There's so many things I want to say to my boy pride and joy always on my mind you're what keeps me alive and moving on baby its been so long since I saw you held you smelled you or felt you.
                      ARE YOU REAL?
I just want to feel you breathe my heart's ripping beneath my skin will I ever see you again I was so close to seeing you now I might be going back to the pen not to mention how long it's been since the last weekend I saw you, played Thomas the Train on the floor with you, baby boy I love you! know my love for you melts the snow keeps me warm in the cold!
                      ARE YOU REAL?
What is love?, to me like a bird a dove flying free above with no restrictions on when or what just us far from lust ready to bust away any day for any reason through any season.
                        ARE YOU REAL?
Love is the blood pumping through my veins it's what keeps me coming back and always remains keeping me sane through the pains I feel no matter what this love is real!
Lies and preception death and receptions honest pretensions with love that's getting stronger to mention lessens the tension.
                        ARE YOU REAL?
Emotions so strong 4 time seems long I feel lost and gone somehow forgotten like a rotten fruit that fell to the ground that's true. I'm writing how I deeply feel so where are you?
                           ARE YOU REAL?
They say quote do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit they say keep doing good and good you will reap? I've tried everything and not even my son could I keep! well.. now days seem long as I feel weak ready to give up from this pain that keeps reaping, cuz these tears just don't stop leaking.
                            ARE YOU REAL?
My precious child is worth worth more then my life is he's priceless never mind this time away I hope it's blinded from your life as I write this in this timeless place I  cry in, a place you couldn't pry in even if you where tryin inside Corey I'm crying nobody can say I don't love you cuz they're lying. They have no idea what it's like in my mind as I fight desperately trying to find would it could be like to be a kid playing with his daddy one weekend then cries seeing him leave and never see him again corey I never wanted to leave you I wanted to teach you how to be a man never see you sad...
                             ARE YOU REAL?

Your really literally all i got in here over death being left alone  is my biggest fear it's the only thing that brings tears to My face shedding years from my days  can't sleep at night cuz  i cant get comfortable in any way that I lay I mean wide ******* awake on countless ******* days hoping wishing waiting on a letter to come my way not from anybody or anyone but from the only girl that I love.
       I call and I call everyday so you know my love isn't fake or being faked  4 days on countless days I try to keep it together but then I'm on my knees trying to pray that  if there is a God he don't take you away from me makes my heart hella weak tears falling down my cheeks begging lord please let this girl be the one I can keep I'm not trying to preach but you're the only one I can reach I'm pushing my heart through these sheets  I'm weak.
        I'm trying to stress to you my stresses I'm stressing in here, every day like a year biggest fear bringing tears because of you  banging my head wishing I was dead because of you waistin precious led because of you hatin  red because of you I don't lie but I cry because of you I'm loyal as **** and true because of you baby for real if you don't feel any of this I'll die because of you! you're all I got never forgotten like a needle in the cotton you'll never see me do! like I just ******* said I'm in love because of you.
     So can you wait?  if not from Jail, but released from the prison gates. can you wait? till I'm able to impregnate you? i ******* generate because of you I'm doing time writting rhymes because of you.
    Id always wait for you I'm begging you wait for me I have no one I care about as much as the girl of my dreams sometimes I just sit here and all I wanna do is just scream!
      You're all I have, after losing my mom, child, and dad that's just ******* half! I mean baby can you last? without being overwhelmed by these shadows that I cast, memories from the past, or leaving me for a different man? do you think you can?
If you do, then I got major ******* plans, I wanna be a real ******* Dad that raises a real ******* man that replaces all the disgraces  in my life that I have.
      Baby I know you're the one tougher then a gun hearts skipping beats when we hug, fits like a glove, only one putting money on the phone every month, man your love is stacking up! only one putting up, only one not giving up, only one staying strong, while ur man is ******* gone! say "it doesn't matter" even when I'm in the wrong, when I didn't have a job all  I could do is ******* Robb and steal because of you but like I just said 26 bars ago, I'm in love because of you!

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This addiction I'm addicted to is writing rhymes when I'm missing you I know you want it to like sticky glue I'm picking you straight sticking to you cuz my addiction is I'm addicted to you.
Baby my life is full of scars in my brain from smoking shards everyday getting harder everyday trying to barter everyday just to send you messages everyday in any way that I can.
You think it's easy being a man? when the cops came do you know why I ran? Cuz going to jail zero bail zero mail wasn't the plan. But instead, hugging you loving you rubbing you trying to be a man for you trying to do what I can for you  with a d.o.c. felony warrant out for me not for you I'm crazy over you let's get back to my addiction I'm addicted to you.
It's going to get better well at least in this letter it is. why? because if it wasn't for my guy I d just sit and cry and wished Id die but it seems like he's keeping me alive while I stress hard at night cuz I got no reply my girl didn't press six every time I called I woulda just bawled my eyes out which is usually not allowed in here where fear is considered week you better not leak a tear or you can just push the button and get the **** up out of here but I'm still here faceing three years I thought youd stick with me but why do I feel your unsticking not sticking to me slowly falling off I feel like I'm being robbed without you everything I ever loved is gone because I'm gone?? Where is God? Well, like my kid he's gone and I'm just being real I'm not trying to hate on quote our Creator but he's not here either no disrespect to the readers of this if you're believer I could see why you'd be ****** but really I can care less so let's try to get back to the reason why I'm writing about addiction for no reason or why my hearts supposed to be pumping blood but instead is bleeding like my knees bleeding from kneeing from needing help but not seeing im delt being beat with belts can't go to school with welts cuz they're afraid I'll tell well can you blame me? **** it **** me take a picture and frame me  I'm ashamed I was ever anybody's baby I mean am i going crazy? maybe it's because lately I'm back to not giving a **** I don't believe my luck but I'm forced to with no remorse or chorus I just keep writing of course sitting in jail eating the porridge  we get every morning weather my cellys  snoring it don't matter anymore cuz I'm being filled with hate till the moment I snap or break like taking the juice away I used to pour  in my cake pretty soon it's going to be too late to bring back the man that would have done anything for your *** **** **** I just gotta  give thanks to HATE for putting up with me as I'm stressin G cuz obviously without my ***** I seem a little wobbly wobbling around I swear he knows everything I mean without having to explain anything.
I want to flip out trip out then dip out but I'm stuck here with my **** out as My ***** rips out and dips out with my heart that's scarred now it's hard sometimes when your straight blinded from the outside but reminded by thoughts that are rewinded and replayed everyday i cant get away cuz praying doesn't work so **** the **** that said it would or said it could change my life  instead I struggle just to stay alive and not cry cuz nobody gives a **** about ty. That's why I'm holding on so tight to this girl I've been trying to find my whole life I'm just glad I didn't **** myself with those knives or am I?
I really don't know but I hope my pain in this shows from the highs and lows to the blankets we use as pillows this addiction I'm addicted to is feeling these flows even when nobody knows if when or how the story may go you may be told someday when you're old that your dad didn't make it cuz he couldn't take it no mo now that's just real your dad couldn't heal without you! now to the women he dated and married to make you I swear I don't hate you it's not too late to make it up to you its just hard to be free will they ever release me? I mean the systems like a disease like cancer and *** till your deceased trapped by the ultimate gang of police that does the government's ***** deeds till they feed us full of diseases never release us I mean where is Jesus? They say he died to free us but really I think he committed treason the reason is because he couldn't free us he couldn't be us he escaped back to the safety of the heavenly gates where he could watch people in pain dying everyday women getting ***** kids taken away you ask me God isn't real and Jesus is fake so to the pencil that helped  me write this Thanks.

Forever no telling how clever till whenever  I always remember what I do that's true like loving blue I love u.
For you im the best that's no guess you've been a bless like a blessing you can keep guessing am I a man? I am. And that's fa **** show! like this flow of a poem for you should know I live in your home your mine all mine its not a crime no lie not shy that's right.
You make me feel so good inside.. example... being told you have the ability to fly on your own free will. This Is so real. **** where'd you come from? I'm so in love, beats of a drum, I make you come, you make me run, you are my Sun and sky that's right id fight for your side for your pride for who lied and try to be the guy for you for life.. this is tyler vogel 2009.

Do you have any idea what it's like to look at your ex girlfriends picture on the wall? It's a terrible feeling I can barley explain at all.
I ******* up and lost it all again, and look where it led a trip to the pen. If I had the chance to rewind and replay I'd know now too kneel and pray, but all i have now are memories from back in the day from when I had a life and was doing right,  instead of tweaking I went to bed at night, instead of robbing and stealing I paid for mine's. But now I'm paying the fine, locked up in prison and doing time.  I lost a beautiful girl and good life,  because of a ******* up mind!