seating in a train at the west side facing sit
taking out her mobile
checking different types of ring
with different kinds of wedding gown
she zone out for min thinking
if today is that day she find happiness
if to day is the day that will led her to that day
that will get her called mommy or be wiffy
she is telling her self that she is tired of getting called miss
she is ready for the honor the honor of Mrs
except the one is late
to deliver his heart message
with that round ring diamond on the top.

I have a story to tell
about these  girl,
how her life choices
have been taken by the people,
yet they say it's her free will

They took away her will
So she could not be somebody's leader
They took away her will
So she could not be somebody's healer
They took away her will
So she could not choose her Owen lover

I can’t believe I am living in a time line
Were People giggle in dying time
I can’t believe I am living in a time line
where your Owen family ruin your lifeline
Not saying I don’t acknowledge
What they do best in your lifetime
Just saying
We human beings that only
One thing promised us
With no plus nor discuss
You see they told her
she is their gift from GOD
but they did not tell her
she is that gift
with free-will tag
Her soul is torn
By the memories
Of those time she could not erase
Her mind is lost in these new world
That keep telling her life is just these
She wondering aimlessly
Like an abandoned child searching for comfort
Her body weak and sickened
By a bunch work she can’t handle


I can’t get it through my head
why a young pretty girl,
with a lot to live
is given away for marriage
to an old guy
with few hours to live
cant make sense
They told her their happiness is her happiness
They told her the older the bridegroom is the best chance of her cherry tree bloom
They told her the fact he is good to them he will be good to her
They told her marring  him finding herself is better than finding herself by her self
But since she was born in mirror society, that reflect only what it seen
She decide to reflect
But deep down she knew marring him was mistake
She just did not knew that 16 year old can bring change by speaking it loud
So she just kept it in the cloud.
.

So I wonder
what her mom would say if she heard that these written words I am reading is about the daughter
who couldn’t speak about her pain.




So I wonder
what her dad would say if he knew that these written words I am reading is about the daughter he betrayed.

6 months gaps
5 years
4 kids
Too bad she can’t give him love the same as  his seeds
Drinking alcohol are his hobbies
Gambling places where he want to be
And now his having money problems
And now he blaming her for the finical problems
It funny how it was his idea
To marry under-graduated one
I think that was his plan
you can say it her fault, when you are the cause one
you can't expect her to be a lawyer
when you following fuckt up nature
he already forgot  
that he married her when she was just a teen
When she supposed to finish high school at eight teen
Go to university nine teen
Go thru the different fashion and complete her passion
And say stop these is my life notion  
And know you blaming
He yelling and screaming at her face
Calling her all these  names
with 90 percent of his blood alcohol
He grape her with the hair to wall
Telling her his fuckt up life is her fault
He abusing, he abusing
He push his fist by force to her face
She move left hoping him to miss
He did miss
It also make her situation worse
He grape her by her neck and slap until she fall
She keep bagging him to stop to stop it all
He keep kicking her when she is in the floor
Keep hitting until the recovery of his soulless soul is no more
She can’t take it anymore
She stand up on her feet
Run to kitchen
Throw her hand grab the closest weapon
She can see
throw it straight to the front that was chasing her in her back Shadow
Straight to his head
Finally he start showing his true face
Changing to a red devil wait wait!!
That’s blood coming down to his face
She move to the left  
He move to the left
And she run to the right
And he fall to the right
His head would not  stop bleeding
His soulless soul would not stop telling him to chase her
But he was powerless laying on the floor
After few min  
He stop breathing
Even the kindest oxygen said
It time it time u stop using me
It is time for you to go
She Do care deep but at same time she do bury deep

So I wonder
what her mom would say if she heard that these written words I am writing is about the daughter
who couldn’t speak about her pain.




So I wonder
what her dad would say if he knew that these written words I am writing is about the daughter he betrayed.