you were a red light
and I was going far too fast

I can't even look at the passenger seat of my car
While I'm driving because
All I see
Is how you're not in it

the morning after
I turned the shower on
as hot as it would go
I threw my shampoo bottle
across the tub because
it still wasn't hot enough
to burn you out of me

the idea of not kissing you again
shouldn't make me sick but god ******
the thought of it
is like drinking bleach

I'll get sick in the bathroom at school
Because we haven't spoken in days
And
I'll buy the cigarettes I hate and you love
Because that's what you always tasted like
And
I'll try to love myself like you did
Because no one else can
But
I'll die before
I tell you that I miss you

I’m so afraid that
I’m going to spend the rest of my life
Searching only to find
Artificial second-hand versions
Of that feeling you so violently
Pounded into my chest

stars shine so bright that
we can see them from
millions of miles away
so someone please
tell me how I didn't see you coming