I talk words of lust
with a boy unaware
I know not if it's unjust
if he knew that i would dare

To be touching lips with another
and another after that
3 boys who want me
and on top of that...

an ex-lover who awaits
her love to be reciprocated
by one she had wronged
by me, yes, I she has wronged.

and alas, the sister of a friend
whom i am confused upon
if i should love her or not
fool, you may think that she is the last one

another girl at school
she is but a year older
i see her from time to time
rarely i seek for her

she is but a crush
the sister, but a dream
the ex-lover - such a waste
and though it may seem

that i am an adultress
because of all these men
but judge me not
i don't belong to any of them

commit, you say
it is for the best
but if i do so again
i may have to rip out my chest

it hurts beyond words
and the pain - i may not be able to bare
and i'd have to swallow the hurt again
till i am too numb to give a care

so tell me, kind stranger, what would you do?
if you had 3 boys and 1 girl loving you
another girl, you might love
and another girl, as a crush
don't you think it's a tad bit too much?

though, i can't control it
I need to be reassured
that though my love betrayed me
this broken vessel be cured

by something more real
it has to exist
something i wont be afraid to love
something far greater than a kiss

something others cant take from me
something thats just mine
something that i can have
and keep for all time

so tell me, kind stranger, do you take me for a fool?
you think i don't know that such thing is hard to find?
that it is but impossible
because i am still so blind

i'll find my happiness
i pray to the gods i do
but only once i stop thinking of finding it
is when id find you

you. whom i have poured my heart and soul out to
without giving a rat's ***
one i'm not afraid of - i'm afraid of everything.
you, who is not wearing a mask.

if you tell me that you're right there
id lose all faith in man kind
because i know you're not
i know that now.

if you tell me you wont hurt me
don't say another word
because i know you will hurt me
i know that now.

but i can love myself
i can live for myself, too
i know that now
i don't exactly have to live for you.

it is my life
this is my world
but i'm lonely
because i'm too scared to be that broken hearted girl

the one who cried
the one who swore
and hit her lover
and walked out the door

even if i could
i wouldn't change a thing
because through this mangled heart
i can love true again

someday..

Am I the only one who has ever thought
Of tying a cherry stem into a knot?
Of flying high beyond the starry skies?
If I said “yes” then that would be a lie.

Am I the only one who has ever kissed
The surface of my curious bestfriend’s lips?
Or has had a hard time winking just one eye?
If I said “yes” then that would be a lie.

Oh, I know I’m not that special,
I’d be a fool to think to myself
That if I asked you to stay a while,
There’d be a chance that you’d say “yes”

But would you please hold my hand?
Would you have me just how I am?
What if I stayed with you all day so you can tell me about the one you love?
You think at the end, I’d deserve a hug?

Am I the only one who has ever thought
Of planting trees with you on a vacant lot?
Of painting something that you’d appreciate?
Yes, I know that I’m now too late.

Am I the only one who has ever wondered
If maybe I could be that one first kiss?
Am I the only one who’s dreamt?
Am I the only one who’s wished?

Am I the only one who’s cursed
At the whole entire universe
Coz’ just when I thought that I could be the one,
She got there first.

Oh I know I’m not that special
I’d be a fool to think to myself
That if I asked you to be mine,
There’d be a chance that you’d say “yes”
Coz’ I’m not the only one.

Sweet laughter
Those honest smiles
Pure joy
Comes only from a child

Starting off
With those innocent eyes
But as they grow,
They see then all the lies

I would love to call one my own
I would love to make them happy
But in this world full of the unknown
We have to be wise.

And once they grow,
They acquire much hate
What would they go to church for
Out of fear or their faith?

I know you try
But you can’t shield them from hurt
I know you try
Coz you know what their worth

A little baby, that’s all they’ll ever be to you
You made a promise, you made sure to follow through
Lead them to a place where they are safe
Guide them to happiness, with all that you gave

I would love to call one my own
I would love to make them happy
But in this world full of the unknown
We have to be wise

I don’t pretend to know
What love is for you.
I don’t expect you to see it
The way I see it, too.

I don’t mind if you disagree,
I don’t mind if you stop reading,
I don’t mind if you think they’re silly-
These things I believe in.

I believe that love
Is more than just ***
Because loving a stranger
Shouldn’t be something to regret

I believe that love
Is stronger than hate
Because its love that makes us hurt
It’s not anger that keeps us up late

I believe that love
Is a word that’s said too much
Because we tend to hear it more often
Than we feel its touch.

I believe that love
Is a word that’s not said enough
Because you can pretend to not care
But there’s always one person to call your bluff

I believe that love
Is a word that’s to be meant
It’s supposed to be for keeps
Not something for rent

I believe that love
Is often misunderstood
I’d explain it to you
If only I could

But I believe in love
I believe it can change a thing or two
I believe that if you meant it once
Really meant it?
You’d mean it now, too

I believe that love
Can change over time
There are different types of love
Not all are so hard to find

Love believes in you
It believes in us all
Why else would we keep finding it
After every other fall

Keep loving, keep living
Keep believing that in time
All the types of love in the world
Someday, you will find.