Questions you never answered, still linger in my thoughts.
I want to know why you left, why you stopped loving me.
Was it all a ploy? A game to string me along?
It happened so abruptly, without any warning.
The day it all came to fruition, you wouldn't even show your face.
I sat there alone, waiting for you to come.
Watching everyone else go through the same misery you brought into my life.
They call our names and you are no where near, only me and my tears.
I walked to the stand slower than I ever have before, hoping and praying you would walk through that door.
You would say you are sorry and lets just go back home, but that time never came and again I stand here alone.
Sign here and here, and we will send you on your way.
Thank you for not causing a scene he did say.
I walked out those doors, dropped to my knee.
I just wanted answers, but answers I did not receive.
I have tried the move on, I have tried to love again,
But not knowing why you're gone has sheltered my heart.
Give me the answers, let me move on.
Why have you kept me under your spell for so long.
You said you will still always love me, no matter what the outcome should be,
So let me move on and just answer me.
Questions you never answered, still linger in my thoughts.
I want to know why you left, why you stopped loving me.

I've seen you wear those shoes before.
I fear this is the last time I'll see them walk out that door.

They are nothing special, nothing too much.
But give you just enough comfort for when we lose our touch.

You never shout, or try to pick a fight.
Simply dust off those shoes and leave for the night.

That peculiar sound they make as you walk down the hall,
Will always set me up for that dreadful fall.

I'll say that I am sorry, I will try to beg and plead.
Why does it take you leaving to realize you are all I need?

I want to change, and become a better man.
Losing your heart was never part of my plan.

It's been a full year since you marched out that door,
but your memory still lingers, and I simply can't ignore.

I hate that you left me, I hate that you walked away.
I pray persistently that you might return someday.

But I know that it's over, and what we had will never be.
Everyday I come home and all that is there is me.

I used to hate hearing those shoes walking down the hall.
Turns out I would give anything to see them after all.

Feelings soar, only to spiral back down.
Scars heel, and memories fade.
We contemplate the words we should say,
the thoughts we should ponder,
and the emotions we desperately want to show.
Waiting, only fuels the fear that keeps us from expression.
Expression can bring us to our highest ecstasy in life,
but it is expression, that can also bring us to our knees.
Life's biggest quandary, to express our desires or to flee.  
A choice we must all make, and regardless of the fear of rejection.
Never knowing, always guessing, leads to our demise.

Time and time again I think of you.
Memories etched in the corners of my mind.
I try to run away, but the tides keep bringing me back to that smile I long for everyday.
I wanted to grow old with you; I wanted to share all the love I could.
There is no doubt I tried to love you, I tried to show you everything I could be.
That was not enough.
Not enough to keep you from running away.

Every night you creep back into my dreams, reminding me of what I desire, yet cannot have.
I see you in my dreams and wish to never wake up, just to hold you, just to feel you, just knowing you are there is all I have left.
What I would give to run my hands through your deep brown hair one more time, or to hear you say everything will be ok.
But I know that is not reality.
I wake up every morning to the cold, dark truth that awaits me.
I want nothing more than to forget you ever existed in my life, to have never fallen in love with you.
Only then would the hurt be absent from my heart.

Seeing you so happy, so free, only hurts me more.
I wanted to give you the world, and if only given the opportunity, now that I see what I lost, I would give you everything you desired.
I know you no longer love me, I know you no longer care. I just want to know what we once had was real.
One day I hope to move on, one day I hope you will be just another stepping stone.
But for now you remain a poison in my mind.
There is no doubt that I love you, and a part of me always will.