge and with that ,
every day something new .
I now recognize who I want to be.. And ..it's just me!

© Jenn Linh

What if we just never have enough?
Never satisfied.
Is that good to realise we strive for more ?..
Or bad we can't just be grateful and content..
With all the possibilities and opportunities out and about but never the strength to carry out .
And so we sit
We sulk
We hope and we dream
For all the questions we hold unanswered and all the prayers for a better road to steer on.. blindly making decisions only to reflect back on
.. and wither we realise to  regret or see it as a good deed both are remembered and have their gaining or losing effect .. as we carry through what defines who we've made ourselves out to be .
Searching for reasons and placements of fate and destiny. ..
We take ourselves to sleep always hoping the coming day to be something remarkably liberating ..
As solely unsatisfied and constantly on the search for a salvation
Jenn Linh

What if I say no to you walking away
What if I say I don't want to lose you
Would you stick by my side..
What if I tell you this love we seek is not of fairy tales.
Would you shut out the negative voices telling you to just flee
If I asked you to just be with me .. would you turn and say yes and let us do the things we need to
To make us work
For To be with me and hold my heart as you do I'll soon show you that every day can be and will be of beauty.
As I tear down your walls and share pieces of my sunlight with kisses that are so simple but give you all the answers and never leave you feeling any fragment of loneliness or emptiness
I want to be your fill for that void
I want to be of your desires
And one day .. I want to just complete you as you complete me

© Jenn Linh

Sitting in the very back of a random parking lot on this cloudy rainy day as Im supposed to be sitting at my desk at work.. had to pull over as too many thoughts were breaking me down ..  And here I still sit
lost as I just stare out my window..my music strums silently while the vapors circle within the little gap of air I immersed myself within. Allowing no one to hear my cries or whip my tears and try to pull me out .  ..Tears fall just as the rain repeatedly slaps the ground and sadness over takes me ...
Ironic how pleasure can be found when all that consumes are feelings of incompetence and failure .

Get up
Wipe off your knees
Wipe away your tears
Wipe away Your fears
Become accustomed to numbness
For that numbness is what keeps you living
..Allowing you a temporary pass through the blindness for what we walk through each day to look forward to as we live this life of  reality we've created only to unintentionally completely despise

© Jenn linh