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Jordan Jul 2015
Everyday I put on a smile,
And act like I'm okay.

I act like i didn't cry myself to sleep
The night before.
I look act strong on the outside
When I'm really crumbling on the inside.

I act strong for my friends
So they don't worry.
Even though I would love to know
If someone really did care.

I act like I think I'm pretty
So my friends won't tell me I am.
I act like I already ate
So they don't force me to eat.

I try to be the real me
But I can't.
My life has become nothing but
One big act.
Jordan Jul 2015
They won't leave me alone.
They keep haunting me.
Telling me things.
"You're worthless"
"You're fat"
"You're ugly"
"No one loves you"
"Go **** yourself already!"
I'm losing more of my sanity everyday.
I wish they would go away.
I'm beginning to believe them.
I am worthless.
I am fat.
I am ugly.
No one actually cares about me.
I should go **** myself.
They make me want t die.
The voices in my head
They won't leave me alone.
Jordan Jul 2015
Such a young, beautiful, naive girl
Completely oblivious to the dark side.
The side where everywhere you look you see all these people
Who seem to have given up and lost all hope.

Where anything but sadness is just a memory
That has seem to have long since been forgotten.
Where anything but sadness is just a dream.
Where people long to feel something other than numbness.

It is a world full of the forgotten.
The outcasts, misfits, loners...
And even a few painters.
However, there is a bit of a twist,
Their brush is a razor;
The canvas is their skin.

Such a young, beautiful, naive girl.
Eventually, she grew up
And discovered this world.
The world that distorts the idea of perfect.
Saying that you have to look a certain way
Or act a certain way to be accepted.

This young girl turned into a teenager
And experienced this world.
And just like many others,
She became a painter.
But as I said before, there is a twist.
Her brush a razor;
Her canvas her skin.

Such a young, beautiful, naive girl.
She grew up
And discovered the cruel reality of
The real world.

— The End —